Trying to Conceive After Miscarriage/Loss July 2009

[coco1411]

Hi Hannah, so sorry you're back here again. Im worried about the same thing happening when we do finally fall pregnant again.

Can you maybe fib a little and say you've had 3 m/c? And you want to get testing done now? Im not sure how that all works but I will not be waiting around if I have another m/c.

I had a natural m/c with taking misoprostal to get things "moving" and it was bloody horrible. I hope yours passes very quickly and you can start to mourn.

Im not really good with knowing what to say, but I know that all the girls here are just so amazing and have helped me so much through my issues. I know you'll be able to find some comfort here.

What have us women done that is so damn wrong that we have to go through this???

[Tanya]

Oh Hannah! I am so sorry for your loss (((hugs)))



Tested again this morning... I wasn't going to.... BFN.... I think I will lay off the tests... LMAO!!!

[Sunbeam]

Hi Hannah- I'm so sorry you have had to return, I know it is a huge fear for all of us. I have also had 2 m/c in a row so I understand the shock the second time when you truly feel everything will go okay. I also saw my baby's strong heart beat but 2 days later it had passed away. I think what i have discovered is that m/c is far more common than I would ever have believed but that it is such a taboo subject few people will tell you until you have been through it too. I do not know much about testing as far as the baby, I have focused more on tests for me to see if anything is not right. I hope we can be here for you and offer you the support you need at this time.

Tanya-sorry for your BFN this morning, is it still early?

[Sunny Love]

Good morning ladies!!!!

I have something i'd like to share. On Sunday night I tested (very early) and both dh and I saw a shadow, so I tested Monday morning on FMU and got a faint second line. Which brings me today. On FMU I now have a lovely but light line. Now for the reason why im writing you all.

Originally if I got a BFP I was going to keep it to myself, mostly out of respect and compassion for the beautiful women who are still trying or have had little success. Here comes me, for a couple of months and then im off again. Now that I have a light BFP, I don't feel ready to go. Im still untrusting and worried of m/c. Im too nervous too book an DR appt incase its wrong............someone tell me im being stupid because I already know it!

Girls, im so sorry for being selfish.

Sorry for ne persies, but WELOME to those who are new or returning. xoxoxox

[Anila]

morning everyone

hello to all the new ladies that have joined us recently, im sorry for ur loss.

i have been reading not really posting, im having a hard time dealing with the end of my tww, i dont have any money to buy tests, which is probably a good thing really, but im over thinking every symptom, and as a result i think i have become run down, tired and very emotional.

im just over it..

wow sunny, that is awesome news, congratulations hun.

[maddison]

Congratulations Sunny - That is very exciting news. Make your drs appointment. You and your husband both saw the second line so i think its pretty safe to say YOUR PREGNANT!!!!!!

Coco - I know my user name is your chosen babies name and if you get your BFP on August 30th thats my 1st wedding anniversary ... so i hope im your good luck charm!

Hannah - Welcome and im very sorry that you have had to rejoin us. I hope we can give you lots of support and this hard stage.

Very excited for you Sunny. It really warms my heart every time we get a BFP in the group. A friend of mine also announced her pregnancy yesterday and she is a beautiful person. So much good news. Makes me even more excited to be able to announce my own good news when its my turn. Let us know how you go at the drs. Sending you heaps of sticky healthy happy pregnancy vibes!

[Sunny Love]

Thanx so much Maddison and Anila. I am very happy, but nervous. I have no symptoms, my boobs dont feel different or anything. My last cycle was 42 days, this one i tested positive on day 26! Still not 100% convinced!

[Tanya]

Congratulations Sunny!!!!! Have a wonderful STICKY pregnancy!!

Anila, IKWYM about the TWW driving you crazy! I have tests and I have been using them, but they have not helped!

Sunbeam, still only 10 DPO (9 according to FF) so yeah, it is still early... I just wanna know!! LOL

[ferrals5]

Morning ladie's

Hi Hannah sorry you are back here there is a lot of wonderful women in this thread to help you get through this difficult time.

Sunny-way to go hunny i'm so happy for you.

I havn't got time to reply to everyone i have to get to work but wanted to tell you all i had my 1st appt with the FS and it is all looking good i am waiting for them to ring me with date's for our first blood test's ultrasound and DH swimmer's i was told once they take our blood it will be 8 week's for them to develope a probe to test our embryo's then i will start our cycle so we are looking at oct/nov which i am happy with but she strongly advised us to have one embryo transfered as because our fertility is good we have a good chance of twin's if two are transfered and the chance of problem's in twin pregnancie's is a lot higher and premature birth is a problem with twin's so we have to think about that and the other thing is we will not find out the gender of our embryo's we will be happy with what we get.

[Sunbeam]

Sunny that's awesome Oh my gosh 3 positive tests even if they are faint is pretty positive in my book. Get to the dr so you'll know for sure. Whooo! PLEASE DO NOT feel bad for sharing your good news with us, BFPs just give us all hope. Don't worry about the no symptoms either remember every pg is different

Anila and Tanya- really hoping for BFPs for you I know the TTW is agonizing

Ferrals-that's great news and must be a weight off your mind. I really hope the time goes quickly for you with wonderful results at the end.

Hello all my other BB lovelies.

[Anila]

Thanks Tanya and sunbeam, im actually feeling queasy today and i just had an hour and a bit nap while the kids watched tv, im hoping its pregy related, but i have had a few late night recently and im not eating very well, or healthy, i have packed on the kilos since my ttc journey began back in dec, and again even more weight when i lost my baby back in may, so that could be contributing to me being tired.
I have no cm what so ever, but i didnt with my angel baby, so i duno.

sunbeam, is that u in ur ticker?
u are a hottie

[Cherished]

Hello girls

Sunny my little ray of sunshine, so happy your line got darker and darker although I always knew it was a I didn't think it was possible but I think I must be as excited for you as you are for yourself Take care beautiful girl and keep in touch..... HEAPS, I want to hear all about your sticky healthy bub xoxoxo

kyrawolfe, it looks like have figured out your signature and have instructions to get to the abreviation help list I am very sorry for your loss and hope your stay in this thread is short

Hannah I am sorry you are back in this thread and for your loss... I believe there are more tests you can have done even after 2 mc's I am seeing my OB tomorrow and will be asking him so I will let you know. We got dh's swimmers tested on Monday so hopefully they will be good.

Coco do you take fish oils for omega 3? I take flaxseed oil for Omega3 and it can have a laxative effect plus Omega3 is good for your brain

Tanya I have 2 words for you... BULK BUY heheheh I love my bulk buy OPK & PG tests from ebay, is that where you get yours from?

Anila maybe you should get a bulk lot too than you will always have them on hand hehehhe

Ferrals it is very exciting that things are finally happening!

Sunbeam love the pic honey :P

AFM I'm really looking forward to the OB appointment tomorrow, my bleeding has slowed down to heavy spotting but I think I will still be getting a D&C on Friday.... And I can't wait to see what dh's swimmers are like

[Sunbeam]

Anila-hehehe yes that is me in the photo, thanks for the compliment. Really hoping what you are feeling is symptoms when are you going to test? I had no cm when pg either. I know what you mean about piling on the kilos, I've gained 13kg since starting TTC in Feb 08, hence the diet!

Cherished-I hope tomorrows appointment answers all your questions and that DH has superhero swimmers . Although a d&c won't be pleasant I'd imagine you are totally over the bleeding and spotting by now.

[Tanya]

Tanya I have 2 words for you... BULK BUY heheheh I love my bulk buy OPK & PG tests from ebay, is that where you get yours from?

Yup... got way more OPK's than pg tests tho... I thin kI have already used half of my HPT's and this is my 1st cycle!! LOL

[kyrawolfe]

Hannah-=- reading ur post brought me back to our last ultrasound. I had a bit of a cry and feel almost embarrassed about that.. Im not very good at knowing what to say.. and I feel almost unworthy to be crying at someone elses loss just as it feels its not my right too? not sure if that makes any sense..

In a way one of the things that hurts most for me as weird as it sounds is not knowing what sex our baby was.. As soon as ur pregnant (especially when youve been trying over a year..) you feel so in love with your baby and it just feels distancing to me that I dont know wheather i lost my little boy or girl.. We had names picked out and i just wish i could give bubs a sure one.. we ended up calling our baby Cub (a nickname as our name is wolfe) but it still hurts never knowing whether we were having a milo or a mika..

Anyway im ranting,, im very sorry to hear, and hearing the strong heartbeat before hand would have been especially hard *hugs*

Sunny -=- congrats!!!!!!!!!! that is very good news.. Personally i dont feel anything bad for people in here who finally get a BFP, it does give me hope, and its to someone who really deserves it... Fingers crossed you get through the 3 month wait without too much stress, and get a healthy bub in ur arms at the end of it all

Coco -=- have you got ur AF visit yet? Its exciting to hear that this month will be a higher chance for you than b4.. GOOD LUCK, im sending you concentrated hope energy!!! *puts fingers to temples*

Tanya-=- Ohhh i soo wanna bulk buy testing things.. but i just know ill waste them all and end up doing 30 a day just because i obsess over my will of being pregnant and try to make it happen with my mind! (im a little spiritually crazy, but u will all get used to that) Im sorry for ur BFN ... im kinda in the same boat this month

AFM-=- well last night i did my monthly BFN.. wasnt as surprising to me as i already kinda knew AF was comeing.. someone outta tell her shes outstaying her welcome eh. Stupid cow invites herself over every month!

As for when i do get pregnant.. I can just see myself chewing my nails so far down i dnt have fingers left and pacing up and down the halls of our house until i hit 3 months.. hell until ive birthed bubs. So Im thinking i will stick around even if that does happen soon.. That and im likeing everyone in here and enjoying the virtual company

Well this month has marked one and a half years since we started trying.. Sigh.. soldier on i guess eh? Ur all so strong and do this so well ..i feel like such a whinger lol

Well love to hear from u all sorry if iv missed anyone but im sure ill get to know the haps a bit better as i keep jumping on here each day..

Now back to missing my son and hubby (there at kindy and work today and im all alone with my cramps)

TTYL girls

Kyra

[HannahS86]

Thank you for the words of encouragement, Ladies. I forgot how much it helped me to come here during my first m/c. It seems nobody else in the world understands what I'm going through. I'm sorry that you all do, but it is helpful to know you're all here.

Kyra- I know what you mean about not knowing the sex. It is really hard. We considered having the tissue tested so that we could at least know if it was a boy or a girl, but unfortunately, that wouldn't be covered by my insurance. I do have a feeling that this one was a girl, but can't know for sure. DH and I are choosing names for both of our angel babies. We went through baby name websites and looked up unisex names. It's really difficult to name a baby that I know I won't meet until I go to heaven, but I feel that it's the right thing for DH and I to do to help us get through this.

Sunbeam- we seem to have had very similar experiences. I'm so sorry for your losses. We aren't planning on getting any testing for the baby. It just wouldn't feel right for me personally. What kind of testing did you have done?

Coco- I actually did consider fibbing and telling them I have had three m/c, but I called my insurance company today and they said there is no required amount of m/c you have to go through before they will cover testing (thank goodness!) So I am going to insist during my appointment tomorrow with my doctor! She hasn't mentioned misoprostal to me yet, but I was thinking of asking her about it. I don't know much about it though. Is there any risk for further pregnancies or anything like that? I think it would be hard for me to take that, but at the same time, my baby stopped growing 3.5 weeks ago and I haven't had any bleeding or spotting yet. The wait is devastating. I don't feel like I'll even start to feel better until DH and I can start TTC again. It helped me heal after our first loss.

Sunny- CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR BFP! That is such exciting news! Praying that everything is perfect with your precious little one!

to everyone else! You all are so strong, I don't know how you do it. Praying that we all get our miracles soon

[zstar]

hi everyone

i have been lurking around and reading what is going on everyday. to be honest i really don't feel like i fit anywhere at the moment. 4 wks 3 days pg. anyway, a few things i want to say.....

hannahs86 - so sorry you are back here. this is my 2nd pg - had 1st m/c in april and far out, it is doing my head in. always in the back of your mind. i feel that once you have m/c once it plays with your emotions. i keep thinking to myself 'it just wouldn't happen to me twice' and bang, i get on there today and read about you. fresh in my face. i know there are so many wonderful girls on here that have had more than 1. it blows my mind. the support of here will get your through and you will have your baby in your arms one day. stay strong.

sunny09 - big congrats. so happy for you. go and see your doc. doc has told me now swimming, no baths/spas, no hot showers, stick to walking for excercise (i tend to go full on with my excercise) and just cruze. easier said than done. be happy for your BFP. i too don't want to leave here either. sending you lots of sticky vibes!

anila & tanya - the tww is never fun. i hope you get your bfp's very soon. all i did towards the end of mine was eat eat eat. not good.

ferrals - that is great news for you.

afm - trying to keep occupied and not worry. i have my first scan in 21 days. looking forward to that. i just have to have faith that one day i will hold me own little baby, it will be mine to comfort when its crying, mine to take to the park, mine to love love love. you here people compaining of having to get up in the middle of the night to their crying baby and i think that would be a dream come true!

i hope you are all going ok out there. this road is long and tough. without you all it would be sooo much harder.

[kyrawolfe]

I know right now is going to be an anxious time for you.. and i think we will all be there when it finally happens for us..

I hope everything keeps going steady for u and that this is the baby u will hold in ur arms very soon

GOOD LUCK! and CONGRATS ON UR BFP!!

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