cherished - to add to the post in the other thread... I felt the same way you feel now after my last mc. Spent several days on the couch not doing anything then joined BB. That was my life saver. Up til then I didn't trust myself at all. Please don't think this is because you don't deserve to be a mother. Get the referral to a specialist, even without tests, they may have some great info for you.

It is unfair, it is incredibly unfair, but please, don't let it make you give up your dream to be a mummy.