Hey my sweet blossoms. I am so sorry it has taken me all of March to realise that I missed the start of a new thread! I finally worked it out today! I am true to my name - Dory.
I have missed you all so much and have been thinking of you.
Murraycod - I haven't caught up on what's happened for you so far this month. I will write more when I catch up.
I am so honoured and humbled that you remembered me and my fat boy slims birthday ( oliver cat). he had a great cat birthday - snoozing, eating and getting pats, and a new cat toy. Purrrfect.
AFM - I go in for a cerclage tomorrow. Glad I have made the decision, as you know it was tough. Still a bit worried about the possible consquences for bubs, but know in my heart its the right decision for me. If I a honest there is worry in this journey no matter what. Apart from the inconvenience of not eating or drinking from midnight tonight ( and boy is that tough in my present "state") all good here. 14 weeks today.
Will be back later when I have had a chance to catch up.
ferrals I think we are feeling the same I am thinking maybe get rid of my baby stuff the pram,cot,clothes moses basket,High chair and so on no good clogging up the house anymore ! I still have no change on my stick and have no desire to Bdance either so I guess this is natures way why baby dance when there is no eggy there ! I know I ovulated late last month but its day 15 and nothing don't feel anything to be honest except disapointment and sorrow ! But you are younger than me you have a whole 10yrs until you are my age so keep going please for me !
Murraycod oh how nice to see those lines and I know how you must be feeling now wondering is it the meds or is it true it just might be you know keep thinking that it is and you may be rewarded soon ! I was sorting out my knicker draw the other day and found my POAS with 2 lines on from last June oh how it made me cry and I thought you know this is probably the last time this will be in my hand a positive result and its 9mnths old !
Bons would it be so dreadful if your mum had a baby too ? I mean how old is she ? you see I am nearly 45 and I am going to be a granny in Oct and my son is your age and if it really upsets you that much then maybe I should be thinking more about them and not so much about my needs ! just wondering thats all need to get a younger persons opinion is all ! Hope you get a BFP real soon and a chrissy baby !
Dory I so agree with you if I was in your shoes then I would go and have a few stitches infact I would get it sewn up good and proper for the next 5mnths or so ! hope it all goes well come back soon and let us know you are ok !
hubba wow good news on the scan at least you got one full sac and one empty sac I only had an empty one at my 12wks scan and its the worst feeling in the world,
keep us informed on your progress !
T-hopes hi there sorry its a bad day for you My EDD was the other week and you spend your whole time thinking if only ! but its not to be we have to greive and say goodbye and try and try our hardest to get another BFP to fill the empty feeling we have ! I know how you feel be strong and enjoy your flowers ( you never know maybe too early for testing ) your BFP shows up soon !
well as you can probably tell I am not doing too well my emotions are all over the place crying for no good reason and hating myself for being so weak ! but I guess these hormones of mine are up the swanny and I have to get used to it , Must try to get on with life and not obsess so much ! easier said than done ! why I have to feel like this !
Craftymummy - No its no a bad thing at all if my mum has another baby, my youngest sister is 6 months, Im very supportive of her decision to ttc, maybe a little scared of the consequences for her health, her last pregnancy was very hard on her physically.She is turning 44 in a few months. It is more weird discussing the best times to bd and cm with her and the fact that our cycles are 6 days apart would mean if we both get UTD in the same cycle we will be giving birth together too. I think you are a classic mum, worrying about the impacts on your kids, if you and your DH want another baby then I say Go For It!!!!!
Em - Af for me was very heavy after D &C and I wasnt expecting it to be like that at all, was thinking it would be light and over in a few days......TMI coming up instead i got 6 days of heavy heavy bleeding that went through pads and tampons in record time but no clots, I figure my body must of done a great job of restocking my lining Good luck ttc this month.
T- Hopes - BIG hugs to you, Im sorry today has been so hard, Be brave
Dory good luck tomorrow! Im with Crafty get it sewn up good and proper, So glad you have made it to 14 weeks!!!! Now for 25ish H & H weeks to go!
Ferrals - I hope you are feeling a bit better this afternoon, hang in there as hard as it is.
em-glad it has slowed down,sorry to sound stupid-might be all this nose spray i'm sniffing but what is a moon cup?...craftymummy-Don't get rid of all that baby stuff just yet,if it hurts to look at it,could you put into storage somewhere?..bons-you reminded me of a movie called father of the bride 2(i think)great show where mum & daughter are utd together & actually go into labour hours apart...dory-hope all goes smoothly tomorrow.Be thinking of you...
Mummyof4: YAY!!!! So excited for you my dear!! Keep us updated on everything, we love hearing happy news!
Em: Yep, my first AF was heavier than usual, and went for a day or two longer than usual. I was delighted to have it though, cos it meant I could start TTC again! Getting the second AF was really hard though, I cried lots. Feeling good about this cycle, whichever way it goes (oh I say that now!)
Dory: Eeeee! That's so exciting, I'm glad you feel good about the decision, that's the most important thing - that you feel your making the best decision for you and your baby. I agree with everyone else, aint nothing coming out of there til it's baked good and proper!
Hubba: There's a baby in there and it's doing well, concentrate on that. Hugs to you darling xo
Thopes: Oh no, that sounds like such a hard day, you did so well in getting though it. Hopefully it's just too early and your BFP is just around the corner. We're thinking of you xo
Murraycod: Ah the joy of two lines I so so SO hope that those lines stick around for you babe.
Crafty: I O'd on day 21 last cycle, I did a lot of reading and a late O is apparantly a good thing, cos it shows that estrogen is still being produced in good amounts, google said that early ovulation is not such a good sign, as the egg possibly isn't good enough. So late is ok! Late is good! Save your energy for the serious bd'ing that will happen in the next few days when you do O.
Ferrals: Hugs to you sweetheart.
AFM well I *think* I o'd a few days ago, hopefully. Had only scant EWCM, which is unusual for me, but hopefully all the bd'ing meant I still caught the egg. Haven't had any more for a few days, which makes me think that I've already O'd. At least if this cycle doesn't work, I'll know I did everything I could. Still obsessing, not getting anywhere near as much uni stuff done as I'd like, lots of faffing and daydreaming. Friends of mine are putting off TTC for a couple more months, the circumstances surrounding it isn't so good, but I feel a bit relieved, I kinda feel like I'm MEANT to be preg before them. I want to be happy for them when it does happen, and the best way for me to be happy is to already be preg. Oh I don't like what this whole thing is doing to me, I miss my generous happy self I can't control when they/me get UTD, but I can control my reactions, and I'm gonna be happy for them! No matter what. Theoretically, lol. And I find out if I'm preg or not in 2 weeks. I can wait 2 weeks. Two long, painful weeks.
Matthews Mum: probably easier to google mooncup- but you use it like a tampon- but it collects the blood instead of absorbing it.
KitFaerie: hun I know what you mean about thinking you should be pregnant before your friends- I know others that will probably be having babies soon and I want to be pregnant so I can be more happier for them- because it's tough otherwise.
thanks all.. it just wasnt my month....
Still waiting for AF no sign of her at all.. Last month i started on the 25 so i wish she get here so i can get started again ..
I cant believe last 2 months we had alot of BFP.. So happy for you all..
Crafty-if you have a 33 day cycle you wont O until day 19 so don't drop your bundle just yet and as you know your E2 was low when checked so just means it might be harder to detect on monitor until you get the LH surge and peak that will show up.
morning everyone-kitfairie-hope your the 1st cab off the rank within your group of friends...em-thanks for the info...ttcalovechild-best of luck to you as well,we've got keep these bfp's coming....ferrals-keeping distracted in your tww???
Sorry I have been MIA for a while I am stuggling to find time to read all the posts.
Mummyof4 congratulations on your BFP Lets hope the BFPs keep coming.
AFM- I'm with you KitF, I miss my happy self. I'm struggling at the moment and very sick of being sad all the time. I know what you mean Ferrals about wanting to get rid of all your baby stuff, I about think that often. I have decided I need to take a break from BB again (though I will be checking for BFPs) as I just feel I have nothing to give and seeing everyones struggles is making me sadder. I'm so sorry, I hate to go but I really need to try and focus on something else for a while and get my strength back. The melt down I had a few weeks back has really knocked me for 6. Before that I can honestly say that I only ever lost total hope of ever having a baby about 1% of the time now I feel like my hope of every having my baby is only about 10% total. I can no longer picture myself with a fat pregnant belly let alone with a baby in my arms. I will keep trying, though AF is still not back yet and have decided to go to the counsellor more regularly.
I am sad to leave and I hope I will be strong enough to come back very soon.
Love you all, you are fantastic, strong, courageous women.
sunbeam-you'll be missed,good luck with the rest of your journey,hope the councelling helps you ,will be thinking of you,hope we meet again in a pregnancy thread.
SORRY i havent been around - i have been struggling with the demons big time ! Stressing flat out that if i do manage to fall pregnant again that i will just have another m/c etc etc. I have gone from feeling really excited about another baby to really scared to try. AF turned up yesterday so our little "sneaky saturday" didnt work anyway. Strangely i wasnt too worried. I think i knew it wasnt going to happen.
I have been reading but just havent been able to bring myself to post - feeling very down.
We have decided to take the boys on a family holiday in September. Off to the Gold Coast and then to stay with my brother and his family for a few weeks inland from Rockhampton. So excited and its ages away ! It will be the first holiday we have all had together since before DS#3 came along.
It has helped having something else to focus on that isnt related to TTC.
We have even talked about postponing TTC til January next year - just enjoy life and not stress about it. We have so much going on as it is and i need to find that happy place again. I feel like i have lost me - i feel like my family has lost me
We haven't seen a few family members for ages cause i'm just not interested - no motivation - would rather do my own thing !
So at this stage - i wont be in here anymore - well - until we start TTC again...
I want to thank you ALL for your support and strength and love !
You all rock !
Good luck - i will be watching for BFP's. When i come back i dont want to see any of you in here - i mean that in the nicest possible way - you should all be in Bellybuddy groups !
Don't give up hope - please !
Sorry for the me, me, me post but i am way too far behind to catch up.
I am new here, Hubby and I lost our little angel in February and we are currently enduring the 2ww. I have symptoms I am sure, and then next minute I think I am crazy and making it all up. I am 7 dpo today, I dont do temps but i cant wait t o be able to test and know for sure. Why is it that it seems like forever.....
Congrats to all the BFP's out there, hopefully the energy will be shared around
Also, hubby and I bd this morning and I swear it felt differnet physically , it was like he was bumping my uterus. Anyone evr experienced tis b4?
Sunbeam and Jahzara-sorry to see you go but i totally understand i also feel like i need a break it just gets to much i want to sell all my baby stuff and try to forget the whole idea of a baby i was happy before we went on the ttc wagon and now every day is consumed with waiting to O waiting to BD the TWW and waiting for AF then there is the whole mental anguish of can i get pregnant again will i get pregnant again will the baby be healthy it all gets to much i just want ME back the ME i use to be the ME i was before my life fell to pieces and comming in here and talking to you all helps me not to burden my family or DH with all my worries but somtimes reading other posts and seeing BFP after BFP can bring all the pain back don't get me wrong i am happy for anyone who is lucky enough to get a BFP it just reminds me that i am still here and don't know what to do or how to move on without a baby i don't know how to be not TTC it is so imbedded in my mind and life how do i remove it and move on.
AFM-i feel like i do every month not pregnant i am getting premenstral and anxious and irritable normal symptoms of AF comming for me so i guess i am already out of the running this month.
oh Ferrals,
i know exactly what you mean. I wish I could be the old me, But i'm so obsessed now with every twinge, every possible sign, I cant remember what its like toi not be ttc.
I have a symptom tho I want to run by any readers/takers. I am currently 7dpo, this morning we bd and I felt like my cervix and uterus were enlarged, like they got bumped and moved....its hard to explain.... I also felt this around 4-5dpo plus day of ovulation during bd. Has anyone else felt this and turned out to be pregnant???
hey gals - thanks for giving me feedback on the hair dye stuff! much appreciated! And for all the love for my edd yesterday. your such good girls!thank you!
dory - darlin, i hope everything went well today. i know you made the right choice! look after yourself!
ferrals - dont give up, still early days since o time!
sunbeam - sorry to see your having a hard time too, i think we all need a break from here sometimes. we seem to obsess in here as much as we obsess out there! take your time, were here when your ready xx
matthewsmum - donor egg sounds like a great back up plan to have... but fingers crossed you see that bfp b4 you have to worry about that. 1 step at a time.
crafty - yep all aboard the TTC Rollercoaster, im sorry your on the down slope today, i hope it takes you up higher tomorrow xx
kit - you can do it love!! im almost at the end of mine and looking back, it has gone fast! you have easter in there so it should go quick!!!
Jahzara - great idea for the holiday! something exciting to focus on! Im off to the gold coast in 5 weeks! cant wait!
milly - maybe a little to soon after o'time to tell.... maybe your cervix was low after o'time and thats what you felt??? i hope it is for you though sweety!
sorry not many persies but im behind again after only missing 1 day!
AFM - creeping up to the end of my 2ww, af is due anytime from Mon - Fri (never know) had a real dull ache in lower tummy all day yesterday/today (i hope implant pain ) and achy legs, lots of cm, bb's are super sore but this all mimics AF so who knows! Temps are still over 37 so I just have to hope they stay up! cervix is high and soft - not feeling too confident though. time will tell i guess.
night loveys
xx
Last edited by T-hopes; March 25th, 2010 at 08:00 PM.
your BFP shows up soon !
why I have to feel like this !
and the fact that our cycles are 6 days apart would mean if we both get UTD in the same cycle we will be giving birth together too. I think you are a classic mum, worrying about the impacts on your kids, if you and your DH want another baby then I say Go For It!!!!! 
Good luck ttc this month.
I can't control when they/me get UTD, but I can control my reactions, and I'm gonna be happy for them! No matter what. Theoretically, lol. And I find out if I'm preg or not in 2 weeks. I can wait 2 weeks. Two long, painful weeks. 
xoxo
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