Forshelby, Darling, I'm so sorry. I know this must be so confusing for you. I can tell you, my body played so many tricks on me, by the end of the month I could never trust what she was telling me, it was all lies! Sometimes we seem to hold onto every little niggle and twinge, but whoa girl I read your symptoms and I for sure thaught you were UTD.
Honey just rest easy, I know your gutted ATM, waiting for the start of your new cycle is one of the worst things to go through, and the thaught of having to start back at the start is a hard challenge to take up. But you can do it. One day at a time, you will be DTD at 'o' time before you know it. Hey, when you get AF, do me a HUGE favour??? Have a wine or a glass of JD for me? Please?? You deserve it, try relax, enjoy your week or 2 off from this TTC mania, and enjoy what you do have, focus on that. Beleive me when I say, it will happen honey, and we will all be so proud of you X

IonaM, getting towards 1 week down!! I am so stalking you my friend! XXX

MsKara, hope AF is being kind to you and leaves the building soon X

Kit, I pray that you are doing great today, and the MS kicks in nice and strong! Sorry about your friend, your right in giving her space, she will be ok, and you need to just focus on you ATM, and take it easy X I'm just so thrilled for you that Li'l Tiger was doing fine at the US, you sure do have a fighter on your hands, everything will be ok X
Oh and Twilight?!?! I am on the last half of Breaking Dawn, you are totally right, Jacob and Edward help fix everything!! I started reading the Saga just before my EPU and has kept me sane for the past couple weeks. When I'm not reading I go mad again, damn I will have to read them again for the third time when I finish again, it's the only thing I can think of to do right now. And it's relaxing. Hey I downloaded Midnight Sun draft the other day have you read that??? It's better than all of them, geez I hope it gets published one day.

Possum, WOW huge congratulations to you sweetheart how are you feeling?? If you are anything like me, you are going even more nutts, I have lurked a bit, but am too scared to type about how I am, incase I jinx myself. Look forward to catching up with you very soon, will give you a PM. XXX

Thopes I am so excited for you!!! IKWYM when you think/know there is something wrong but nobody can find it. I am so releived for you that you are now finally able to get things moving along. You are right, having your tubes flushed and everything else cleaned, you have a huge chance of fallling PG in the next 3 months now. I will stalk you all the way, good luck, I am praying for you honey XXX I love your ticker, so jealouse you going on a holiday to sunny OLD!!!!! I'm freezing here in mopy Victoria!

To the girls I missed, love you all, hope you are all well and thank you to everyone who has been asking about me XXXX
I know I have been MIA here, I am having a hard time beleiving what has happened, I know you will all tell me I am welcome here, but I just feel terrible whinging about feeling so low when I should be out celebrating.
My beta last monday was 700, then on thursday it was just under 2000. But I have been getting crampiness still which makes me feel like I am still gong to get AF.
DH and I had this image in out heads, that when IT finally happened, we would be jumping up and down and so excited, but TBH, we are now more terrified than anyting. It's like we can't celebrate, like we are waiting for the bad news or something. It's just so hard. This is why I have stayed away, you all prob think I'm totally stupid and ungratefull.
My boobage is only slightly tender and that's it, just the cramps, so I am still vey hesitant to beleive that I am PG.
My first scan appt is the 22nd tis month, I hope I can just relax untill then, and see my baby for the first time. It's just going to be a hard long road untill then I think.
So girls, please don't mind if I do drop by here, cuz I am too hesitant to join the PAML thread being that I am only 5wks. It just feels too early yet.
So sorry I have been away, I have been checking up, and today I just couldn't help myself not to say a hello. I appreciate you all so much for helping me get this far, and I really don't want to hover away just yet.