I think this day not only is good from the point of view of educating others..... it is also good for us..... We get to a point where its "under control" and we keep moving forward day by day.

For me today, I have taken the time by myself to really listen to the songs... read through the poems..... sing the songs (not a good sound considering i lost most of my voice last night)..... but sing them anyway... and the tears have just poured out..... not in a crappy way but in a memorial way....if that makes any sense at all.

So today I have spent the day with my little angels..... I love them as much as ever... I miss them as much as ever.... They are my little angels and today is my day just for them.

While I can I want to thank everyone I have met on this site since I first logged on.... the 1st January this year.... the day after I lost Krystal and the day I lost Cameron...... I have met so many amaizing ladies.... some of which i am waiting to hear the good news....NICKSTER.....yes... singling you out...I was at the most down point I had ever been....If I was to read back on the posts I did back then I think I would just lose it..... But these wonderful ladies were there... they understood....and even though most of them have now moved on.... I now have another group of wonderful ladies that I get to be with each day.... they are there for me and I m there for them..... So to all of you... thankyou for making this journey just that little bit easier. Huge hugs to you all