Hello to all you lovely ladies, today is a day for us so I think we should all make a promise that tonight when all our work is done we will sit down with our angel candles burning and do something for ourselves.
It is strange that today is the day my DH cousin is giving birth to her she may have had him already, I haven't heard yet. My MIL & FIL went to see her last night, they put her on the maternity ward (where she could hear babies crying)to be induced. We are hoping the autopsy gives a reason so she will know why.
Thank you to all who replied to my post yesterday, I thought I was the biggest b**** for the way I was feeling, but your replies made me realise that yes I am the same with pregnant friends and new babies. Thank you for making me see that I am not weird for reacting the way I did.
I am thinking about calling in search and rescue, AF still is missing. 13 days late. Maybe I am, I dunno. Getting another HPT tonight to do in the morning. DH did ask if maybe AF came but didn't notice!!
Thinking of you all
Jen - problem no. 1 fixed - now to work on staying awake......
Mto3B - Don't you love it when they pop you in maternity. I had the same thing after my m/c. It was that or stay in the emergency dept. I must admit the hospital staff (except for the obs) was wonderful. Maternity found me a single room at the opposite end of the ward from the babies, the woman in the room next to me had her baby in the special care nursery so I didn't have to hear it. I had nurses sit with me during the night when they found me awake.
Wouldn't it be great if doctors, emergency depts or hospitals could hand out information on support services. I know when I left the hospital, I felt so empty. I had no idea of where to look for support. thinking back, it would have been good to have someone to talk to that had been there during the first few weeks.
I've had a reply from one of my emails from a work colleague apologising that she didn't offer more support. She was one of a few people that did.....
To all the wonderful girls on this thread (and the ones that have moved on) -- thank you for your support during the last eleven months. Without you, I wouldn't be where I am today. Thank you.
Angel and Hannah - I included "A pair of shoes" with my email. I agree, it sums it all up doesn't it.
Missbec - I'm not sure about the tests. I know after my m/c my gyno sent me for a huge list of blood tests (can't remember what they were for now). They cost a fortune and all came back clear. It's worth asking though
missbec - I might be able to help you out a little, I used to work in Pathology in my former life I should warn you though, you'll be getting a LOT of blood taken for all these tests....HTH
* coeliac disease - don't know about this one....
* MTHFR homozygosity - blood test I think
* anti- beta II glycoprotein - blood test I think
* prothrombin gene mutation 20210A - blood test
* anticardiolipin anitbody - blood test
* plasma homocysteine - blood test
* antinuclear antibodies - blood test
* prothromin 3 - blood test
* protein C - blood test
* Free protein S (antigenic) - blood test
* RVV test - blood test
* Delta KCT - blood test
* Lupus anticoagulant - blood test
* Factor V Leidin - blood test
* Chlamydia - blood test
* Mycoplamsa/ ureplasma - blood test
* Chromosomal analysis - otherwise known as Karyotype - blood test
A quick hi to everyone else today I have DD at home today so no time for persies, but WTH I hope you are going OK today
I'll just add this too seeing as today is Remembrance Day, massive thanks to everyone on this site who supported me through my m/c and subsequent TTC problems. At least when it seemed that no one else cared I could still come here - thanks so much everyone I will be thinking of you all and of all our angels when I light my candle at 7pm tonight
I've already had several responses to my email. It was quite humbling to receive all those supportive responses. I think there was an arrogance in my unwillingness to tell people because I assumed they wouldn't understand. I guess it goes to show that you should give people a chance because they WILL surprise you.
Thankyou all for your support over the last couple of months. I really don't know how I would have coped without you all. I've bought a candle especially to light tonight for all of our babies. I have a work dinner on tonight (can you believe it?) so it won't be lit at 7pm in Adelaide, but it'll be 7pm somewhere.
I think this day not only is good from the point of view of educating others..... it is also good for us..... We get to a point where its "under control" and we keep moving forward day by day.
For me today, I have taken the time by myself to really listen to the songs... read through the poems..... sing the songs (not a good sound considering i lost most of my voice last night)..... but sing them anyway... and the tears have just poured out..... not in a crappy way but in a memorial way....if that makes any sense at all.
So today I have spent the day with my little angels..... I love them as much as ever... I miss them as much as ever.... They are my little angels and today is my day just for them.
While I can I want to thank everyone I have met on this site since I first logged on.... the 1st January this year.... the day after I lost Krystal and the day I lost Cameron...... I have met so many amaizing ladies.... some of which i am waiting to hear the good news....NICKSTER.....yes... singling you out...I was at the most down point I had ever been....If I was to read back on the posts I did back then I think I would just lose it..... But these wonderful ladies were there... they understood....and even though most of them have now moved on.... I now have another group of wonderful ladies that I get to be with each day.... they are there for me and I m there for them..... So to all of you... thankyou for making this journey just that little bit easier. Huge hugs to you all
Just to let you lovely ladies know - posting poems and songs is welcome and lovely. However this thread is for chatting about TTCAML and we ask that it be kept to that. You will see we have a thread specifically for sharing poems/lyrics etc. I have moved AngelBabies contributions there.
Also - when posting please post just once with all your messages - consecutive posts for different messages creates extra load on our site - a long post is absolutely fine...
If somebody has any problems/queries/concerns you can contact myself Mistyflying or Niliac.
she may have had him already, I haven't heard yet. My MIL & FIL went to see her last night, they put her on the maternity ward (where she could hear babies crying)to be induced. We are hoping the autopsy gives a reason so she will know why.
I should warn you though, you'll be getting a LOT of blood taken for all these tests....HTH 
I have DD at home today so no time for persies, but WTH I hope you are going OK today 
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