Smilanatu: my kids go back to school in three and a half weeks, and the youngest is going into kindergarten, so I'm not sure what I'll be doing with my free mornings! Probably housework.
RachelSwirl: Hope you have a good time on your trip
Babyfever2007: I'm sorry about your grandfather. I'll be keeping your family in my prayers.
larz: Don't know the answer to your hcg question, but ask your doc. I'll be keeping you in my prayers, too.
Aww, was looking at Chinese gender prediction calendars at one of them was the same one I accidentally found before that welcomed me back and told me that today I'm 37 wks. with 23 days to go...
Anyhow... 3 of them said girl, and 1 said boy, but right underneath it said 50/50 chance. I like the first 3! But I'll be happy and feel blessed no matter what! Crampiness went away earlier, but seems to be back on the left, feeling really bloated, too. With 23 days to go until my EDD, I'm begging for some baby dust donations!!! Please!!
A quick post for you all (as Im so addicted) FROM THE AIRPORT... Luggage was overweight. Of course, Pauls was spot on MEN!!! GRRR
They looked away and let me off! PHEW thank god for not having to pay for anymore luggage allowance, that would have really annoyed me.
So its not two hours till we fly, we had a horrible journey getting to the airport, the whole moterway had been shut off and there was diversions everywhere. Although I spent most of the journey with a stupid metalic taste in my mouth... NO IM NOT PARANOID lol!
Sod it though, I plan to get very drunk on the holiday. I am now praying for all your BFPs!!!
See you in two weeks!!! I AM OFFICIALLY NOW EXCITED, having got the 3 hour airport transit thing DONE! Woohoo
It is an icky feeling approaching the EDD. Are you thinking of doing anything on the day?
After our first loss, DH and I did a little private memorial at home (lit a candle, held hands and said a silent prayer). It helped me. I actually felt relieved when the date had past because it had been looming over me like a heavy weight for months.
PBStar and Larz - congrats on the fabbo bt results ... gl for your upcoming scans. It's never good to wish time away, but I think 1st tri is one of the times you are completely justified in doing so
Did anyone ever read the book when they were little called "Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible No Good Very Bad Day"? Well, despite me being (unfortunately at times) an eternal optimist, I feel like its been Jen and the terrible, horrible no good very bad year..... dh called me about an hour ago to say that he had just been made redundant at work. They are giving him a moderately good redundancy package but he has only been there for just over a year. He works for an ad agency and they have lost a large number of big clients, so dh gets the boot. Just adds to the stress, y'know?
Also found out that my grandfather (aged 87) has prostate cancer. He has been given 5 years, but at his age chemo and surgery aren't good options so we just have to sit with fingers crossed. He is primary carer for my grandmother who is in the early stages of alzheimers - they've been married for 63 years (and still hold hands) and although they've had a wonderful life together it just breaks your heart to see them so frail and uncertain.
And my very good friend from mother's group is pg with her 3rd child - her due date? 18 Feb - my EXACT due date for Peanut.... could not stop crying stupid selfish tears before. Feeling better now but just feel .....picked on by the universe a bit I guess.
Thank you for listening to my whinge! Over it now!
Something positive - my friend is putting me in touch with a naturopath/herbalist lady with a mammoth success rate - something like out of all the women she has treated, 114 out of 120 have had successful pgs following treatment. Can't hurt to try, surely?
Oh, and can't remember who asked, but my real name is Jennifer too, but answer more often to Jen. Some of the most brilliant minds of this century are also called Jen (hey Jen, hehe!). Jenushka (pronounced yenushka) was what my late Russian grandfather used to call me - I think it means "Little Jen" and was his term of endearment. It kind of stuck and even dh calls me "yenush"...
I have been offline a bit and caught up in my own doldrums.
Firstly - I am so sincerely sorry for your MC
Secondly, that is very sad news for your grandpa. He is a beautiful man looking after your grandma. I envy those older couples who can hold hands and just "be". We have so much to learn from people who can love like that.
Thirdly, that sux about DH getting an unexpected redundancy. But I am sure to have captured the wonderful likes of you he has a lot going for him and will find another fulfilling job and was probably going to get poached by another agency anyways.
Fourthly, yep - the whole mother's group has been exactly like that for me. They mention they are going to try one week and "pop" they are pregnant the next. And confident enough to announce it at 4 weeks (whereas I'm too terrified). Some weeks I just don't go. I still make sure I do fun stuff with DD just so I don't feel guilty.
Fourthly, rant and rave as much as you need to. I have. It has helped me. Whinge all you like. PM me if you want.
Fifthly, would love to learn what you learn from the naturopath. I wish we had a miracle worker like that in my neck of the woods. I really hope she helps you
Luv WTH x
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Jenushka - Im sorry your feeling so down and im so sorry to hear about your grandfather, my prayers are with you and your family. And its ok to vent, infact its healthy, it help us all sort out our feelings and give them the attention they deserve.
I too feel that this year has not been good at all where pg'cy is concerned. I started the year (literally on New Years eve and day) with a m/c, and things have not gotten any better. Sometimes I think...'how can this be fair? How is it fair to suffer 3 m/c's in a matter of 12 month?' But I guess its not a matter of being fair or not, its just one of those things. Whenever I feel like a 'poor me' minute, I just look at my little boy and everything starts to feel a whole lot better. I do feel like a stronger more resiliant women after having gone through what I have, and maybe thats the lesson I was supposed to learn. I dont know, all I know is that I cant change what has happened, but I can change the way I deal with it. I have let myself grieve properly for my losses, and find a way to focus on the postitives in my life right now. I have come to realise that I cant focus on what should or could have been, but only what IS. Life is not in the past nor in the future, it is right now and thats what I have to focus on.
You have had a difficult year and Im sorry you had to go through what you did. I hope you feel better soon and find the comfort that you need right now. Sending you huge hun, we are all here for you.
Jenushka - it's amazing how either everything good comes at once or in our cases all bad things seem to turn up together. here's an extra for you for your grandfather. i'm sure it won't be long and DH will be snapped up by someone else. There's times when you just hate to look around you and see all the pg bellies. It's not a case of wanting it away from them - you'd just love to be able to join them.
All the best with the naturopath/herbalist. It's something I think I need to look into. I've tried clomid many times over the last twelve years and just had six months on tamoxifen, which my DH doesn't want me back on, maybe it's time to look at some other form. I'm getting too old to wait for to much longer, but I'm just not ready to put wanting another baby aside. A bit crazy seeing as though my boys are 16 and 11 it's almost like starting again - i guess it is - i just know i have so much more to give.
Gooooodness... just been reading a novel to catch up..... Yes Jen Jen... I went to get online up at Perisha Blue... only to be told that belly belly was a sexually explicite site...... I sat there thinking goodness... is some alarm going to go off in a minute with flashing read light... with 'PERVERT....PERVERT....PERVERT" screaming over the loud speaker.
I ve just booked in to Rydges and sat my lap top up straight away.... only here one night and i know the next motel does not have internet. BUT I will be back Saturday night and everythign will go back to normal.
The snow for me was a bit of a waste of time... DH however loved it and after all thats why we went. I was throwing tanties first up because my ski s wouldnt go on.... then when they finally did... i made my way over to the beginners area... went on the training section... fell flat on my butt... and then took my ski s back off and didnt ski again....... I just wasnt going to risk anything.... Chances of the BFP tomorrow are slim.... somewhere between bucklies and sweet f all.... but even the absolute slightest chance and I couldn t risk it.
Pill girl... glad you were laughing at my pervting expense......The funny thing was.... I kept trying....lol.....as if the computer is going to go...ohhh sorry my mistake... and bring up the page. looking forward to tomorrow night...
pbstar..... i m not giving up... just know the chances arent high. I hope you are doing really really really well.......one day at a time remember .
BB.....hugs hun
To everyone else... I wont try and go through everyone individually... dont think i ve got that much internet time....lol
jenushka- big for you, i hope your run of horrible things has ended now and life starts to pick up, i know how you feel, when there is one thing after another and you just start to look up before something kicks you back down again. please know that there is light at the end and you will get some positives eventually. someone once said to me that everything is ok in the end, if it's not ok it's not the end...that has always stuck with me and helped me keep going through the tough times.
jen- i really hope and this cycle ends with some good news for you. EDD is hard and emotional but i also found it quite a relief to have it over with and almost like a release. will be thinking of you over the coming weeks as that day approaches for you.
issy- as always i find your attitude so inspiring. you have a great outlook, not overly rosy, but really positive and realistic. i love that you roll with the punches and keep looking at the great things in your life. sending you a big too
tutmae- we have something in common, i'm Phoebe too! that's were the pb comes from in my name
angel- ROFL at you with the pervert alarm going off...you crack me up!
AFM- got results from yesterday's second BT today. so the first one at 4W1day was hcg 335 and prog 95 and then at 4w3days hcg went to 810 and prog to 89. so obviously hcg is doing good but should i be worried about prog dropping or is it normal for it to fluctuate? issy can you ask one of the midwives in your family? i am thinking it is still not considered low so i guess it is ok but just want some advice from you ladies, would rather take care of a prog issue sooner rather than later if you know what i mean...
Hi Pbstar - Just wanted to say congratulations on a great rise in HCG, those numbers are great ! Also, I asked my FS midwife and she said that because progesterone is produced at intervals, instead of a gradual increase like HCG, it may drop a little before it is next reproduction. She said, and this is in her words...'HCG is like a faucet being left on, the water just keeps on going and will continually increase, but progesterone is more like someone filling a sink and then pulling the plug, and then continually trying to re-fill it as it empties...there will be times when its a little bit higher and then a little lower'. It is normal for the progesterone to fluctuate. Also she said your numbers for progestrone are good so dont worry hun, im sure everything is going to be ok .
Ok, well im off, have a great night (or day for some )
jenushka- I'm so sorry you are feeling so much pain. Thinkinf of you!
pbstar- for good results. Issy's words sounds very promising.
Angel Babies- for a surprise bfp for you.
Larz- I am heaps for you. I totally can relate. I lost my left tube in May. AF arrived late this week and I was hysterical. I started thinking I might have another ectoptic.I went in to GP for BT, just to check (even though I got BFN on HPT). I know you really won't feel at ease until the scan shows bub in the right place, but the increasing HCG would defintely help. Looking forward to seeing another big increase tomorrow
Hi to all!!
AFM- Stayed home today with seriously nasty visit from AF .
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But I'll be happy and feel blessed no matter what! Crampiness went away earlier, but seems to be back on the left, feeling really bloated, too. With 23 days to go until my EDD, I'm begging for some baby dust donations!!! Please!!
Sending loads of
ends with a BFP!!
I'm so happy for you, Def keeping you in my prayers. Keep us posted
it's amazing how either everything good comes at once or in our cases all bad things seem to turn up together. here's an extra
that's a great result
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this cycle ends with some good news for you. EDD is hard and emotional but i also found it quite a relief to have it over with and almost like a release. will be thinking of you over the coming weeks as that day approaches for you.
! Also, I asked my FS midwife and she said that because progesterone is produced at intervals, instead of a gradual increase like HCG, it may drop a little before it is next reproduction. She said, and this is in her words...'HCG is like a faucet being left on, the water just keeps on going and will continually increase, but progesterone is more like someone filling a sink and then pulling the plug, and then continually trying to re-fill it as it empties...there will be times when its a little bit higher and then a little lower'. It is normal for the progesterone to fluctuate. Also she said your numbers for progestrone are good so dont worry hun, im sure everything is going to be ok
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