Oh CRAP Shan!!!!! I so hoped this was it for you! I know what it's like to always tell yourself you won't be disappointed but that is such a crock of crap and almost impossible to achieve!
I understand your need for time out-- it does all get to be too much at times. I found when I got bfn's and after my m/c's I (and DH) gravitated toward our childless and single friends for some GOOD TIMES (nice dinners, ****tails,late nights, spontaneous plans,etc) and that really helped me to not think about things for a while. In fact after my last m/c I gave away all my pregnancy mags and a couple of maternity dresses I'd been given and I felt quite cleansed when we came back to TTC again. It felt like more of a fresh start and less like "here we go again"!
I'm thinking of you and your DH and know you are probably again mulling over those options you were alluding to a few months ago. Just wanted to let you know that my good girlfriend and her hubby who tried for two plus years before trying any options are just about to have their first bub-- they fell on their very first cycle of IVF. They had completely unexplained infertility and this was the first option they took up.
Wish I was there to give you big hugs and if I wasn't in my current condition to partake in some Mai Tai's (the world's yummiest ****tail!!) with you!
Hopexoxoxoxoxo