Oh mollycat, you sound so down and stressed out! I'm so sorry! Can you maybe just take a break for a month or two to decide what you want to do? They say everything happens for a reason, maybe you just have too much on your plate right now, and a break could be the best thing for you. One more thing, can you put a word in to AF that she has my permission to hunt down and stalk DF's ex wife??? That would be lovely!!