Ok, well, I have been lurking a little, but as you know I have been down in the dumps about my very sad BT result last Friday. I just wanted to make it through the weekend for my OB appointment yesterday afternoon. We did still have a HB (now 142 bpm), but my OB says this PG has a 98% chance of MC because of the low and slow rising HCG and dropping estrogen level. I am doing everything I can to give this PG a chance, but I have to be realistic.
So now, it is a waiting game. A weekly US and BT until I inevitably go into hospital (again). Then after 2 periods I will go on the recurrent mc program with Sydney IVF. I have already had a whole gammit of tests done, so DH and I will probably continue to TTC anyway.
I am sort of coping OK, just trying to keep busy and be a good mum to DD. I will be dropping in here but may be off the radar a little in the next week or two as I don't know when it is all going to happen.
I am sorry to put up such a morbid post. Please no one compare yourself to me. I am older than a lot of you and everyone's body is different. In my case, I manage to conceive fairly quickly. My BT numbers are initially good and we get a HB. Then BAMM and it's over.
Thanks for your great support over the past few weeks - it has mean't so much to me.
wth: so so sorry honey, but as you said, its not over yet. Please look after yourself, and remember, we are here for you.
thank you for the congratulations sweets, thats reaaly selfless of you to be able to congratulate me when you are feeling so down yourself...praying for you.....
WTH: I have no words. All I can say I am so sorry. I know it sounds ridiculous and you're probably sick of hearing it but try and stay strong and it WILL happen for you. I'm sending you lots and lots of
oh my god ladies! im in panic mode! im struggling to keep up with you all! i posted sunday arvo & now im back to find where im up to & i find im lost! flabbergasted...
WTH: my thoughts are with you always sweetie... for miracles...
im also at a lost as to what my chart is doing... havent been putting my temps on since sunday & then i put the past 2 on just now & all of a sudden im 4dpo! this is driving me mad! i thought i o'd just last night - cos also thought i had some o pains. but according to ff i o'd on friday night when opk was +.. is this right? im panicking that ive missed the egg now... ok anyways, thats all...
issy- still can't believe you got a 28 day cycle too- how freaky is that. i was thinking when af came oh good, 28 days, but then i thought, oh no, me and issy aren't cycle buddies anymore. crazy hey.
angel- thanks hun, i just keep putting one foot in front of the other and saying your words over and over...one day at a time....
am having a sort of crappy week. my SIL had her bub last week and i never called to say congrats. just found it too hard. i picked up the phone and dialled her number about 50 times but couldn't find the right words without crying, because i was supposed to be having my baby too only a couple of weeks later. finally called yesterday but could tell i am in the bad books, my other SIL also mentioned it to me so everyone must be talking about what a bad person i am. wish they could understand that i wanted to call but couldn't.
anyway, on the plus side DH told me not to worry about them, he understands, and gave me lots of cuddles and kisses.
hope everyone else is well, thinking of you all and sending big for everyone.
Also, WTH, you're definitely not a lot older than most of us! just a few numbers is all! being young at heart is most important hey ... but you are definitely more braver than most of us... (me definitely!) & your positivity puts me & my complaining to shame... would like to give you some more
WTH - I am so very sorry my thoughts are with you. I hope so very much that your ob is wrong.
Tina - Big congrats!
Joey - Good luck for testing tomorrow, hope that line gets darker!!
Sorry for the lack of persies, I will be back soon to do them but I hope everyone is doing well.
AFM - I'm going OK, 4DPO today and having heaps of cramps and a bit of back pain and feeling a bit like AF is just about to arrive, even though I'm not expecting her until the middle of next week. I'm pretty sure that it is probably just the progesterone pessaries that I am on during the TWW though. Oh how I wish the next 10 days would just disappear!
Last edited by nicjay; July 15th, 2008 at 05:16 PM.
: Oops forgot Joey - sorry!!
were here for u always 
for miracles... 
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... but you are definitely more braver than most of us... (me definitely!) & your positivity puts me & my complaining to shame... would like to give you some more 
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