Hannah-I'm sorry you have been going through what you have. Did the Doctor say if you had to have anything done since your lining is thick again? I'm sorry your cramping and uncomfortable. Sometimes waiting to TTC can be a good thing because of less stress. But with me I couldn't wait any longer I had been waiting almost a year and with 2 losses this year alone, I just wanted to get pregnant and stay pregnant so I TTC right away. I wish you best this round. Wow, I cannot believe your friend said that OMG! Wow, I don't understand people sometimes expechally friends..
babyonBoard-Hello and welcome. SOrry to hear about your loss. I too lost a baby in July at 6week 1day & on cycle round 2 after loss and its been 1 year of TTC total. I hope the best that you get a BFP soon and that your little one will be nice and strong for you.
Treelo-Glad to see you back in the TTC world. I hope that you get your BFP this cycle darling.
Jade-Sorry for your loss. I'm glad AF came for you so you can start TTC.
Jen-How are you doing darling?
ATM-I'm 6DPO, I called my OBs today to see if I could get an HCG quanitative pregnancy test done tomarrow since I have to come in for a CD 21 progesterone check. The nurse was like the shot wont be out of your system bla bla bla, I was like trust me I have a sensitive test mroe sensitive than your tests and its gooten to the point of being negitive & I lied to get my way saying I had gotten a dark positive again.. Hopefully it works. I was like eyha And I would have to come back in in 48 hours to make sure Im truly pregnnat and its not the shot still. So shes going to ask the DR and should be calling me back about saying yay or nay about the test.. Sometimes you gotta lie to Nurses cuz sometimes theyre just plan Um DUH. Its like she first wanted to do a urine test I was like UM your gonna have to do it by blood lol..
Welcome to Rachel,Abbey,Babyjubz,Babymiracles and babyonboard so sorry to hear of your losses, sure you will find support from these girls they are great.
Joey- CONGRATULATIONS!!!! great news
Easha- Sorry to hear AF on her way.
Jade - Glad af finally arrived for you iykwim.
Treelo- Welcome back and :goodluck2: ttc
to Jen,krystie,Angel,Larz,Smilanatu,WTH,Jenushka,Fifi ,Mollycat,Babyfever and anyone else i may have forgot.
AFM - DH has had his scan and no signs of any growths there so we can get back to ttc next month.
The epihany was this...I thought Lee was my life partner...he was really my life lesson...that will be simpler for the people who know best to understand. My family has told me for several years now I am not the person I used to be and they miss her. With Lee I was almost always trying to be what he wanted and was never my genuine self so the person he now despises was never me to begin with...it was who he created. The lesson is...don't change who you are for anyone...ever because in doing that...you'll lose you AND you'll lose who they were initially drawn to...no one wants a molded individual (even if they tell you they do). I have learned some good things and some bad things about myself in this relationship. I'm sad that it's over and I am positive I haven't cried my last tear about it...but I am at peace with it today.
Joey: YAAAYYY CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR BFP WAAAHOOOO!!!!!!!!! Wishing you the very best.. a H&H 9 months and baby!!!!
Mannie: I just noticed we both had the same Due date. thank you so much for having me in mind.. Good Luck TTC I hope you get that BFP!! I'm still spotting and am wondering when AF will show up.. I have to have 2 normal cycles before I TTC again.. just can't WAIT!! I want to TTC again! this wait is torture!! GGRRRR ((hugs)))
Tocarra: Same here.... Know please know.. I am here for you and feeling this with you. Yesterday was the crappiest birthday of my life... I haven't even opened the presents some gave me.. don't feel like it at all. so threw em in the closet. Sucks! 1I cried all day and it just SUCKED!! I just am praying these two cycles I have to wait FLY by cuz I want to TTC again!! I am praying for you and hope we both have this miracle ASAP!!!!
When did your doc say you can TTC again???
Larz: (((hugs))) wishing you a H&H pregnancy & baby... Good luck with your u/s.. I am praying your bub is perfectly ok ..swimming and with a strong heartbeat!! Good luck friend!!!
Plc: I needed that hug.. thank you!! ♥
Treelo & Jade: Good luck friends!!!!
Babyonboard: WELCOME hun and Good luck TTC!!!!
Hannah: WTF???? Same here.. I'm so tired of hearing" Oh things happen for a reason, Oh it will happen, Oh you can TTC again, Oh God gives and takes.. Really??.. Is God that cruel??.. Don't think so! so all I want to say to all of them is SHUT THE F**** UP!!!! SHUT UP!!! SHUT UP!!!!!
It doesn't work that way! !I have INFERTILITY.. I need to be a lab rat in order to get pregnant and again will have to be one after I get pregnant.. the doc said I will have many shots to avoid m/c again and yes.. LAB RAT!! me! I feel that anger inside. Yet of course I don't take it out on anyone.. it's just people say stupid things as if it didn't hurt. NO ONE.. NO ONE knows your pain till they are in your shoes!!
You are in my thoughts and prayers... I just want these 2 months to fly I want to TTC again. I want my baby back!!!! You, Toccara, me and all angel mommies here WILL GET PREGNANT AND HAVE HEALTHY MIRACLES!!!!! ((hugs)))
Jenushka, Jen, Chappas, Easha, Mollycat: (((hugs)))) thank you so much for keeping me in your prayers. I'm doing a bit better the cramping stopped after the D&C .. I guess it was true.. my uterus was returning to it's normal size.. but am still "spotting"... Just want Nov to come I want to TTC ASAP!!
Fifi: ALL WILL BE OK!!! Your baby will be ok!!!! I am praying you see a wonderful swimmer in there with an excellent heartbeat!! You will have a perfect healthy full term baby!! I'm praying for that!!! Good luck hun!!
((hugs))))
For my Preggo friends:
For those TTC: *****baby/ovulation/BFP Dust*******
Me:.. I'm ok overall.. Cramping has stopped yet am still spotting some watery pink stuff. only when I wipe... hope it goes away soon.... I want AF to come.. I wonder if I still should watch for ovulation maybe??.. I don't think I have the heart to have sex... at least not for now.. and Geez.. just want these 2 cycles to go by fast.. since my periods are so irregular due to the PCOS I wonder if I will get normal cycles now or if it will all be as F**ed up as it has always been!!!
Just want to see that doc and see what are his plans with me.. what meds he is going to put me on.. and all that blah blah blah docs do.
I might sound selfish but all I want is to be pregnant again and have a healthy baby!!!
This is so unfair... but oh well.. I'm trying.. to take a day at a time.. it sucks.. maybe since we are moving to a new place in 2 weeks.. maybe the packing and at the redecorating might take things off my mind.. its hard when my 3 yr old still kisses my belly thinking the baby is in there and I cry all over again trying to explain there is no baby there anymore!! SO HARD!! I feel like cursing my heart out right now!! I don't even know that much curse words... wish I knew a lot so I can just shout them all out.. even if people think I just went NUTS!!!'' now.. had to laugh at the thought of walking normally among people and suddenly cursing my a$$ off!! LMAO!!! Ok I think I lost my sanity just now!
I have to hang in there...easier said than done!
GGGRRRRRRR
All in all.. thank yo all so much for your comfort and support
fificlaire - you should be able to get a referral for a scan from your doctor if you want one. I'll certainly be getting one as early as possible. But you do what's best for you.
Babyfever - hope they do the test for you
Chappas - Thakns!!
Smilanatu - That sounds like you have learnt a great lesson. I am so proud of you for having such a positive out look.
Ruthie - Thanks!!
You don't sound selfish at all - well if you do, then i was too, cause that's all i wanted!
Jen - I was going to ask you the same. You've been pretty quiet too lately. AFM I'm ok. Just plodding along, not sure where to next. Still not on tamoxifen, just hoping a miracle will happen. Should go back to gyno but not really sure what else he can do for us. I know he wants us to do IVF but we've always said we won't, DH refuses to do any more tests so where to now.??????? I'm sitting here nursing a 12mo and gee it feels lovely, shame I have to give him back. but not for another 8 hours.
Smi - you sound so positive. I really hope the best for you is just around the corner. Next time remember to make YOU happy first.
Ruthie - you're definately not selfish (or else we all are). I just found out a work colleague is 12weeks pg with twins. I think it's wonderful as she also has PCOS, (I just wish I could be too - even with one)
Ruthie- Big . I really hope things look up to you darling. And very soon you sure do deserve it. Yeah, That whole thing about friends that Hannah was talking about was what happend to me this weekend with my friend and what she said to me and I asked if anyone had someone do that to them before & she replied saying she had. I cannot believe how rude friends/Family could be and I coudln't believe she said what she said! I wanted to go running out the door and yell at her and cuzz I really hope she heard what I said to her behind the door. I almost never want to talk to her again for it... She comes and gets something of hers from me and noticed my husband was home from work and goes oh did steph tell you were pregnant? Shes like I'm so excited hes like yep she told me. And then I go to tell her about my miscarriage and stuff and what my due date would have been and shes like Sorry, She shuts the door and opens it again and goes well atleast we know you can get pregnant and slams the door!!!...
I was told to wait 1 cycle after my miscarrage so once my AF started back up after my loss I could TTC again. I did indeed start TTC before my AF even showed... Once again bug hug.
Fifi-I'm sorry they didn't do an U/s thats kinda odd since you have had prior losses. I would see if you can get one here soon.
Joey-I'm happy for you and the girls that got there BFPS these last few months. Its wonderful feeling . I would be bouncing off the walls as well. The problem I have wiht BFP is I stare at my PEE sticks all day going WOW! Is this it haha... Seriously my husband goes wow how can you stare at that for 4 hours!! He releizsed that after my loss its almost wonderful to stare at them he stares at the ones from my injection and goes I HOPE they get dark like this again soon..Congrats again darling.
As for me my OB said he ordered the HCG test and when I go in tomarrow I will have an script in to have that done along with my progesterone check! I asked the nurse well do I need to make an APT to come in, in 48 hours? Shes like well if your numbers are 0 no you dont have to. I was like there not going to be at 0 there going to be like still up there cuz the shot. Shes like I dunno youll have to wait and see what the Ob wants.. I WAS LIKE UGH wat a dumb nut.. I'm hoping and praying to have a nice big Birthday BFP...My bday is on friday....My BBS are germungus never been so big except when I was pregnant.
Ruthie - I know you may not think so, but I can't believe how strong you are. I think you are doing incredibly well and a miracle comes your way very soon, you deserve it
Jen - Thanks Jen
me - appointment was ok, all the doc could do was feel my belly and weigh me. All good so far but guess you never feel safe untill the 12 week scan. I haven't really let myself get too excited because I know what dissapointment feels like, guess all I can do is hang in there and just wait out the next 3 weeks.
Joey: to you.. Thank you for your sweet words... I am wishing you the very best sweet momma... I can't wait till you get that u/s done!! I'm sure your bub will be swimming happily an his/her heartbeat will be EXCELLENT!!
Mollycat: Oh I can't wait.. WOW twins!!!! That would be so cool!! God will bless us.. I can feel it in my bones.
Even if my baby was with me for such a short time.. I FEEL HONORED he/she chose me to be his/her mommy!! OH I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!!!
Babyfever: Oh YAH!! People can say the stupidest things and that males me furious ( even if I'm so good at hiding it) When I was TTC ( which will be soon again) when I got a BFN I HATED when some dais.. oh you can try next time.. I am like SHUT UP!! I've been saying that to myself for 3 years!!! Ya know??.. people
Even my parents said something so stupid to me yesterday I just changed the subject... They said "oh you know how many women miscarry every day??..its "natural".." I'm like Mom please STFU!!!! ( of course I didn't say that) just because "many m/c on a daily basis) it doesn't mean it won't hurt! Parents can say the stupidest things too.
I am praying you get GREAT news! 1You sure know I will do the happy dance for you!!!
Good luck sweets!! C'mon BFP!!!!
Larz: thank you so much momma.... Good luck on your next apptmnt.. hope they do an u/s ASAP.... Demand it.. I did.. they were not going to do one till I was 12 weeks imagine that?.. I would have been 3 weeks with a dead baby inside!! Demand it if you have to.. I did and unfortunately you know what happened but in a way it would have been worse ya know?.. I could have gotten serious infection from the dead baby.
You and your baby are going to be just fine!! Yo will see your lil swimmer doing somersaults inside you and his/her heartbeat will be PERFECT!!! Wishing you a H&H pregnancy and healthy baby!!!!!
jenushka - you def need to keep a log and raise this with your HR department, that is just not on! he cannot do that by law, Im more than positive
Babyfever - Goodluck with the levels and testing Im sure you will be BFP for your Birthday am for you!!
Jade - go to the fertilityfriend.com.au website it will help you work out how to use that termo!! and yes its very addictive
fifi - I'd be insisiting on an u/s! can't you pay for one???? Im sure you if you pay for one they can do it??
[COLOR="DarkOrange"]larz - [COLOR="Black"]stay strong, we will see you through these last 3 weeks, bub will be ok and you'll wonder what all the worrying was about when you reach that 12 week mark, however I don't think you'll ever stop worrying even when they are old and grey and your a great grandma
Ruthie and Toccara -thinking of you both and hoping you are staying strong and getting through this ok...
babyonboard and treelo - sorry for your losses hope your time here is quick, Im hoping mine is!!! : sending you heaps of
Hi to all the other girls Tam,Jen,Krystie , mollycat,simand anyone I've missed....
AFM - still checking the dam discharge every time I go to the toilet and wipe looking and looking very intensly for eggwhite. Maybe baby was crappy this morning all little pebbles!!! damn I want that ferning!! temp was still high but hey hcg levels probably still high...I feel like Im repeating myself?? sorry if I am can't help it....will be TTCing again this weekend....unless I get copious amounts of eggwhite sometime during the week!
Ruthie - thanks for the kind words. I booked my nuchal scan for the 7/10/08 which is 12 weeks. Don't think you can do a nuchal any earlier, but if I need to I will in insists on going for an earlier scan to make sure everything is still ok. Don't want to get myself all worked up and stressed out but it's hard not to as you know. I also had some questionable comments from my husbands mate when I had my ectopic, people like that will never know what your going through untill it happens to them. I know it's hard and a pain in the a_ _ but we just have to ignore people like that and get on with TTC
Mannie - Don't want to dishearten you, but I found MAYBE BABY a big waste of $80....never worked for me and obviously I did ovulate, I found the urine test strips to work the best.
Mannie- I found maybe baby a waist of $$ Too.. I only use OPK stips anymore. Not to say it in a mean way. Some girls it works some not so much. For me I never saw ferning and always missed O. I would BD just to covor you bases..
First of all, everyone. I'm still trying to catch up with your stories.
Jen - Thanks so much for the chat last night. We had some pretty wild weather yesterday and combined with a full moon its no wonder I felt a little nutty. Today the weather is better and I feel calmer too.
Fificlaire - If you really want a scan, demand it! When I saw my GP the other day, I asked about what could be done next time round. She told me the earliest they could detect a heartbeat was around 6 weeks, so I could have a scan then if I didn't want to wait. I think sometimes healthworkers try to fob us off. Then if we insist on getting what we want, they'll do it. Maybe its their way of conserving resources, only giving tests to those that really want, rather than those that are getting it just because they can. In the meantime, it doesn't feel like we get much support.
Babyfever - The fact that my lining was building up again was just a good sign that things are back to normal. This was my first pregnancy, so no one is very interested in why - it was just assumed it was a chromosomal abnormality. I'd conceived in my 3rd cycle of TTC so I guess DH and I just do what we did before.
Ruthie - I read your full story yesterday. I can't imagine going through all that you have. I feel bad for whinging about how I feel. You and Toccara are both in my thoughts and prayers.
In regards to WTF comments, I think the only thing we can do is be forgiving. It sucks because we are the ones who need the understanding. But, I don't want to turn into some bitter, whiny cow who refuses to talk to people because they just don't get it. To do justice to my friend, I did catch up with her after that comment and she was really supportive and just listened while I told my story. I just remind myself that if I wasn't going through this, I probably wouldn't know what to say either.
thanks babyfever....yes I agree it has worked at times but because I haven't had a proper cylce since my m/c I thought I'd use that until I got AF again then I'd be able to start charting again...even though doc said I should just forget about the charts and temp taking etc and just relax it will happen naturally WTF ! at least when Im charting I know when Im ovulating and I know when I should have s3x so I have the best shot! doctors sometimes they just don't have a clue!
Ruthie - yes I had noticed we had the same due date, so was really watching your progress and wishing you all the best because my bub was due the same time and it would've been a bit of comfort for me to see a bub that made it on the same day, alas and curse the Gods it was not meant to be for either of us this time....Im TTCing and I havent yet had one full cylce so have no idea but am trying anyway, but I did m/c naturally so maybe its different. Wishing you lots of stickyvibes and make sure you let us know when your TTCing!!!
Hi girls.. i've only been gone for a couple of days (1 or 2) and there is so much to catch up on...
Joey: congrats girl!!!! woohoo
Babylove: i know what you mean with insensitive comments.. My good friend and fellow doctor sent me an EMAIL.. hello? and f**king EMAIL.... saying "sorry for your loss... at least you know you can conceive.. best of luck next time". WTF?!? i went into a tirade of abuse after that, followed by tears... grrrrr
Welcome to everyone who i haven't met before..
AFM: I'm having a lousy day today. Feeling cruddy. Had baby nightmares last night that have really upset me. thought i was making good progress but seems i have taken two steps backwards. Hubby is away for work this week which makes things worse. I had convinced myself that my nausea/acne was possibly because i was already pg again (because my hCG had gone down after my m/c and everything settled for a few weeks) but i did POAS x 3 over the last week and all were BFN! Damn that idea. I dunno what to look out for to know if i am ovulating and i havent got a thermometer! Spose i should just wait and see when AF arrives.. if it does...
I think i am just so over it all. I want to whinge and moan and groan and ***** about all my friends' and their bellies.. it seems so unfair.
Jen: I just finished all my training on the central coast of NSW and am starting my internship as a general medical doctor in June 2009 (i deferred my position cos of bub.. and now cant reverse it... so i am stuck looking for some temp roles in the meantime - but i'm not allowed to work as a doctor til i start my internship in June which means i have to do some menial job in the meantime grrr). I plan to do community health/general practice/women's medicine.
I just wanted to pop in and say a huge hello to all you wonderful ladies in here. I can't possibly catch up on everything that has been going on, so this will have to be a general msg for everyone....
To all those who have recently suffered a m/c, I am so very sorry for you losses, and my heart goes out to you and your partners. I am thinking about you and for you all
To those who have got their long awaited and very much deserved BFP's, congratulations and I wish you all a wonderful happy and healthy 9 months.
To those who are continuing to travel along the bumpy ttc road, I that the end of your journey is near and you can begin a new journey to finally meet your beautiful babies that are just waiting to meet you!
And a very special hello to Jen and krystie love (congratulations by the way hun ) for always thinking of me and the other women here who have decided to have a break from ttc, by sending 'hello's' and adding us to your cycle lists. You are both wonderful and thoughtful women!
AFM - Still plodding along, not ttc (well, trying anyway ). I am due for AF anyday now, and whilst I have no AF symptoms yet, I dont have pg'cy ones either, so have no idea when the nasty witch will show....although, I hope she does, cause in 9 months time, i will be doing my huge teaching prac, and I certainly wont be able to do that with a new bubba. I have to keep reminding myself that waiting is the best option, even though I so desperately want another baby. My time will come, I just have to be patient (easier said than done right girls?)
I also had my appointment with FS re: recurrent m/c, and he has ordered about 5 different tests for me, so I have to go and get my bloods done this week and hopefully start to find some answers. I am hoping everything can be sorted out by Jan, when I begin ttc again. I'll let you all know the results of the tests when I get them. FS suspects that I have a hormone deficiency which can be treated with meds in early pg'cy, so when I start ttc again, I have to begin POAS pretty much as soon as I can (before AF is due) so he can order blood tests for me and monitor my levels.
Well, thats all for now, I just wanted to touch base with you all and say HI! Stay strong and positive everyone and keep smiling
And just while i am moaning and carrying on (sorry all)...
i just checked facebook and a friend from high school who is 5 months pg has some recent photos on there... in every single one she either has a cigarette in hand, is swigging coca cola from the bottle, has a champagne in hand or is eating hot chips................ i am being an absolute cow.. but how is that fair!
I'm sorry your cramping and uncomfortable. Sometimes waiting to TTC can be a good thing because of less stress. But with me I couldn't wait any longer I had been waiting almost a year and with 2 losses this year alone, I just wanted to get pregnant and stay pregnant so I TTC right away. I wish you best this round. Wow, I cannot believe your friend said that OMG! Wow, I don't understand people sometimes expechally friends..
to Jen,krystie,Angel,Larz,Smilanatu,WTH,Jenushka,Fifi ,Mollycat,Babyfever and anyone else i may have forgot.
Wishing you the very best.. a H&H 9 months and baby!!!!
thank you so much for having me in mind.. 
. I would be bouncing off the walls as well. The problem I have wiht BFP is I stare at my PEE sticks all day going WOW! Is this it haha... Seriously my husband goes wow how can you stare at that for 4 hours!! He releizsed that after my loss its almost wonderful to stare at them he stares at the ones from my injection and goes I HOPE they get dark like this again soon..Congrats again darling.
a miracle comes your way very soon, you deserve it
). I am due for AF anyday now, and whilst I have no AF symptoms yet, I dont have pg'cy ones either, so have no idea when the nasty witch will show....although, I hope she does, cause in 9 months time, i will be doing my huge teaching prac, and I certainly wont be able to do that with a new bubba. I have to keep reminding myself that waiting is the best option, even though I so desperately want another baby. My time will come, I just have to be patient (easier said than done right girls?)
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