Hi everyone,

Kiwigirl - have a nice break.

Pash - congrats on twins.... how exciting.... I can't remember your history.... did you have any treatment or are they naturally conceived twins? You will have a very nervous wait for the two weeks until the scan but I'm sure everything will be fine. The bleed must have been scary but it seems that some pg women do that for no particular reason so everything will probably be OK. Yes I will be having a general for the lap - as far as I know it's always done with one. It took me a few days to recover after the last one (problems with stitches - nasty pain when clothes touched them) so I'm trying to work out how long I will need off work this time... but I'm hoping this time round it will be trouble free.

Bun - I have a feeling that your bub is going to be a sticky one so don't worry about a m/c ruining your holiday.... it's not going to happen.

Lee - How many HPT's have you been through so far?

miss belinda - I think its a great idea to try alternative therapies. Modern medicine in the TTC field sometimes just does work for some women but alternative things can do the trick. I would probably give it a go myself but I'm running out of time. I tried herbal stuff from Ruth Sharkey about 10 years ago but it didn't work for me.

Salt - It's realy hard when you have a parent who's health is going downhill, and it adds a lot of pressure to the already incredibly stressful TTC process. Both my parents have cancer & my dad has other health problems as well so I understand the stress very well. I also find my work suffers when I get into a real worrying stage. These stages seem to come and go - it's a bit like how stressed you get about TTC - sometimes it is mind consuming & you get no work done at all and then you zoom through work when you somehow get it out of your head. I find it's just best to try to keep busy. I hope everything goes well with both your mum and your dad next week.

Hi to anyone I've missed.

Yesterday was a hard day. A work colleage went on her maternity leave yesterday. Just before she left she stood near my desk and went on and on to me about what a wonderful experience it is to be pregnant and to have a child (she already has one), how incredible it is to feel it growing & kick etc etc etc. She knows I had the m/c recently. I just don't understand how she could be so insensitive. She's never had a m/c nor has she had any problems in her pregnancies - all smooth sailing.... well so far.... she still has the birth to go.

I'd already had to endure the going to buy her a present and the baby shower we had at lunch time for her.... and the comment from a work colleage something like..... come on Satya you need to get pregnant so you can get all these presents. She also knew about the m/c and how I am seeing a specialist, and how I have to have the op and still she says something like this. She also knows I tried unsuccessfully for many years with my ex.... how could she be so insensitive. Twice yesterday I wanted to burst into tears.... I don't know how I didn't but somehow I kept strong and it just didn't happen.

I should be 18 weeks by now - almost half way there.... instead I'm in this damn thread seemingly never to get out of here. Sorry, venting now. All the BFPs in here are encouraging but each one that happens just reminds me that I'm still not pg.... and probably not likely to be for a while yet. Sorry just had to get that out. Now I've got that out of the way I am feeling positive again. Off to work now.