Lee - I just can't believe what I'm reading. I am so sorry this has happened to you. I hoped to never see you in here again.... nothing personal but you know what I mean. We all think we get to 12 weeks and things will be OK but clearly that is just not the case. I really don't know what else to say. Sending you .
Pash - thanks for the info. I googled it too and found we do have them... just as you found. It was so kind of you to do that for me. I found that there is one at Monash Medical Centre which is where my gyno works out of and that is also the hospital that I'm most likely to have my lap at. I'm not sure if I should ring them before the lap or wait til after. Too many decisions to make with all this TTC stuff.
Had some more tears last night after hearing about how well my SIL's 1st scan went. It wasn't so much that things are going well for her but more the show offy way it was presented to us by text message. Didn't need it done like that the week after another m/c.
satya, *hugs*. That's rough. You know, scans are *the* thing I have the biggest hurt in seeing/hearing about, I guess since that was the awful moment when things completely changed. I only have bad experiences associated with them. I turn the channel if I see scans on TV (and gee it seems to happen *a lot*).
I think that going through a m/c means we would be way more sensitive of how we talk with others who have had m/c. I don't think there's any way women who haven't had one can understand the hurt/feelings/emotions/journey women who do go through.
Well I am feeling great that I haven't had any weird spotting for a week now, feels so nice after all that blood lol. I feel like O is coming soon.
pash, working from home is pretty good. Yeah I get distracted a bit by the internet but I do at works sometimes too. I often have a lot of disruptions in a shared office and work and it can be hard to get some jobs done when you need peace and quiet. So it has its plusses and minuses. I'm looking forward to getting out a bit more tho, went for a walk last night and after about 1km I felt like I was gonna faint so turned around and came home. I was used to walking 6km a day before.
Lee - I am so sorry that this has happened to you and your family . We must have pressed the send button at the same time - I did not see your post this morning... I am sending you lots of hugs and take good care of yourself.
Lee~ I am so sorry for your loss! Our time will come hang in there We are all here for you whenever you need to vent at all.
Kiwigirl~ Glad to know your doing well. I hope we get prego together as well, if I had it my way every single person in this thread would be. I still haven't gotten AF, BUT I am wondering if I could have still ovulated meaning my AF would come at the end of the month?? I don't know we shall see.
Satya~ Sorry for the SIL thing, I completely understand its not that your not happy for her but its hard to not feel like its all unfair.
Thank You to everyone for filling out my survey I got a little over 200 responses and some great data!
Diane XOXO
Oh Lee How devastating. I am so so sorry. You know you have friends in here you can turn to, no matter how dark your feelings get. We're also here to remind you that things will get easier, and you will feel better. I think the crab apple tree is a lovely idea (oops I've stalked ) and as you start to feel better (emotionally) it will be a positive reminder of your boys. I understand that you've had a really tough time with tough choices. I wouldn't wish that on anyone. Big :hugs:
Penny I'm glad the check up went well. It's not easy being surrounded by bellies when you should have had a belly too. But it is all positive for you from here on. I am sure you will have no trouble falling pg.
Satya Your SIL is happy, let her have it. You will have yours too. In fact you have a fantastic DF who adores you, the two of you can fall pg naturally, you have a gorgeous step-daughter who brightens weekends and makes you mothers day cards. And soon, you will have your own child, someone for you and DF to love together. Your life is great and will get better. Whew, don't know why I'm being so preachy. I guess its helped me to focus the things in my life that bring me happiness, without the joy that a child would bring. Sorry for being so preachy.
Rachael I guess its good that you are out and about a bit. You went through something similar after your first d&c didn't you? Scans are a scary thing for me and DH as well. Before the 1st scan for my 2nd pg, I felt more afraid & nervous than before my scariest interview or before a school swimming carnival (a school full of girls screaming in an indoor pool area, trust me, its scary). But I can watch scans on TV. There's a reality show here that covers Katie Price & Peter Andre's latest pg (Princess whoever). And the first bit of it showed them going for a scan and finding out that there was no heartbeat at 13 wks, having a d&C. I was impressed at how well they held it together. Having been through something similar, there'd be no way I'd want a camera crew around me at that time. But they did go on to have Princess T when they next fell pg. Not that I usually watch a lot of celeb trash tv, honest
Diane Wow, 200 responses! That's great, I'm assuming not all BB members! How are you doing? Any sign of AF or O? Are you temping?
I am enjoying my last few days of unemployment by bumming around at home... Will find out yesterday's HCG result today. So much of all this is waiting. I feel determined not to let life pass me by while I wait for our family to unfold.
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hello everyone,
only been 1 week today since my d&c, still not sure if i want to ttc again just yet, but you guys are so inspiring, i am definately considering it.
Welcome StarrySky. What a beautiful name you've chosen. I am sorry for your loss. Whether you decide to ttc straight away or not, you'll get loads of support here.
My HCG dropped again by 200 from last Thu. Its now around 400, so I am hopeful that it will go down to 0 in a couple of weeks. Then I'll get AF in about 6 weeks, and can maybe start ttc then or a couple of months later Its so slow, but better than the alternative!
Lee: I know I'm a total stranger since you had left for PAML when I joined but I wanted to express my deepest sympathies for your loss. Take care of yourself.
Diane: Great news on getting your 200 responses! I didn't mind the survey at all. It gave me something interesting to do as I was rather bored at work that afternoon. Congrats on your upcoming graduation! If you don't mind me asking, what is your degree in?
Charlotte: I hope that spotting was your AF and everything has gone back to normal for you. Countdown to TTC!
Starsky: Welcome. I'm sorry for the loss that brought you here. I hope your stay is short and that you will find us to be a supportive bunch while you're here.
Penny: Glad to hear you made it thru the OB appt w/ your sanity & emotions in tact. I expect to be going in another week or so to get the results of my d&C analysis. I know I will be sitting there wondering about the other women there - pg or not, did they have a tough time or breeze right thru...? Of course I will then assume everyone is pg and that they all have no problems staying that way. I hate it that I do that but I can't help it. But as for you, I'm sure it won't be long b4 the other women will be wondering those things about you.
Kiwigirl: I agree with your comment about women having had an m/c being better able to support someone else who has suffered the same trauma. What I don't get is how some other women can be so clueless about their reaction to hearing about someone else who m/c'ed. I have seen some real doozy responses ppl have given to those in here after their loss. The lack of sympathy and decorum by some ppl lucky enough not to have gone thru this truly amazes me.
Pash: Glad to see your emoticon on 'Cheerful' - I hope you truly are. You seem to be doing amazingly well despite all the lemons life has been throwing at you. Congrats on your further HCG drop. Can't wait to get the news of your *BFP* in the coming months! It will happen - it will!
As for me, I think I'm spotting so hopefully AF is on her way. RIght on time too. Hopefully that means I'm back to normal and we can TTC in two weeks time. Yay!
Welcome Starrysky. I hope your stay here is a short one. I just seem destined to stay here forever.
Pash - I'm glad your HCG is dropping. There's more to the SIL thing that I didn't write. Lets just say that she actually doesn't care how my DF & I feel. These words have actually been spoken and have been related back to us. She knew all the circumstances about the baby stuff plus the illness that is in my family but she said she didn't care about it.... this was said when a family member warned her to be careful about smsing us because of all the stress we are under right now. I had to visit my aunt on the weekend as they have started to withdraw treatment and she will have weeks not days to live. It's really hard to watch my mum fuss over her sister while she herself is so ill. Maybe I could feel happier for her if my mum and my aunt weren't so sick but put it all together and I just can't be. They need some happy news and I am just not capable of giving it to them right now. All in all I'm actually in a very good mood most of the time, but everything going on all at once is sometimes just a little too much for me to handle.
Lee - I caught up on the details the other thread. I cried for you last night, you have experienced something I have a real fear of and I just felt devistated for you. I started thinking about you on the way home in the car and by the time I got in to my house there were tears. It was hard trying to explain to my DF that I was not crying about my own situation, but when I eventually spat it out he understood. I hope you can get the courage to try again but don't think I could if I were in your situation, then again I am a few years older than you and of course the risk for me is even higher.
Pash: I know this might sound strange but I put my HCG level data and the dates into Excel to follow their drop off (hey I needed something to do while waiting around for the next BT lol). The doctors told me they usually follow a certain drop-off pattern, like an exponential decay curve (fast drops at the start, then slower and slower). I could see that pattern with mine and it helped me see when I thought the HCG would be done to zero
Satya You're right, I'm sorry. I should be supportive instead of preachy. Obviously, I don't know the whole story, and I didn't mean to come accross judgemental. I'm sorry about your aunt. And I do hope your mum pulls through what is a tough time for all of you.
SweetPetite I'm glad AF is on her way & you can move on with TTc. Fantastic news. I guess I am more hopeful than cheerful. But I guess I feel more positive than I've felt recently.
Rachael I've been charting my HCG already but it is good to know that it comes down exponentially. I was told it should halve every 48 hours, but my drops are a lot slower than that.
Hi everyone! Thank goodness for this site....I think I AM OVULATING! I miscarried on the 25/7 and have been following some threads about people who have concieved again without waiting for AF,anyhow I didn't realise you could do this and my DH and I have not used any protection. My husband was very much we will TTC AFTER AF so I didn't tell him it could still happen.
Anyhow the last few days I noticed all my Familiar (very obvious) Ovulation signs and my husband asked me last night as he had noticed too......I asked him "what if we Fall again" expecting him to be worried etc but he said "That's a good thing isn't it" so there you go I thought he wouldn't have thought about it at all.
Anyhow fingers crossed and I'll keep you posted if anything comes of it....can't test for 14 days can I? I'm just excited that my body seems to be returning to normal.
Pash - your preaching was fine. I probably deserve it, regardless of what she has said and done. I really do wish I could be happy for her but I just can't. I'm done trying now. Luckily we have very little to do with her and her husband so it's not going to impact our lives too much.
I just got an email from my mum. One of her brothers has now been diagnosed with cancer. Right now that means my mum, my aunt, my uncle & a cousin all have it. I know a lot of people get it as they age but seriously this is getting ridiculous. Some good news though, a cousin's daughter has just had another baby (number 3 for her), I'm very happy for her but it still makes me a little sad about my situation.... no tears though.
Dawnee - You go girl !!!!!! i tried straight away but no luck, but it does happen. Fingers crossed it happens for you !!
Satya - It is natural to feel the way you do, i did after my first loss, but this time im taking others joy a little better. sending you lots of hugs sweety, dont be too hard on yourself, you cant help the way you feel.
starrysky - i agree, such a beautiful name. Welcome and good luck with your ttc journey. You are certainly surrounded by very caring and understanding ladies here !!
Well i recieved my hpt's from lullaby conceptions. They sent the wrong ones, but they sent better ones, than i ordered. I told them, and they are sending my order again but told me to keep the first ones !! lucky me....i am very impressed with there service...and would recommend them to anyone.
Now i just have to wait for O and some serious BDing and then i can use them!!!
Im abit stressed cause im not working which means im not getting paid. And the worst thing is that Cooper will probably get them soon, which means i will have to have another 10 days off.
Hi everybody, hope you don't mind, but I'm finally ready to join you in the TCC journey, and I'd love to be able to share the ups and downs with you guys, because I know you've been where I am.
At the moment I'm half way through my 3rd cycle since my MC, and have stopped taking the pill (2 days ago) and started on supplements. Obviously not expecting anything for this month, but hope to get serious next cycle.
I wondered if anybody knows anything about takind Omega 3 fish oil while TTC and Preg. Have been taking it for a month or so, and wondering if it's safe in Pregnancy...
Anyway, looking forward to sharing the ride, and wishing you all BFPs really soon
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We are all here for you whenever you need to vent at all. 
I still haven't gotten AF, BUT I am wondering if I could have still ovulated meaning my AF would come at the end of the month?? I don't know we shall see.
Feeling hopeful
Its so slow, but better than the alternative!
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