Welcome Starrysky. I hope your stay here is a short one. I just seem destined to stay here forever.

Pash - I'm glad your HCG is dropping. There's more to the SIL thing that I didn't write. Lets just say that she actually doesn't care how my DF & I feel. These words have actually been spoken and have been related back to us. She knew all the circumstances about the baby stuff plus the illness that is in my family but she said she didn't care about it.... this was said when a family member warned her to be careful about smsing us because of all the stress we are under right now. I had to visit my aunt on the weekend as they have started to withdraw treatment and she will have weeks not days to live. It's really hard to watch my mum fuss over her sister while she herself is so ill. Maybe I could feel happier for her if my mum and my aunt weren't so sick but put it all together and I just can't be. They need some happy news and I am just not capable of giving it to them right now. All in all I'm actually in a very good mood most of the time, but everything going on all at once is sometimes just a little too much for me to handle.

Lee - I caught up on the details the other thread. I cried for you last night, you have experienced something I have a real fear of and I just felt devistated for you. I started thinking about you on the way home in the car and by the time I got in to my house there were tears. It was hard trying to explain to my DF that I was not crying about my own situation, but when I eventually spat it out he understood. I hope you can get the courage to try again but don't think I could if I were in your situation, then again I am a few years older than you and of course the risk for me is even higher.

Hi to everyone else.