Just a very quick post before I head off to the snow
Have a great few days - I wont be back online until next Wed
It will probably do me good to not focus on all this for awhile, DH and I have commenced BD every second day as ov should pop along over the coming week.
Hopefully it will be warm enough for the to survive
Ladies - some horrible news ... this bub sadly has not made it. Sorry to post here and be a downer but I don't know where else to go
After some very very minor spotting last night, headed to ob today for some reassurance and a quick scan. Bub measuring 9w2d instead of 11w2d, and no heartbeat. Had an additional scan elsewhere for confirmation.
We had 2 fabulous scans and heard the heartbeat and had seen a beautiful foot wave and now I just can't get my head around it.
In for a d&c on Monday, then at least 4 months until we can ttc again. I don't know how to fill those months. All I want is a baby.
I don't know how to go back to the beginning of the pain again.
jenushka--OMG...my heart is absolutely broken for you! I sit here in tears reading your post, and I'm just completely at a loss for words... I know nothing I say can take away your pain or make you feel better. Please don't apologize for posting here--or thinking you're bringing us down--you're still a part of this thread, therefore you're family! I'd be sad if you didn't let us know....
Why is it that you have to wait 4 months to TTC again? Is it because of the D&C? Oh, hon, I wish I had the remedy...the magic words that could just take it all away... My thoughts and prayers are with you sweetie! Please let us know if there's anything you need--you know we're always here if you need to vent--feel free to PM me if there's anything I can do!
Easha--Enjoy your skiing trip! By the looks of your chart, this is perfect timing for a getaway! It worked for tina, so my for your BFP in a few weeks to come! Hoping that without the computer you can put all your focus on just enjoying your time with DH! Did you remember to pack your thermometer? I guess that would defeat the purpose of taking your mind off TCC, but just had to ask! Will look forward to hearing all about your trip next Wed!
plc--Waited to chat with you.... you must've been a sleepy mama! Can't wait to see some belly pics soon!
pbstar--My thoughts and are with you on this day of your angel's EDD... take extra special care of yourself today!
mollycat, megsmum, and AJC! Big to you all!
Krystie--Am sure missing you and your sense of humor! Hope things are ok with you!
tutmae--Where were you this am? Missed chatting with you!
Jenushka: I just don't know what to say! I am just so so SO SO sorry hon, and totally lost for words!
Jen: Have a cold, so laid low today. FF still hasn't told me anything new, so I don't know whats happening.... I'm trying to hold out to poas but I don't know how long that will last! I had terrible heart burn last night (which I've never had before) but I'm trying not to read anything into it, except that maybe red onion before bed isn't a good idea.
tutmae...I had heartburn yesterday also...and I've been peeing often...sign
when will you test? AB is due for me Monday...I don't know if I'll make it I just happened to have a Dollar store test yesterday but of course it was since I was only 9 DPO I knew it would be but I am addicted!
Smi: Thinking of testing on Sunday (you know, even days). Don't know when AB is due as my cycles are so wacky, all I know is that I o'd around cd 15 (last tuesday) or so.... Hmmm, so by that maths if my cycle is 28days this time I should test after monday. So maybe tuesday. or sunday. Do I sound undecided? Heehee.
jenushka - NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I'm sorry I didn't see ur post before i last posted. Oh noooooo!! I'm here in tears - my heart is also breaking for you. I am just so so so so sorry. I wish i could do something..... Makes me even more angry at that blasted cow u dealt with earlier. Pls let me know if i can do something.
jenushka.....Hun... there are no real answers.... no words we can say will make it alright..... it sucks.... you know it, i know it.... we all know it..... and to say it sucks is the politest way to put it.......
how do you deal with it.......the only answer i can give is ONE DAY AT A TIME..... the days right now will be cloudy and vauge.... then sometime, hopefully soon, the fog will lift just a bit and then a bit more and then a bit more until one day you will be able to see again....
Do whats right for you right now hun... allow your emotions... allow your sorrow, your anger, your frustrations, your fear...... all of your emotions.. alow them all..... dont hold it in... cry... scream... yell... whatever you have to do to deal with it.
jenushka- i am so sorry it is so so unfair, i was actually thinking of you yesterday and how close you were to 12 weeks and now my heart is breaking for you. sending you so many and remember we are here whenever you need to vent.
afm- tomorrow is my angel's edd...feeling very emotional... sat with hubby tonight and read one of the poems/prayers from angel babies website and dh and i just let the tears roll...so thank you angel babies for the beautiful words that helped me explain and deal with the hurt and pain...
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I'm so sorry.
Please don't apologize for posting here--or thinking you're bringing us down--you're still a part of this thread, therefore you're family!
I'd be sad if you didn't let us know....
getaway! It worked for tina, so my
for your BFP in a few weeks to come! Hoping that without the computer you can put all your focus on just enjoying your time with DH! Did you remember to pack your thermometer?
I guess that would defeat the purpose of taking your mind off TCC, but just had to ask! Will look forward to hearing all about your trip next Wed!
are with you on this day of your angel's EDD... take extra special care of yourself today!
mollycat, megsmum, and AJC! Big
since I was only 9 DPO I knew it would be but I am addicted!
to absolutely snow down on you all!!!
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