Satya- How hard a desision. I think you are a brave woman to set having a child aside and doing what you know is right. You deserve the best. And accepting him doing things in secret would have been a pandora's box. There is no reason nor excuse for him even having a friendship in secret. All that is good and innocent is fine to have broadcast on the Front page of the newspaper. So it is no excuse on his part. About the baby bit. I am so sorry. fortunately, or unfortunately we don't know the future. I hope you still will have the chance but if not it is still better than a life tied to someone who doesn't treasure you. I am sure that someone will see you are worth being respected, treasured and adored. We all see that in you.