Satya:Ohhh Dear! you are in a really dificult situation.......I have been there many years ago with my first husband (The Father of my first two girls) I was very young (still at school) when I met him and he was mid 20's....he treated me like dirt over the years,was abusive,mood swings and unfaithful....??? well I reckon he wrote the books on it! I tried so hard and wanted to believe he would change he cut me off from Family,friends,I wasn't allowed a phone to learn to drive "nothing" but only I could make the decision to get away and considering my life was in danger and I was scared of him and his threats it was hard! He stalked me for years,tried to use the girls to keep a hold over me until I disappeared and that was 14 years ago!
But what I wanted to point out to you was the deciding factor for me was the Girls....I read that girls often Marry a version of their Father (I know I did) and I just couldn't bare them thinking that this was what they had to expect from a relationship! and then going on to end up in one just like it.....Even though you haven't had a Baby yet you need to seriously think about later on the influence and examples you want for that Child? even though my ex seemingly loved the girls and was never abusive to them they just became pawns,and when it comes down to it we will protect them no matter what,or at least we should.
On a happy note My husband is a Mr Brady off the brady Bunch hahaha white picket fence an all the girls love him and have called him Dad for years....the girls are very strong willed individuals that work and go to Uni and my eldest is heading towards the Police Service (bet she locks my ex up one day haha) and the second eldest is heading towards Television Camera work.....I hope you have a lot of support satya and if you do... use it! but I will say when that trust is destroyed absolutely nothing brings it back!
Sorry for the thread hijack ladies..... I am thinking of you Satya if I were you I'd be off White water rafting....Oh wait I am!!!! hahaha! -x-