Hi

I'm new to this forum. I belong to another forum but there aren't many women who have been through what I have and mostly their whole experience is sunshine and roses, very different to mine!

I had 3 miscarriages across 2 years. First one was deemed a chemical pregnancy, 2nd was at 7 weeks and 3rd was at 9 weeks. The FS couldn't find any reason.

I got pregnant the 4th time and struggled with the stress of it all. I took it easy. I went on a strict diet. I was so careful, I didn't drink tap water or stand too close to the microwave or even put petrol in my car. DH and I were worried the whole time that something would go wrong. Every day I thought I would lose her. I went into pre term labour early and gave birth to a baby girl 10 weeks early in June 2006 but she didn't make it. They can't tell me why. All of the obvious things like incompetent cervix have been ruled out. DH and I have had major tests and they can't find anything wrong to cause these problems.

My DH is keen to start again. He wants to have another baby. Some days I do too, some days though I am terrified. I don't know how I could go through it all again. And losing another baby is just something I don't even want to contemplate.

I want a guarantee everything will work out fine but no one can give me that so how do I get pregnant and live with the worry, every day and not go crazy?? 9 months is a long time to worry... so how do I get the courage to try for another baby? I

Any advice you can give me would be great.

Eloise
DH - Phara 31 years
Me - Eloise 30 years
Furbabies - Arun and Simmy