Hi Eloise,
I am so sorry to hear about your angels. My daughter was stillborn in november at 33 weeks and even though we know why she died, and it is highly unlikely it would happen again, I am still very scared about being pregnant again. I would second the advice that Mel gave you, that the want for a baby outweighs the fear of losing another. However it is a long 9 months to worry isn't it? Before I found the ladies on this site, I doubt that I would have been able to get through the journey of TTC, but I know that here I have found some wonderful people who are going through similar feelings, hopes and fears as I am, and that helps me. I know there wasn't much helpful advice there, but I just wanted you to know that you are not alone in your fears. Good luck.