Hi Eloise,

I am sorry to hear of the loss of your little girl and also your other angels

I dont really know how to advise you to get the courage to TTC, it is simply a personal choice and I understand that it is terrifying. I lost my son Nicholas at 36w1d and I also keep thinking about the fact that it is possible it will happen again because I have a blood condition which caused me to lose him. If I was to lose another baby how would I get through? Although the dr says it is unlikely, no one can guarantee. The thing is my desperation to have a baby outweighs my fears though, I am a mum but I dont have a baby to look after and really that is all I want in the world.

Is it possible to get some more testing done before you start TTC just to rule out particular problems? Have they given you any idea of whether they "think" it is likely to happen again? Have they given you any possible causes for you to go into labour so early?

As I said I cant advise you on how to get through your next pregnancy, all of us just have to take each day as it comes and lean on each other for support. While I cant give you guarantees your journey will be easy, I can give you guarantees that the women in this thread will help you get through. They have supported me through some very dark days and without them I would not be able to survive this journey.

You may not feel like TTC just yet, but please feel free to hang around this thread and chat to us anyway. Not all the girls are TTC, but they are all just as welcome and cared for as the girls who are. Maybe eventually you will make the decision to TTC and you will already have that support network in place and all of us wish that each other comes away from this thread with a healthy baby in their arms

I know I probably havent helped much but mainly just wanted you to know that you have friends who understand your journey here.

Take care,

Mel