Thanks for replying to my post Mel.

I understand what you mean, after my m/c's eventually the urge to have a baby outweighed my fears and we went for it again. We thought we would try one last time.

The dr's have done every test under the sun. I have had laproscopies done, blood tests galore, DH and I had genetic testing done both karotyping and looking for something more definative. They cannot explain why my placenta broke down or why the umbilical flow ceased. There were no problems with the cord itself or the placenta. No infections. No history of preterm birth. Nothing.

I was reassured everything was fine throughout my entire pregnancy. I went through a high risk clinic. I had fortnightly scans and still something went horribly wrong. There are no more reassurances they can give me. They told me to "get pregnant and we'll do our best". I spent 1 month living in the NICU and I have seen so many things go horribly wrong, I am surprised when someone has a baby without complications now.

Sorry to be so negative, DH is just so desperate to have a baby I don't want it to cost our marriage if I just can't bring myself to do it...

Eloise
DH - Phara 31 years
Me - Eloise 30 years
Furbabies - Arun and Simmy