Hi
I'm really frustrated by my TTC journey - in summary TTC after VR. 18months til first pg Mar '07, only to have it ripped away from me at 6wks. 6 long months then a chem, one very short cycle, then pg again. Lost at 8wks, but didn't find out til ~12 wks. Then 5 wks later, on D&C cycle, pg again, rushed to hospital by ambulance in early hours of am with severe cramping to be told UTI and sent home with antibiotics, 12 hours later cramping again and gush blood everywhere. POAS 2 days later and it was faint positive. But I knew I lost it in the gushing blood. So in total 4 losses in about 11 months.

I just feeling like I am banging my head against a brick wall - I have recurrent loss testing I'm normal, karyotype is normal for DH and I.

I'm just so angry about where I find myself - AMA (38yo) and people who just don't get that I might be sad about my losses. They really don't understand what I might be feeling. People who suggest that I might have TTC earlier in my life - well there was no DH then. Now my acu is suggesting that I TAB - FS suggests that I keep trying. What conflicting advice.

On weekends it's the worst - everything that I bottle up inside during the week - trying to get on with life - just comes spewing out. I feel for my DH - wonderful man that he is putting up with me being upset and angry.

Anybody else been there - anything help with this angry phase or do I just have to ride it out??