Trying to Conceive after Late Loss, Still Birth or Recurrent Miscarriage April '08

[Anthonysmom]

Hi ladies - just dopping in since I have the day off.

Hammi - my heart breaks for you. I remember being at that stage. It has only been 7 weeks. some days will feel okay and some not so much. its okay. it is a mystery to me why babies die. especially those that are so wanted and loved. as far as a new baby. the first few months of TTC were unsuccessful for me. i was trying to get ANthony back. Once I realized he wasn't coming back and came to grips with it, I got pregnant that first month. I love my son and always will, but I am pregnant with a new baby now. it is terrifying but I love her as well as my son.

Jo - glad you dr appt went well. i hope you get to hear and see the beautiful heartbeat soon.

my scan went great on thursday. Evie grew so much and now has a heartbeat of 171. of course last night i spotted again a little bit. i have to call dr tomorrow anyway for bolld results so I will tell him. the good news is spotting is gone this morning.

Barbara

[jen805]

Anthonysmom-- :woot: for Memorial Day--so nice to have a Monday off, it sure helps the week go by faster! So happy for you that your scan went well, and you got to see your sweet Evie! Hope things continue to progress smoothly--and no more spotting! Take care!

[Katiegirl]

Hi all.

Barbara - glad to hear things are going well for you. I hope the spotting stays away for good now. When I had spotting at 6 weeks, I honestly thought I would not be able to handle anything more - it just feels that after all we have gone through we should all have smooth and easy pregnancies - but that is unfortunately not how it works. I always thought that this little bub was like a present to you from Anthony, as it was conceived right after his EDD.

Jo - I am giving birth at Frances Perry. As the whole Royal Women's (and Frances Perry) is moving to their new building in June, it means I will be in a brand spanking new hospital. Though I would be prepared to wherever my Ob sent me, if it meant bringing this baby home! I understand what you mean about how emotional this birth will be. Glad to hear your ob has suggested another ultrasound at 17 weeks. You are doing better than me, seeing as I am having to go weekly to keep the crazies at bay! Like you, my ob is also supportive (as you all know I love him!), and due to him believing I won't feel proper movement until after 20 weeks he thinks it will bring peace of mind to come in weekly. The best part is we don't get charged for these weekly visits or scans, as it is covered by the 20 week management fee. Do you think you will be able to add a ticker soon? I waited until after the 12 or 13 week scan.

Jen - I certainly hope you will be joining us soon. We need the company....especially because we all keep hanging out here instead of moving permanently to the preg thread! I just find it so comforting to come back and see our small group and know how everyone is doing.

Hammi - I hope you are doing ok. As Jen said, your loss is still so recent so please be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel bad if you need to, to cry when you want, and also to know that you will find happiness again. Hamish is looking after you.

TM - I hope you are ok? I haven't seen you in here for a long time.

Off for another scan today at 11:40am - so hoping for good news once again so I can rest assured for a few more days. I have always been a worrier, so it is no surprise that this is a very trying and exhausting time for me. I can't wait to get past 20 weeks and feel like we are over half way.

[Katiegirl]

Hi all - quick update. All went well at the scan - we saw the heart beating and the baby moved his/her arms and legs a bit. The baby was completely upside down - perfect position for childbirth but not so great for getting a measurement. After a few minutes we had to give up trying to get a good measurement. I am happy though as my ob said all is progressing well and the baby has moved up a bit more out of my pelvis which is great. So I can rest easy until my next scan

[Inanna]

Yay Katiegirl!!!! So pleased your little one is doing all the right things.

Big big hugs Hammi

[jo76]

hey everyone -
this is a early morning visit to catch up on everyone.
Katie -i thought you had another scan coming through so i am glad it was yesterday and stopped me wondering. I have my 12 week scan (which will be closer to 13 weeks) on monday and if all is well i will add my ticker then. (if i can, i am USELESS at computers!)
Glad your bubs is going well and continuing to give you comfort. you will miss the ultrasounds when they are'nt weekly anymore! I am 12 weeks today and nothinbg terrible to report so i am slowing growing a bit of hope! Alomost throught the first trimester - seems so strange! I feel like it has gone so slowly but so quick! I so agree with the 20 week mark -i think in my mind that has more importance as it is the halfway mark. It will be past when we lost Jack and I think will be a very postive move forward for us all.
Barbara -yay! another step forward, i am very excited for you and hope this is bringing you alot of peace of mind. I hope the spotting stops for you! please take care and rest up!
jen - keeping fingers crossed for you and sending you loads of hugs!
hammi -really hope you are ok!
simba -hi to you too! have'nt lurked at the preg forum lately so will have to see if you have posted there!
take care guys!
xx

[Hammi]

Thank you for all your hugs and warm words. You are all such a comfort to me. The feelings I express here I can only do so to you guys and DH. Sometimes I tell my family or close friends but I don't think you can understand what this feels like unless you've been there... and I hope to God no one else I know will have to go through this.

Katie, I think I will be as "crazy" as you. As soon as I heard that you were doing weekly scans, I thought that's what I'll ask for too. That's very reasonable of your ob not to charge you extra for the weekly consults and scans. I love looking at your ticker and seeing the weeks getting on.

Jo, I'm looking forward to seeing your ticker next week. Oh gosh, you must be holding your breath waiting for your scan. Will you scan in your pict to share with us?

Barbara, I hope your spotting behaves itself so you can relax more into your pregnancy and enjoy being mummy to Evie. What you said makes so much sense... I just hope I have the sense to take your advice and listen to my body and mind.

So Jen, are you still in your 2WW? Any feelings about how you're going? You are such a positive person, I'm glad you found this forum so I can benefit from your support :-)

Hi Flowerchild!

[jen805]

Katiegirl--Glad the recent scan went well and you got to see that healthy again! Still no news on the sex, or is it a secret? I'm sure all your future scans will be just as comforting and reassuring, and will help keep your mind at ease. I can't wait until you get past that 20 week mark--I just think once you get past that, you'll enjoy your pregnancy so much more!


jo--So excited for you to have your scan, as well! I feel like I should know the answer to this already, but is this going to be your first one? Either way, it will be a comfort and give you some peace of mind to see that healthy heartbeat! I can't wait to see your ticker!


Hi Hammi, thanks for asking about me! I could sense in your post that you weren't as down as you were last time you posted, it will get easier everyday! Of course, you'll still have down days, but they'll become fewer and farther between! I agree that this is a very comforting place to be during these times, I don't know what I would've done without the friends I've made here at BB! I am still in the TWW, but my cycle's being a little tricky this time around, so it may end up being a 3WW for me this cycle--well, hopefully it will end it a BFP instead! I'm supposed to test on Sunday, but I just don't know, I'm just going to see how things go. I'm trying to be less uptight about it this month, and I've done pretty good so far, but at times it's a struggle! How's it going with the naturopath?