oops! forgot to fill you all in on my OB visit yesterday...
unfortuneately no real updates except that my Ob continues to be in as much shock as me over this happening twice and he has said thathe wants to see me after the autopsy results have come in so we can discuss what it holds for my future. He said time is still on my side as i am only 32 and healthy (unless tests say otherwise!) so to not give up hope. He DID make the huge mistake of calling her passing a "termination" as i had to be induced. It really made me cringe in the worst possible way as i did not CHOSE to terminate, i really think it was a horrible medical term to use and he knew after he said it as i got upset. I think he needs an answer about what happened almost the same as me as he went through my file and looked at everything and just sat shaking his head. he had a poor OB student there and at first i did'nt want him to sit in as i was given a choice but then i thought well he won't always have happy endings either so here is your training starting with me! When i got upset he could'nt even look at me so then i was feeling bad for him! bloody emotions!!!!
Then last night i had a blood clot (warning TMI!!!) that i could actually feel coming out about the size of a small strawberry! I had really heavy bleeding after jack and for months (katie you'll remember my complaints) which i found out when i was having madison, was probably due to an unfinished D&C and they said i should have gone back to hospital and had another one done. So then this clot thing happened even though my placenta passed naturally this time and it was out of the blue as my bleeding has been almost nothing this time round. i am not sure wether to wait it out another couple of days and see what happens or just to go to the docs. I am in no pain, just mild cramping which is to be expected as everything goes back to normal. They said the bleeding should only be around 2-3 weeks which seems very on track this time. i dunno...i am almost giving up on this body of mine!