It is good to hear that I am not the only one who is super sensitive at the moment. Tildy I couldn't believe your post about your legs as a young girl. I used to have terrible problems with my legs growing up and no-one could tell me what was wrong. They kept just saying growing pains... maybe it was my thyroid all the way back then. I don't think it was ever tested.
I have my appt with the specialist today so I am very curious to hear what he has to say. I found a few websites on the weekend and all link depression and anxiety with thyroid as well as miscarriage and late loss. I am relieved that I have finally had it acknowledged and can hopefully get everything in order before ttc so that I have peace of mind when PG next time.
Lan re the ttc thing, it will definitely be after AF in Dec. Maybe even January now. I haven't even checked when AF will be due yet. If its early Dec I will probably wait till Jan, if its late Dec then may go then. I want to make sure my thyroid is ok and also that I am well settled in my new job. If you go after AF in Nov then it is just around the corner. How exciting. Did you fall PG with Hamish straight away? DH and I never have any problem with getting PG so I need to make sure we are ready to be PG when we start trying. My miscarriage we got PG in the second month but with Charlie and Ethan it was on the first go.
Anyway, hi to all and I hope you are all safe and well.
Hi Jo, our posts must have crossed over. I think xmas is going to be a killer for all of us. Ethan asked what Charlie would get for xmas. I told him we could buy her something nice and he then said 'but mummy, how will we get it up in the sky to her'! Speaking of Ethan, on the weekend DH said we might all go for a bike ride (we didn't as I was too lazy!) and Ethan said 'yeah and baby Charlie can come too, she can fly next to us' he then went on to say 'i think she's saying yes, she would love that'.
btw, what sort of drugs are your in'laws on. they need a serious slapping, especially your MIL. Is there anyway you can take time off work so you guys can go away over xmas. How horrible if you have to spend such a tough day with such hideous people. As far as your emotions go, the good thing with kids is that they are so excited by xmas that it will take a lot to bing them down. If you're a bit sad and explain to them that you are just missing Madison and Jack then I'm sure they will get it. They sound like pretty sensitive kids and obviously miss their brother and sister a lot. The other good thing about kids is that their excitement and happiness is so infectious. I am counting on that getting me through.
Anyway, take care and feel free to slip arsenic in MILs coffee, none of us will tell. If I was there I would do it for you!!
Paula - once again your Ethan has just floored me with the beautiful relationship he has with Charlie. I had tears running down my face when I read your post. It must be such a comfort to hear him talk to freely about your daughter. You have been blessed with 2 beautiful little souls. Thank you for sharing that story, it has made my day.
Jo - your in-laws sound so incredibly challenging. I can't understand how people can be so selfish when they know that people close to them are suffering and in pain. If you want to spend Christmas away from them, then just do it. Your DH can say that this year you want to have a quiet Christmas as it has been a rough 2 years. If they get upset, then so be it! The inability of some people to step outside of themselves and walk in anothers' shoes is just mind blowing. As if your poor DH needed to be pounded with all those questions, especially after his mother has offered zero support to date. I really should consider myself lucky that I have good in-laws! I hope you are doing ok and try not to let their insensitivity get to you. I know that is hard, and I found myself dwelling over some peoples' insensitivity as I think it gave me a place to vent my anger, but it didn't really help me much. Take care and thank you for being so lovely about my pregnancy. I know it must be hard and I really appreciate that you can be so kind as to offer me support. It means so much to me.
Ok, I really need to get back to cleaning. I think I am missing the nesting gene. I seem to have made our place messier than it has been. I feel like I need to clean out every cupboard (big task and one I have put off for 2 years!) but once I get started the job seems to big. Aaghhh. So I need to at least finish some of what I have started. There is stuff lying around everywhere!!! I had myself thinking on Sat that I would go into labour, but now I just put that down to wishful thinking. Pretty sure I have at the least another week or 2 left in me. I am starting to get uncomfortable, but I refuse to complain too much as this is my every wish come true.
Hi to all, sorry for lack of personals. Thank you all for your excitement, it is contagious!
Jo, your in-laws sound awful. Just awful. I would not be spending Christmas with them no matter how bad the repercussions, but then I've never had to deal with irrational family. Can you make something up, like you expect to be in a bad way emotionally and don't want to inflict that on them? It's amazing how your DH could have come from that family.
Paula, your son is so sweet.
Happy TTC to Paula and Lan!!! I'm so looking forward to your BFP announcements.
Hi to Katie, Tildy, Cindee Sue and anyone else forgotten due to a bad case of baby brain.
I'm good, had our friend over last night and it was fun. I told him (I'm showing anyway) and it was fine, he didn't ask any questions about what happened, I think he just didn't know how. I think I'll have to start wearing maternity leave next week I noticed another girl at work started wearing it today, so there will be three of us, and I do not want them to ask me about the pregnancy... I would suggest newly pregnant women are the last ones who want to hear about what happened!! Naivity is bliss. I got an email this morning from a lady I used to work with, she saw in the system I'd just returned from maternity leave and wanted to know what I had, names etc. I really thought I'd gotten to the stage where I could tell someone what happened without getting teary, but no, I still did, and that was only by email!!! Hence why I'm dreading donning the maternity uniform, it will prompt more comments/questions. I had a moment of abject panic over the weekend, thinking what if etc... but managed to calm myself down. I expected to feel more movement by now, it's still very sporadic and light, so I am sooooooo glad I have my doppler to reassure myself that bubs is still ok.
I'm not sleeping well at present, which is odd because I'm so tired. not sure what to do about that.
By the way, has anyone seen that ad for Fernwood with Julia Morris starting a program at about 6 months pregnant? It gives me the irrits, she's doing weights and talking about 'not letting herself go'. Can we at least leave pregnant women's self esteem intact unlike the majority of other women???
Hi everybody, we just had a weekend away camping so I have missed out on all you girls! Well I think my MS is starting to kick in, a little later than normal but it's here! Although I said to my FIL the other day, I couldn't care if I was sick the whole 9 months as long as I get to bring this one home. I have had both my mother and MIL ringing me nearly every day to see if I am OK, it is nice but starting to make a bit batty! I just broached the subject of Xmas with mum as we normally go out to their property, about 4 hours west of Brissy. I have said that I would prefer to stay here, so I think they should all come down here, which was fine. last Xmas I was 7 wks with Cooper, we were towing our camper van and the bloody tow bar snapped! Our camper went off into the side grassed area finally stopping under a tree with hardly a scratch on it! Thank god it didn't go the other way into the traffic. Then at dinner time, I started bleeding A LOT, which settled after about 2 hours, I was sure I had lost him then. So I can sympathize with everyone on the whole XMAS thing, I am not sure I am looking forward to it on some levels either.
Rozzie - It is weird telling people isn't it? I told my sister today, their reaction annoyed me, she was all very bubbly and telling me how I have to 'just think positive'. I am reading way too much into it I know, but it just hit home that she really has no idea about what I have been through. I am seriously thinking about emailing Fernwood and giving them a piece of my mind about that ad! Glad I'm not the only one bothered by it.
Katie - Nesting WOW!!
Paula - I am glad Charlie's EDD went OK and you had a nice time with DH, hugs for the next day though, I sometimes get that horror that just floods me. Ethan is such a special boy.
Tildy - I hope you guys don't get anymore bad news, doesn't the world know you don't need it?? We are a bit concerned as well, we have 2 investment properties that we really struggled with last year, we are seriously thinking about selling one off soon, I just don't need the extra stress, we won't really make a cent but at least it will free up some cash flow. I hope things settle for you.
Sue - The NT is scary, but you are right they have such high false results, but I am sure it will be fine.
Lan - Are you getting excited???
Jo - Your inlaws sound alot like one of my friends, they no longer speak and the sad thing is they haven't seen two of the three children, it amazes me how pride could possibly be more important than children.
Hi to everyone else I have forgotten, I am just about falling asleep and need to go shower, etc.
Bye
Helen -- no matter how people react when they find out that I'm pregnant again, it mostly seems to irritate me. I've had reactions like your sister's -- bubbly and all positive and stuff. I'm sorry, but I just hate bubbly. I'm fully anti-bubble. I get nervous when people are excited and in this case feel even more pressure than normal to be wholly un-like myself and try to bubble back -- and of course, I fail. But when people are all reserved and stuff I get mad, because SOMEONE has to be happy for me if I'm not yet. On Friday we were out at a bar listening to some friends' band play (deja vu AGAIN -- we did the same last time on the same day of the pregnancy!) and THREE pregnant friends/friends' wives were there. All of them came over and congratulated me, and I was just... UGH. Not only do I not know them very well (and I suspect they don't know so much about our miscarriage), but they're all more pregnant than I am, and on the heals of our EDD, that actually just made me angry. I was angry at them for the fact that they're going to have babies before me even though I was "first" and just wanted them to go away and stop talking to me! :P
Rozzie -- Yes, the doppler really is a great thing, I'm glad you wrote about it so that I bought one, too! I haven't felt any movement yet, so I'm glad I can listen to the little heartbeat every night and then remind myself that there's still plenty of time left before Kebab is supposed to be doing sommersaults. I read somewhere that it can take longer before you feel the movements if you're overweight, and though I don't get why that would be, it could mean that I have a while yet before I feel anything definite. I've also been having trouble sleeping despite being very tired, and I remember a similar develop last time. It's sort of hard to get comfortable. MIL said "if you think it's hard to get comfortable NOW!" of course.
Katie -- I started with the nesting already! As far as rearranging furniture and stuff, that is; cleaning has gone seriously down the tubes in our house. DH has, rather than cleaning more given that I'm tired, cleaned less than he usually does because he and I have far too much synnergy there... if I'm slacking then he slacks. But this weekend I sort of had a new wave of energy, and I cleaned and we moved the wardrobes out of our "cat room" (yes, the cats had their own room, while we waited to fill up rooms with kids!) and into our bedroom. I'm so pleased with how it turned out, as it's just lovely to have a "new" bedroom and it's so much nicer to have our clothes right there in our own room! But I know what you mean about messing things up -- after our efforts, the OTHER 3 bedrooms are all in chaos! But, you know, baby steps... toward a baby room!
Mrs Robbo, I have to agree than Ethan seems like a little gem! I have never had kids around me in my life, so I don't have a good radar for what kinds of things they might or might say, but I'm just floored by some of his comments (and by those from Jo's kids about Jack and Madison!).
Jo, I hate to hear that your relationship with DH's family is making things worse for you at a time when you need people who help you make things better. It's always such a tough road to walk with in-laws, because those are the relationships you sort of have the least control over -- you can tell even your own mother to f*** off if you so choose but the in-laws are not yours to discard! I feel very lucky in that sense because I have super in-laws, and DH is lucky that I want less to do with my own family than he does, so he doesn't get thrust into their psychosis too often. The most important thing in other words is that DH supports you when it comes to them, so that if you need to be home alone for Christmas (and it's okay to need that!) then he will take that conversation with them himself and the eventual fall-out. Hmm, you could even make use of a little white lie there -- if she insists that you need to see a counselor, you could say that you took her advice and that the counselor urged you guys to spend Christmas alone!
Hammi - we think about you every day, too!
Sue -- that's a lot of worry you have to handle over the NT scan/amnio etc. questions. I can't think of anything intelligent to say about it, but I wanted to let you know I am sympathetic and hoping for the best, whatever you decide to do!
Jo, You and your DH have the right to be a little selfish this Christmas. You do not need the extra stress on you or your relationship. Just remember that you have both been through a lot and your family will understand. Even if they don't act like it, they do love you and want the best for you. My DH and I decided to have a quiet Christmas at home this year too. Our Families are very important to us but trying to visit everyone would just be too stressful this year.
I am not trying to pressure you into heparin. I know that it is a huge decision and not for everyone. I know that you haven't even talked to you DH about giving pregnancy another try yet. I am just the kind of person that is always thinking two steps ahead. I guess for others as well as for myself. Just remember that the doctors have no idea if heparin would help you or even me. They really don't know everything to test for yet either. It might be the miracle drug that will fix my mystery problem or yours. There really is no way of knowing unless you try it, it is the same with any drugs they give us.
Rozzie, I hate telling people that I am pregnant. I was so excited to tell everyone about Parker. I left work when I was pregnant with Parker, I was ready to stay home with him. I just can't bring myself to start working outside the house again. I don't have to deal with all of the coworkers asking about my pregnancy and having to explain another loss. If I start working again it almost feels like I am giving up hope of bringing home a baby.
Helen, I pretty much hate telling people that I am pregnant just because I don't want to deal with their reactions. I have decided that I don't even want to talk about my losses or pregnancy with my mother. Every time I talk to her she tells me some story she was told about someone else?s loss. She even told her doctor about what has happened to my DH and me. She doesn't even know all of the specifics (which she would get wrong even if she did know them) but she thinks her doctor can give me a diagnosis. She keeps telling me not to give up hope, which makes me so angry for some reason. I yelled at her the other day and asked her if she has ever had to hold her dead baby. I feel bad about it but she wouldn't back off.
Katie, I am glad that you are getting so excited. You might have to get used to the house being a little messier than usual. Once your little one comes home I am sure staying organized is going to be even more difficult.
Hi to all that I missed.
As for me. My hcg level are doing great. The nurse said they more than doubled. She also said that it is most likely just one in there so my dream about twins was just that, a dream. I have my ultrasound next Monday. Exactly a week from right now. I will be 7 weeks and a couple of days so not too much to look at. It will pretty much be to help me calm down a little and for accurate dates.
I found out over the weekend that my sister is pregnant. I was a little upset about how I found out. She didn't even call me to tell me. She posted a ticker on her myspace page. I know that it must be difficult for her to tell me something like that but there are better ways for me to find out. She will be less than a week behind me. I am a little scared about her EDD being so close to mine. What if something doesn't go right with my pregnancy again? I don't think I would ever be able to be near her or the baby. I don't really want to talk to her about it yet because I will be forced to tell her that I am pregnant again. I would rather wait a little while before I tell everyone.
hi!
you guys were busy yesterday!!!I thought i would jump on for a quick read and now if i reply to you all i'll be late!!
just want to say a quick thanks for your support on the in law thing -my FIL is wonderful, it is the MIL and DHs brother and SIL and that are the issue now. i'll write more later as i am gonna get into something long!
take care!
x jo
p/s paula hope you got some answers from your specialist!!!
Hi all. Just read through all your posts and it all rings true for me as well. I totally understand all the reasons you have given for avoiding having to tell people you are pregnant. People's reactions can be so annoying and there is no way of predicting what you will get. My only advice is that often when I told people about being pregnant (provided they knew about Nathaniel - if not then I just avoided seeing them!) I would then follow up with how I was feeling well physically but that it was an anxious time etc. Most people seemed to understand and I have been pretty lucky with the support we have received. I know DH would also tell people that we were anxious, so that helped as well. I would often just preempt or remind people subtly that this pregnancy is very different for us and that seemed to keep the whole 'bubbly, jumping around with excitement' reactions at bay. I also avoided telling people until it was quite late and I was very obviously showing. I would often catch people looking at my belly and I knew they were waiting for me to say something. I really feel for you all as it is a tough time. I hope you all get good support and sensitive reactions from people. For those that don't - then maybe try to remind them that it is difficult for you.
Laney - I am so sorry you have found out about your sisters' pregnancy over myspace! I know that she probably doesn't know how to tell you, but come on she is your sister and a phone call is not that hard! Aagghhhh I also get irritated (and no offence meant if any of you choose to do this) when people announce to the world their pregnancies really early. It used to bewilder me before but now it irritates me as I guess it shows their confidence and innocence...everything I didn't have this time and that irritates me!
Rozzie - I really feel for you having to move into the maternity uniform before you feel ready to announce it. I was lucky in that I represented the company here in Vic so worked on my own. It saved me having the whole big announcement at work - I didn't tell work until I was 16 or so weeks and that was because we were having a change of senior management and I wanted my colleagues to know prior (I had to travel a lot with work and I knew I would have to start pulling back and needed their support). I was also showing a lot by 16-17 weeks so I had to tell eventually. Just take small steps and hopefully people will allow you to tell them rather than come out and ask you.
Aagh Christmas. Yes it is a difficult time of year. I keep remembering last year as we lost Nathaniel on the 3rd Dec and then had an early Christmas in Brisbane with my family and then Christmas with DHs family. By Boxing Day I was exhausted by all the I'm sorrys etc. I am hoping this Christmas will be a little easier, but I know I will still feel the loss of Nathaniel keenly. My advice is, let your DH know that you will only go to events if you feel capable. I refused to do the visits to friends etc as I knew the usual family events would be exhausting enough. DH and I had an agreement that if I felt too tired or emotional than we would leave an event (this didn't happen but it was nice knowing I had a safety net). If you get it all agreed with your DH, you at least know that you have options.
Okay sorry for not doing personals. Also I want to clear up something - I am wanting to nest but don't seem to have the talent for it! You should see our place now...even worse than yesterday. I have the largest pile of junk to throw out and wonder why we ever kept it all anyway! Take care lovely ladies
We got the keys to our new home yesterday. Yay! We were in there after work scrubbing down the walls and cupboards. It was exciting and surreal at the same time. It also makes me miss Hamish super much. Something like a new home should be shared with your family and I so wish our little boy could've been there with us. DH and I hugged and hugged and hoped that Ham somehow squeezed his way in between us too. I miss you so much, bubby!
HA! Confident pregnant women. Boo hiss! My SIL, who has a 18mth old is constantly talking about all the other kids she's going to have, what gender they'll be and when she'll have them, like you can just order one over the internet. Lucky for her, they got pregnant first try and got to take their cute little smiley girl home nine months later, so I suppose there's no reason for her not to be confident. I do object to her giving me pregnancy tips like I'm somehow didn't do it right the other times. Hissss!
It seems that you guys all showed a lot quicklier with your current pregnancies? Is that right? Nothing happened for me with Hamish until well past the 4th month. I was hoping not to show much again next time to avoid all the scary having to explain scenarios you're now experiencing.
I'm dreading Christmas too... I imagined this one to be so different. I definitely think for Jo and Helen that you should stay home if that's what you feel most comfortable with. Goodness knows you've been through enough without having to cater to others' feelings when you're having such a hard time yourselves.
I feel a bit like the symbol for theatre at the moment - you know, the two masks, one laughing and one crying. On the one hand I'm excited about moving house and getting ready to TTC next cycle on the other everything new I look forward to and experience I wish Hamish was here to share them with me. I know he is in his angel ways but selfish mummy wants him here in an earthly way.
I miss him. I miss him. I miss him.
And I'm thankful to have you guys to tell that to.
Just want to give Lan a hug - of course you miss Hamish and all these new experiences will possibly remind you of all that you haven't been able to share with Hamish. On Sunday night we moved the bassinette into our room and we were rearranging furniture and DH had to take Nathaniels box (which contains his ashes and a few other little momentoes) and he put it in the bassinette and smiled at me - I burst into tears and said that it wasn't fair that Nathaniel didn't get to have any nice things. I suppose it is the nature of grieving, and learning to just go with it and accept that it comes in cycles. So Lan, be kind to yourself. Laugh and cry whenever you feel the need. And big hiss to your SIL giving you pregnancy advice...some people are just so incredible!
I have 5 piles of mess in our lounge room alone and feel overwhelmed. Must get back to it. Hi to all.
Wow you guys have been busy... sorry I havent been around, was sick with m/s yesterday, but after a good night sleep, feeling heaps better.
Jo - Your MIL , I can't believe it!!!! Actually I can, as mine is more over crowding. When I lost my angels, she was there the next day and just saying things about my age etc etc. I know she was trying to be nice, but she over crowds me.... I think you both should do what is right for you for Christmas.
Paula - You have the most gorgeous son and it is lovely to see how attuned he is with his sister.
Helen - Telling people!!! well I have only told 2 close friends at work, just in case something happened. Other than that I havent as yet. Same with everyone else, I feel hesitant in telling people as I feel like I am pushing my luck and something will happen. I am glad everything is going well with you, when is your first scan???
Tildy - nesting already. Wow your place is going to be spotless before bubs arrives.
Lan - House keys yeah, it must be so exciting. Big , Hamish was there and watch over you and DH.
Laney - Great news about the HCG results. Good luck for your scan next Monday, look forward to hearing your great news. So sad you found out about your sister on my space..... I know it is hard for people, but a courtesy phone call would have been nice.
Katie - Not long to go, I bet you are wishing the nesting has started.... he he he. Very funny about your house though.
Rozzie - hope all is well with you.
Well I went and saw the Ob today (my official appointment), though bugger I didnt have another u/s. He said since I only had one last Thursday, it is not required. Though we went through all the normal blood & urine testing results and I have the all clear. I have decided to have the NT Scan - though very lucky to get in. I have it booked for Monday 3 Nov and will be over 13 weeks, but she said just that I get it done before 14 weeks I will be fine.....
Yep the MS has definitely kicked in, I feel nauseous most of the time and cannot stop eating!! Makes it go away for a bit. Which lead me to get the ****s with that Fernwood ad I just seen on tv, (Rozzie this is your fault! ) couldn't help myself I had to send them an email telling them how I thought it was very inappropriate.. Maybe it is just the hormones and I was probably over reacting, but it is a crap ad.
How is everyone?? Hugs to Lan, Hamish is right there beside you in your new place, and yes we are all selfish and want our babies to be here, we have that right.
Helen, that stupid ad is on all the time and it makes me angrier every time! in addition to the obvious inappropriateness of the whole thing, it's annoying and cheesy, especially when she goes 'epidural over here ploise' in an exagerated Kath and Kim type voice. Grrr!!! It is on right now damnit!!
Sue, I'm glad you're having the NT scan, I have a feeling you'll come back with a great result and hopefully that will reassure you enough to let things take their course.
Lan, congrats on the new house, I'm sure the massive rate cuts are welcome!!! I agree, confident pregnant women are... not sure what! My mum told me my cousin's wife is expecting their first and they're so excited, and I felt like, how naive and unknowing. Then with other women I'm just angry cause they seem to pop them out no worries, and I know they'll never have any problems and life just isn't fair. And I think I am showing more at this stage than last time, which is ironic as now I don't want to show and last time I did.
Katie, I'm not worried about people who know about Edward finding out about this pregnancy, it's more the people who knew I was pregnant but don't know he died, so they'll say 'weren't you just pregnant!?' etc... I went to a meeting today and they said one of the guys (who was on the course I pulled off because of Edward's death) just got back from parental leave, and heaps of people were pregnant and there must be something in the water!!! I just ignored it. I wish everyone knew so they wouldn't say such things in front of me, but then I can't tell them myself and it's not exactly a group email subject!!! good luck with the nesting, don't expect too much of yourself, you're in a fragile way!!!
Laney, glad to hear the levels are all good. I wish I didn't have to work, but I earn more than DH and financially it would be difficult. I'm also the money manager of the two and the tight one, he wants to spend, it's going to be so difficult on one wage. And that is awful that your sister announced her pregnancy to the entire world before she told you. Not a nice way to find out.
Tildy, I'm with you, there seems to be no pregnancy announcement reaction I'm happy with!!! FIL's girfriend was bubbly and it irritated me, my father kept saying 'if things work out this time' and my mother immediately got out pictures of my sister's newborn to show me because I've 'taken the next step' and somehow that means I'd want to see them now (I refused). My friend on the weekend just said congrats and then kind of awkwardly avoided the topic. I'm sure when I don the maternity uniform there will be more doozies to add to the list.
Jo, I think you're a saint for even contemplating spending Xmas with your in-laws. You're much more patient than I.
I decided very early on that for the first time we'd spend Chrissie at home by ourselves. I don't want to go away at a time when if something happened to the baby it would have a chance of survival with intense care, nor do I want to share the grief we will feel with family. It was my family's turn this year but both my brother and sister will be at their in-laws so I've invited my parents down to our place.
I have to say that of all you ladies, I have the least trying family and in-laws, there's not much they've done or said that I can complain about, yet I have so little contact with them (except my parents). I haven't spoken to my sister or brother since it happened, I feel guilty just admitting to it. They both have kids, my sister's baby born a month before our EDD, and on some level I'm angry at them, as irrational and unfair as that is. My friends with babies are in the same boat. They can't help me as much as they'd like to, I don't feel any comfort from their support, I just want to deal with things by myself. My mother is beside herself, wants me to get professional help. People seem to think counselling is some sort of cure-all, which it is NOT. I had some counselling, but after about 3 sessions I felt I'd gotten all I could from it, especially when I found out the SIDS counsellor had never lost a baby (I thought their counsellors would have for some reason). I don't feel further counselling will help, I understand exactly what I'm feeling, and I could talk about it till the cows come home but it won't stop me feeling that way. This pregnancy is my excuse in a way, as in I can just put myself first while I'm pregnant and deal with things later. I feel quite abnormal as nobody else seems to be in the situation.
hi everyone i had my NT scan today, i burst into tears half an hour before i got there.
the last big scan i had was last year when i found out hopes heart stopped beating so i was a bit of a mess. the ultrasound lady was really nice she described everything to me in detail and i got a disk to bring home. im happier now atm because i can see nothing is physically wrong now i just have to get through the next few months.
Cindee that is wonderful news about your scan. And don't worry about bursting into tears, I am sure most of us have or will do that at some point. The 12 week scan can be so scary as it is still too early for movement etc. You must be feeling over the moon to get a good result!
Rozzie - it sounds like you are having a really tough time emotionally with your family. If you honestly don't think that counselling would help, then don't feel pressured. SIDS do have parent supporters which are people who have gone through a similar loss and are matched to you - that might be more appropriate if you needed someone to talk to. I personally have found a subsequent pregnancy support group run through my hospital to have been of benefit. Take care and be kind to yourself. Do you think your siblings understand why you haven't been contacting them and were they supportive after Edwards' death? It is such a tough time and there really is no right or wrong for anyone.
Hi to all - will need to scroll back to see what I need to respond to. My cleaning is continuing...though I think it is better described as a major overhaul! I have so many piles of junk to throw out. I think once it is out of the unit, the place won't look quite so atrocious. DH is amused at my insistence that I need to clear our every cupboard. I am feeling really good physically, very few aches and pains. We are heading out for dinner tonight with my SIL and her boyfriend. I think this is our last official engagement - we have a clear calendar now and plan to do very little bar last minute organising. Our laptop died this week, so I am now typing on a brand new one. It really was an expense we could have done without, but neither of us could live without a computer at home.
Hope you are all well - any news to report?
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Cindee - Great news about your scan, yippee!! Glad you had someone nice to do it.
Katie - I was just looking at your ticker, and it bought back memories of when I went into labour with Corey. I was 37 + 6wks, I was booked in for an ECV the next day, but he just couldn't wait! So very close to where you are now!!!
Thank you all for your excitement, it is contagious!
I noticed another girl at work started wearing it today, so there will be three of us, and I do not want them to ask me about the pregnancy... I would suggest newly pregnant women are the last ones who want to hear about what happened!! Naivity is bliss. I got an email this morning from a lady I used to work with, she saw in the system I'd just returned from maternity leave and wanted to know what I had, names etc. I really thought I'd gotten to the stage where I could tell someone what happened without getting teary, but no, I still did, and that was only by email!!! Hence why I'm dreading donning the maternity uniform, it will prompt more comments/questions. I had a moment of abject panic over the weekend, thinking what if etc... but managed to calm myself down. I expected to feel more movement by now, it's still very sporadic and light, so I am sooooooo glad I have my doppler to reassure myself that bubs is still ok. 
, I can't believe it!!!! Actually I can, as mine is more over crowding. When I lost my angels, she was there the next day and just saying things about my age etc etc. I know she was trying to be nice, but she over crowds me.... I think you both should do what is right for you for Christmas.
. Maybe it is just the hormones and I was probably over reacting, but it is a crap ad. 
im happier now atm because i can see nothing is physically wrong now i just have to get through the next few months.
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