Just want to give Lan a hug - of course you miss Hamish and all these new experiences will possibly remind you of all that you haven't been able to share with Hamish. On Sunday night we moved the bassinette into our room and we were rearranging furniture and DH had to take Nathaniels box (which contains his ashes and a few other little momentoes) and he put it in the bassinette and smiled at me - I burst into tears and said that it wasn't fair that Nathaniel didn't get to have any nice things. I suppose it is the nature of grieving, and learning to just go with it and accept that it comes in cycles. So Lan, be kind to yourself. Laugh and cry whenever you feel the need. And big hiss to your SIL giving you pregnancy advice...some people are just so incredible!

I have 5 piles of mess in our lounge room alone and feel overwhelmed. Must get back to it. Hi to all.