I just wanted to quickly drop in and say hello. I was having a pretty rough week last week and was coccooning myself at home with the furbabies. And it's taken almost all of this week to catch up. So I'll be brief, and please just because I don't mention your name, please don't think that I don't think of you, I do, and hope like anything that you'll soon be getting your bfp's.

Gigi - the pressie for your mum sounds great - I love the idea of the mushrooms, and especially the more gourmet variety. You know what? You do seem to have some of your mojo back - it just shines out so brilliantly from your post. It just makes me so happy to see.

Samcougar - CONGRATULATIONS GIRL. I am soo soo excited and happy for you. Seems the "C's" still have it.... I hope to see you in another thread soon? Don't worry if it takes you a while to gather up the courage... it took me ages.... and then took even longer to feel I could loosen the ties from this thread. And good work on your intuition about not having your x ray but hope your ankle isn't giving you too much worry.

Chez - thankyou so much for asking about the fur babies. #2 has recovered really well and is now on twice daily tablets for hyperthyroidism until his next check up on 3 July. He will have some blood tests taken then to see how his thyroid levels are, see if his weight loss has stabilised and if he has any other conditions that the hyperthyroidism might be masking. If not, then 2 weeks off the tablets and he'll have his radioactive treatment. I am not looking forward to being without him for 3 weeks, but the treatment is 95%curative and he is only 7 and I am expecting him to have a long and indulged life. He's good with the tablets - he doesn't like it, but he tolerates it. Makes our job a little easier.

Teni/Crumpet - I don't know why but I don't get those feelings of "this shouldn't be like this and I should be holding my babies" that often or too intensely. I do get them from time to time, and just try and find my way through. I wonder if those feelings are something we'll have lifelong, maybe not with as much frequency as now? I think so, from talking with women my mothers age and older who've experienced loss. There are special days, where it all comes flooding back, as if they were right there again, and sometimes even on unexpected days. I just accept for me there are all sorts of days - and I just try to be in the moment with each day, no matter what it is. If I am feeling a particular way, there's a reason for it and I need to honour it, even if I can't work out why or it takes me by surprise or I don't really want to feel that way.

I don't know, it's just so tough and hard and unfair. I just wish I had more than words to help you through, but that's all I have, and they're pretty cumbersome and ineffective. I suppose I really wanted to say, I am so so sorry for your pain and heartache and I wish I could make it better for you. Teni - as you can probably tell from what Crumpet said, the next part of the journey ( and you will get there), as much as you want it, is tough and at times lonely, and loss makes it more lonely and frightening.

Chris W - hope you are all ok now after the wasp attack!

Susie Q - how are you doing? A bit better?

Powelly - hiya - the waiting is so frustrating. Avoid the wine - you can do it. Hope you get something happening soon, but in my heart of hearts, hoping for a beefer (bfp).

Cmeggles - have I seen you post somewhere else or I am just losing my mind? Hmmm... losing my mind is likely. LOL.

Sorry if I have missed anyone else. All good here. Having some non serious but irritating reactions to some medication at the mo - very severe insomnia - lucky to get even 2 hours last night, and no nanna naps for me yesterday or today, despite being tired, quite thirsty and to boot - I look like an old wino, very rosy cheeks and nose and flushed. They should pass quickly as I had the last dose this morning, and some minor GI upset. Hopefully by tomorrow arvo, these reactions will be a distant memory! At least the fur baby's keep me in good company... have a safe and happy weekend. I am looking forward as always to having DH around. Saturday's are my fav day now, as I can "usually" sleep in and snuggle. I've never been a person to sleep in, so I am trying to make the most of it.