TTC AFTER Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/ Stillbirth 2010

[Gigi1]

CRumpet, you crack me up! I hope iwth all my heart he is right. Go take a test hun....hurry and tell us.

Dory, It is great to feel empowered by a decision hey! Good on you for deciding which way to go. I can imagine it must have been hard. I am an emotional eater too. I eat for company too. God we are funny. I am thinking of you hun and hope this down moment is fleeting and you are up on coud nine again before you know it.
I hope that book turns up. What was that other book you recommneded a while back? I should right it down before it is lost forever. xoxo

SuzieQ, I am sorry you have come to need this thread. Welcome and I hope we can all be of help to you. I am quite fond of this little group. I am sorry you have lost your child hun, your baby girl. It is funny, your username makes me stop in my tracks. That is my mum's nickname from her youth. Hope that days get easier. Take your time. It feels like you need to rush, i understand that, but as time goes, you understand the need to heal on every level. Do what is right for you hun. As i said to one of the other girls, it really depends on what your cycle was like before bubs. I was regular as clock work and pg improved my cycles at first, lighter and shorter and no or less pain. I stopped bleeding in the first 10 -14 days after DD's birth. Then 28 days later...af. I was not ready to make love though for some time after that, emotionally. It also depends on the birth you had, and any procedures. I had a natural birth and no retained placenta. My body worked up to that so it was ready to let go. DD died and I gave birth to her 5.5 weeks later. That is my theory for me though, we are all different.

Love to all !Sorry not to mention names.
This girl is tired and a lot to get done so I will chat later.
Briefly, Looked after gorgeous nephew today. Lovely day. Helping my friend out with her kids in Byron again next week. That will be a long week. Mum and Dad bought me a nice camera which was incredible of them. I am very excited to have it.
Oh dear...tired, Off i go to watch some tv.
Love to all again. xoxo

[Gigi1]

My2Boys, Sorry hun i didn#t see your post.
As far as I am concerned. Those who find this thread are here for a reason so lets see how we can support you. I am so sorry you have had so many losses, so many babies not make it. That must be devastating everyday. I am sure there are lots of positive stories hun but i am not so good for that right now. You are focusing on the right things, you can get pregnant and easily, you have two healthy beautifully living children. So sustaining the pregnancy...you must have worked through so much. Have you been ablet o work out yourself what you think might be the problem? ie, age of eggs, health of eggs, uterus lining building up enough, hormones at the right time and right balance. (Not levels, cause we are all a little different and I don't believe we should all have the same hormone levels...just doesn't make sense to me.) I know mine look normal but my body shows definate signs of estrogen dominance. My thyroid levels look normal but i know i need iodine. Do you get me. I am not sure how deep you have gone, so please excuse my silly questions.
Thinking of you
oxox

[Gigi1]

Cheryl,
I forgot to say in my last post that I have been thinking about you and your special little Ryan on Wednesday, and surrounding days. I know this week must be so hard. You are in my thoughts and I hope you were able to remember back, with a little smile inbetween the sorrow. HOpe oue angels are playing together. xoxo

[my2boys]

Thanks Gigi1,

I appreciate your kind words. It is hard to know where to turn for support as MC is still a subject that makes most people uncomfortable.

I appreciate your questions and they make sense but I am so confused I really don't know what I think the problem is. I just know there has to be a reason for repeated MC. I seem to have spent the past 6 months glued to my computer researching any possible causes.

I agree that hormones in my case might be a problem but I'm not sure how to find out what part they are playing in my MC's and what to do about them. I know my diet isn't great and that I seem fatigued ALL the time (although probably due to my being totally emotionally drained).

My latest theory is NK cells so I am going to ask my FS about that on my next visit (wednesday week). My FS has also referred me for a Factor V Leiden test to be done next week. Otherwise I am at a loss as is everyone else that has looked at my history.

I just know it is heartbreaking at the moment. I am driving myself crazy with irrational thoughts such as - that as I am still awaiting AF my second HCG tests were wrong and that the levels have really climbed. I know it is not possible but this rollercoaster really messes with my head and I want to hold onto any little bit of hope as crazy as that hope is!!!

Gigi1, once again thanks for your kind words.

[crumpet]

Hi All,

Not sure if I'm posting in the right place as I only joined up today. If I'm in the wrong place can someone point me in the right direction as I need an outlet after being told yesterday that my current pregnancy (only 5 weeks) is not viable and I should expect AF in the next couple of days. (still a no show ATM though). I hate waiting for AF, it doesn't seem right that I want it to come but at least it is another step closer to TTC again.

This is MC #5 (4th consecutive since my last child) and I hate that once again I am on this emotional roller coaster ride. I have 2 beautiful boys (5 & 3) that keep me going but I am once again questioning how many times I can put my head and heart through this. My boys continually ask for another brother or sister as we had just told them our pregnancy news (last year at 11 weeks pregnant) only to lose the baby 1 week later. How do I explain to them that we are trying everything we can.

I was referred to a FS last month after my 3rd consecutive MC and after a truck load of tests and scans (all came back clear) I was told to go home and TTC straight away. I conceived again the same month (I am extremely fortunate that so far I have always conceived easily) only to have my follow up BT show my HCG levels dropping not climbing. AAAGGGHHHH!!! I sometimes wish the HPT would show a BFN rather than continually getting my hopes up.

The other bad thing is that each MC now seems to be happening 2 weeks earlier than the previous MC. I am only at 5 weeks now and although still no sign of AF I have been told no chance for this pregnancy either.

Does anyone have any advice or positive stories to keep me going. How can I have 2 successful pregnancies and now soo many MC? I don't understand and 'bad luck' just doesn't seem to be an answer I'm comfortable accepting. Please send me some positive stories. Sorry for a long winded story I think I needed an outlet as I don't know anyone that could possible understand my heartache. Best of luck for all TTC.

oh hun, big massive hugs for you.....
what a tough journey u have been on, i really hope the FS can find some answers for you soon!!!!

CRumpet, you crack me up! I hope iwth all my heart he is right. Go take a test hun....hurry and tell us.

lol ur a crack up hun!!!!
ill be testing prob wednesday i think..... i rekon i o-ed sometime from saturday-thursday( couldnt possibly get any more days in there hey!?!?!?) so i rekon wednesday will be the start day for my POAS addiction!!!!

next weekend is out 1st wedding anniversary so im really hoping we get one super special prezzie!!!

[Gigi1]

Crumpet,
you are a woman of will power!

My2boys,
Yes my aunt had issues with nk cells and never had a full term pg. I have not heard of testing for FVL, it sounds like you have a thorough dr though. Is there reason to suspect you have this condition...does anyone have it in your family? I hope they bring some answers for you hun. It is horrible to have no reason and therefore less power in this. If you had issues with either of these things, how would you have had the boys you have? Does it worsen over time?
Hmmmm, what a puzzle. It will be interesting to hear what they say next week.
Have you read and are you inclined to read a book called spirit babies. I know it helped me come to terms with 'timing' a bit better. As in, when a baby will come etc. If you do have some small belief in spirituality it is a great little book. I loved it.
chat soon
oxoxo

[crumpet]

PMSL!!! its taking a LOT of will power let me tell you, but im sure it would be to early anyway so thats keeping me slightly sane!! im really hoping to wait till wednesday so will see how i go.... come back in here in the morning and 10 bucks says ive given in!!! PMSL!!

[sryan]

Hi all,

I used to be in this group a long long time ago because of recurrent miscarriage and I wanted to respond to my2boys, as I couldnt go past her post.

I also had 3 miscarriages in a row and had all the testing done as well and all came back clear and I thought I would let you know what got me through my pregnancy.

I took asprin before and through my pregnancy until 36 weeks. They couldnt find a blood clotting disorder, but it wasnt going to harm me or the baby and that it helps blood flow. Also when I got pregnant, my sugar levels went up straight away (which they found out in my last pregnancy), but I was already taking Metformin to help me get pregnant and this controlled my sugar levels, just had to increase it!

I am hoping that you get answers soon and wishing you the best of luck.

Actually all of you girls, I wish you all the best and that all your dreams come true.

xxx Sue xxx