Beata - I don't think anyone would mind you lurking in here, Pass on your pregnancy germs
Dory - Glad you are feeling good, although tired.. I hope you keep feeling peaceful
Gigi - Have you been to a SANDS meeting before? I haven't been to SANDS as they are in Brisbane, but I was subscribed to their newsletter. I go to my Bonnie Babes meeting tonight, I haven't been since November as they didn't hold one over xmas.. I feel like I need it to de brief a bit..
Chez - Glad you had a nice break in Melbourne
Aries - Try to relax on your break from TTC.. Hope to see you back here when you feel ready
Samcougar - I get how depressing it can be.. Thanks for popping in, take it easy
Dimples - Have you decided to take action against the hospital? Good luck with whatever you decide.. It must be very hard to know the right thing to do.. Has AF arrived?
AFM - Bleeding again Started bleeding on Sunday.. I know I write this almost every time but I AM SOOO FRUSTRATED!!! I start my nursing diploma on Monday, so I am hoping it gives me a nice distraction.. I am terrified I am going to struggle with the work but I know they have great support. Anyway that's about it for me.. I am tired and feel like crap today.. It is so damn hot.. I shouldn't complain I love the heat but I just have no motivation and the heat makes it worse!! I keep dreaming of pregnancy.. It's weird. I have dreamt about me being pregnant a couple of times then last night I dreamt I was upset because I found out Mum was pregnant and she had just had a little baby.. Weird!!
Hi to anyone I may have forgotton I would REALLY like a fresh 2010 thread??? Please Mods????
Beata 70 - Good to hear from you! Lurking is a good thing to do sometimes. Although I find it impossible not to contribute. It's like when I try to "punish" DH by giving him the silent treatment. I end up trying to restrain myself from saying something, and DH doesn't even notice. Luckily I don't use it very often as it an an abject failure. Other times I try to keep silent whist DH is listening to something, OMG the words almost burst out of me. DH just laughs and tells me he loves watching me try, but totally understands I can't be silent. What a sweetie.
Hi to everyone else - thinking of you and missing hearing from you.... is all ok? Big hugs.
Sorry it has taken me so long to write back. Things have been really crazy with my thesis work...I would spend all day at work (and then some) and then go home and get the excitement up with DH (now on CD19 and waiting for results....), and then head into work one or two times in the middle of the night. It has been an exhausting week and a half, but really great! I have lots of good results for my thesis and I with all the BBT and OPK results I think my body is on track (BBT spike and LH surge). I am just counting the small victories right now. Boy those results can be confusing! Haha so I guess dory was right---too busy shagging to write! I have been reading though. You all are never far from my thoughts.
I know the liklihood is pretty low,and am trying not to think that we may have been successful... but I have been thinking if I do find out we were successful to wait a few days and let my DH know on Valentine's day. I can at least be hopeful right?
On another random note- I have been watching little bits of the Australian Open and thinking about all of you.
Dory- How are you feeling? You have an apt Mon right? How are your nerves? I totally laughed at your last post. That is EXACTLY what I try to do to my DH when I am mad...he totally doesn't get it.
blessedatlast- So sorry hun! Stupid AF. I feel like they are already hard enough, but my hormones get all out of whack and it can make it even harder. I am really hoping next time for you! Best of luck at school on Monday! Let us know how the fertility naturapath apt goes in March. I don't know if anyone like that is here, but I am definitely interested.
Beata70- Hello. Feel free to lurk! Maybe having you around will spread the babydust!
Gigi1- I have a good feeling for you too! Keep us updated. My fingers and toes and legs are crossed for you. A little older but since I haven't posted in so long--I am so sorry that you are surrounded by so many insensitive people. Fertility massage? Hmm maybe I should try that. Send some zen my way!
Aries- We will see you when you come back! Best of luck on the move and work.
Samcougar- Nice to know that you are lurking too! I hope things go well for you during your break and you have some real peace.
Chez 67- I had a similar incident the other day. Great job at keeping your composure! How are you doing? Sounds like you are really getting back on track. Babydust to you for this cycle!
Dimples- What a tough decision. At least the hospital recognized their mistake. Might be worth talking to them about it or even offer to do something like a grand rounds or talk to medical students (something that is done at a weekly basis in US hospitals in each department) and share your story to all of the people there so that it doesn't happen again. I also had some pains for about 1 month afterwards, but they went away (I was not as far along as you). At this point I feel like my whole pelvis feels different. I have never felt ovulation before, and for my past 2 cycles I have been feeling it. I think I am just hyper-aware. Perhaps you should have a scan done like Chez suggested. Keep us posted.
Long post. All my love from the US downwards (and sending a little cold your way)
CD22- Half way there....of course nothing is showing up on a stick yet...but we still have lots of time.
Blessatlast- Yeah hun, been to a few SANDS meetings, most have been really helpful. Just meeting people going through a similar thing. I was never for support groups before. Thought it was a bit of a group for being a victim and staying in your black hole. But i have found it wonderful. I used to go twice a month, now just once a month when i can. I would get quite upset if i missed one. It was somewhere i felt safe to just talk about DD. It is great. I have heard Bonny Babies are really good too.
I hope your dreams mean it is not far away hun. Good luck with your studies and a distraction. I am so sorry you have AF again. I hope good news is just around the corner ...very very close, I really really hope.
Beata...i second the pregnancy germs hun...spread 'em. Lurk until your heart is content.
Dory, how are you doing hun...I can't believe how controlled you are. You sound so calm and content. I hope you are feeling this way too. You handled the party like a star. I totally understand that these moments can sometimes be short lived but you are doing tremendously. Hope you are well.x
Cmegles- Sending you some Zen sweety. You can have as much as you like. i can recommend deep pelvic massage for breaking down scar tissue...definitely. Sounds like you have been busy! I hope this is the month for you. All my fingers are crossed for you too.
Sending you some heat!
Chez, Samcougar, Dimples, aries and anone else i have missed...so sorry if i missed you...best wishes and much hope for you all. xoox
AFM- Going well, a house day today. About to clean house and do grocery shopping. Feeling ok, very hard to wake up this morning. Spent the last couple of days with dear friends. Went for a magical swim at the beach. We were at Caloundra and the beach was so calm, it was perfect. I storm was coming over too so we have this spectacular lighting show while we swam in this huge natural swimming pool. It was gorgeous. I could float on my back like i was in the Mediterranean. I didn't want to get out.
Better go and do a few things.
Love to you all xoxo
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Gigi1 - that sounds just divine! I can feel your tranquility in your post. AFM - I Am feeling quite good. I am not sure it's a positive exercise of will or just my personality style. But as you said, it's good to enjoy the moment.
cmcegelles - good to hear that you have been busy both with your thesis and geting jiggy with it! I try to be thankful for the small things. I find it helps enjoy the journey. What channels are showing the Aus Open in your area of the US? Some friends of mine came out from the US to go the Aus Open and see fam and friends in Aus. It has been an awesome tournament. Over the years I have tried a lot of strategies on DH. Still not perfect strategy but at least I know what doesn't work! So I am with you on that one.
AFM - my appointment is Friday 5th Feb, which also happens to be DH birthday.
Take care, sorry not many personals tonight. I was hoping for an early night and its almost 10.30pm so I had better get snoozing. Take care.
Wow - what a busy week it has been and I have so much to catch up on!
There is such a positive vibe in here at the moment, I am sure it is a sign of great things to come for 2010!
After our lovely long weekend last weekend, this has been a weekend of domestic catch-up, so sorry no time for personals today. But I will catch up soon I promise. I am having a big house de-clutter session today so I need to get stuck into it. I have just finished reading an article about how clutter in our houses can be very bad for us psychologically, and recently I have been getting frustrated about not being able to find things. So it's time. I used to do one every 2 years or so as a result of moving with my old job, so it's about time I did another one as we have been here for about 2.5 years now.
Just a quick update - I expected no O this cycle but still I went to my AP session on Friday morning. And then a miracle happened yesterday morning - I went from low fertility all last week, BANG to peak fertility on Saturday morning. I am not sure whether the AP has stimulated O, or maybe it's a combination of that and the fertility massage I have been doing. But anyway, we were both so pleased yesterday morning - even walking around the farmer's markets we were laughing and joking with each other. I sometimes forget how much my cycles impact on DH and his mental outlook. So in between domestic chores, we have been DTD. Fingers and toes crossed for a BFP this cycle, which would make the baby due around my DH's birthday in October. That would be the best birthday present I could ever give him!
Anyway, must go. Take care all, you are in my thoughts each day
oxo
Cheryl,
That is fab news on all fronts. Clean house, clean womb i say! Ha...and dtd in between chores, i think we would do the housework more often! This month sounds really promising for you. How fantastic that ovulation decided to make an entrance the way it did. So exciting and reassuring that you are doing all you can to help it along. I hope it is a wonderful month for you too. My Dh's birthday is in October too and that is exactly what i thought...what a perfect birthday gift. When we found out we were preg with DD it was 3 days after his birthday so i got extra points that year too! LOL
Good luck sweety.
Dory, My nephews birthday is on the 5th too. I will be thinking of you. I will be in Byron but i will have the computer with me. I hope it will be a mega exciting day for you all round. Have you told anyone yet?
AFM, Yes i am on here rather frequently atm. Probably procrastinating more than anything. There is plenty i should be doing. Our computer and internet are on all day regardless. I should try turning it off at least oneday a week! LOL
CD23 and counting. trying not to count but counting anyway. Had a good day yesterday but a bit of a downer. I find it hard after a weekend with Dh and he goes back to work....miss the pants off him. His tooth is still playing up after a new filling. Poor bugger is in agony.
Anyway fingers crossed in here for a ripper month. xoxo
Chez - that sounds fabulous. glad you had an unexpected O and that you are making the most of it! It's nice to hear you an DH happy.
Gigi - I know what you mean about missing DH after a weekend. Now I am back working outside home its not so bad, but I used to feel really lonely monday mornings! Sorry to hear about his tooth ache. They are unpleasant. I know what you mean about being on BB a lot. I tend to be on weekends but not so much on weekdays..... hmm I love Byron. Have you ever had the organic doughnuts? That's not the only reason I love Byron, I actually love the natural beauty - Mt Warning and the scenic rim in the distance, beautiful beach to walk along and swim at and even some decent surfing areas.
Yeah i just hope that the Blue Bottles make new direction as they are heading that way i heard today. Not happy Jan! I have not tried organic donuts....but now i will...where do i get them from. I love a good donut! I have no idea how to spell it...
Just had a day looking after my kids friends....whoops, my friends kids. It has been a long day. I will look after them in Byron too which will be a fun time. We went to the Princess and the Frog and that was cool. Then my nephews birthday party. The friend was there that had the baby on DD's due date. So she is the age DD should have been. Wow it hit me like a tonne of bricks. I just couldn't stop tears from welling up. I had to keep my back to them most of the afternoon and luckily my SIL noticed and talked to me about random rubbish which helped. Luckily also i had the kids to pull me away and distract me off and on. What a day. i am early to bed tonight....although it might be alone as DH is home and the tennis is on! xoxo
Tennis- What a great Australia Open? (although I was really going for Henin) We watched on ESPN. They would show the matches live late at night/early in morn and then show it again during the day. Lots of fun
Chez- that is great that you O in such an unexpected way. Hooray all the best to you.
Gigi1- What are Blue Bottles? I am unfamiliar with this. Sorry to hear about your DH's tooth. How is it doing? I know what you mean--I hate Mondays because not only do I have to go to work, but I miss my DH. Guess it is a good sign in a way.
Dory- Thinking about you. Glad to hear you are doing well!
AFM:So I am in the 2ww period.I am trying to keep distracted all I can think about is babies (DH is of a pretty similar mindset).
Lots of happy thoughts in here, fingers crossed for all of us!
Cmegles- Good luck for the TWW hun...welcome to madness territory!
Blue bottles are jelly fish hun. Not nice, won't kill you but hurt like hell. Not good.
Anyway sending you baby dust gorgeous. xoo oh and some heat.
Just popping in to see how everyone is travelling. I had a cr@p day yesterday - DH left very early in the morning for an interstate trip and is back tomorrow night. I miss my DH when he is away. It seems like we are all going through this at the moment (sigh).
Anyway, time for some quick personals before bed - I am soooo tired.
Dimples - hi hun. How are you going? I have been thinking of you. I really hope you are able to find some peace after the hospital contacted you with what must have been very hard information to hear. I hope you are doing ok
Dory - glad to hear you are doing well. Not long until your ob visit. Won't a nice strong heart beat be a great birthday present for your DH? I am feeling really good about this and you are sounding so strong and serene.
cmeglles - hope you get through the 2WW without going crazy. Some months I feel like that too - all I can think of is babies and what if I am pg, etc. That was last month. This month not so much - maybe because I wasn't expecting O. Anyway, sending lots of
Gigi1 - thank goodness for distractions in your SIL and the kids to keep your mind off things at the birthday party. Have you considered talking to your friend about seeing her and her baby? I only say that because she might be able to help you to cope better in these situations in the future. One of the things that my psych got me to do was to try to not let those types of situations feel like a threat, which is often why we get upset and try to remove ourselves. If you approach the situation differently for example and try to think not about what you have lost but about the joy of the life that is right there it may help. I know it is easier said than done, but I have found it has helped me enormously. Please feel free to ignore me - I don't want to offend you in anyway. Byron sounds wonderful - I hope you get to spend lots of time with DH.
Hi to Samcougar, Aries, Beata and Blessedatlast.
AFM, in the 2WW but not counting on anything too much. I have a GP appointment for a pap smear in 2 weeks which I might have to move depending on when AF shows up, or IF she shows up? Ok, so a part of me is always hopeful. Have been feeling pretty good except for a cracker of a headache yesterday. Does anyone get headaches after ovulation or during AF? I used to have them sometimes when I was on the pill, usually on CD2 or CD3. My GP told me it was oestrogen withdrawal.
Anyway, just been out for dinner with a friend - I don't like cooking for just one. So I am off to bed.
Just a very very quick pop in from me to say a big hello to everyone and spreading lost of preggy baby dust and sticky vibes to all in the current 2WW!! GL ladies and I'm keeping everything crossed for you I've been feeling lots of positive vibes in here lately!!
Also, blessedatlast I love your new avvy hun! Just gorgeous.
Gigi - How was your SANDS meeting? I was a bit worried about going to my Bonnie Babes meeting as one of the couples that have been going since the month after me have found out they are having another baby. I wasn't really sure if it would be spoken about. As it turned out as there were no new additions to the group this month everyone there knew but it was an unspoken thing. Just a quiet whisper of congratulations not a group discussion thank goodness.. I didn't want this new pregnancy to take away from why we were there. It didn't.. Good Luck in your 2WW lots of :
Dory - Good luck for your appointment tomorrow and Happy Birthday to your DH
Chez and Cmeggles - Good luck for you girls in the 2WW lots of for you
Teagz - A big CONGRATULATIONS on the birth of you Bubba boy.. Hope all is going well
Hi to anyone else I have missed.. Beata, Samcougar, Dimples.... Hope you are all going well
AFM - WELL I have had a big week with TAFE starting.. I have found that the beginning of any new chapter in my life since the twins is hard. I shouldn't be doing this, I should have my 15 month old twin boys!!! Also with DSS starting prep, thats very exciting too!! Anyway on the TTC front: My body is playing tricks on me.. I only bled for 4 days so I have had a regular cycle for the last 2.. Ok so it is only 14days but better than constant bleeding right?? If It had been longer since I started bleeding I would have suspected pregnancy.. Sore boobs, extremely moody, emotional. You name it, I've got it .. I have started temping which I have never done before. I started temping CD8 as well as an OPK.. Both OPK's negative but I have seen a 2 degree rise over 2 days and then it fell today.. Man I'm confused!!!! Anyway, I am going to keep doing it as I think it will be good to take to the natropath which is NEXT FRIDAY!!! I got a call yesterday and they were able to move my appointment. Yay.. I also bought some pre seed lube as well.. It arrived yesterday. We haven't used it yet though Hopefully tonight Lol..
Well I think thats enough for me! I am hoping that taking all these measures I will be UTD in no time!
ETA: I hadn't noticed my new Avvy til just then and I read Beata's post!!!! I am SO EXCITED!!!
Cheryl, thanks hun. Do most of that, Spoke to her twice and we are not that close. I was there for my nephew and not her. I have no warm and fuzzies for her and i handle it best i can. All is good hun. Just will always be hard...no ones fault. She knows that too and is thoughtful enough to not be in my face which i am grateful for. I am doing well with this, just like to vent in here. Thank you so much for putting yourself out there when we can all be so different. I was happy with how it panned out despite my post being a little melancholy. I hope you don' t get challenged with this stuff too often either hun. It sounds like you have a few things worked of for you though which is awesome. You have huge strength. Enjoy your TWW hun! Good luck and plenty of baby dust your way.
Blessedatlast- Sweet, i went and it was good. SANDS are setting up a Subsequent Pregnancy group for that very reason hun. People that are trying again or have children might feel more comfortable there. It is uncomfortable for both parties and it is good to have somewhere for each to go. Sub Preg have a huge need for support too and often enough they seem to drop off (apparently) even though they need continued support. I tend to go to the evening ones more now for the reason that sometimes kids come to the morning tea ones. I have nothing against kids, but when i am in the middle of talking about something, expressing something...and then the person i am talking to just get up mid sentence because their child is about to pull the entire tea and coffee collection off the table. I have ben guilty of taking my nephew there once and never again. I felt too guilty trying to control him and not be 100% that DH and i took turns and playing with him outside. We go there for us, for us both to talk and be heard i guess. We have found the same with some very dear friends. We very intentionally didn't go to some friends for support because we knew they wouldn't be able to be 100% there for us at a time that we needed it. I guess that was just where we were at the time. SO, for m the sub preg evenings will be somewhere i can go to ask about the experience without the conversation being sensitive. We took a lot longer to be comfortable to try again, longer than other we had met. That was just us. Man i am confused for for your cycles too!! Good luck hun and hope you get some answers.
I have gone on enough. Sorry guys...a little log winded.
AFM- Well i am in my room, Byron Bay. Big day just gone and it went well. My friend is starting to see her DS might be ADD or along those lines. There is definitely something going on there which is why I am always commenting on how exhausted i am looking after them. I love them to bits but it is not so confidence building for being a mother when you are stripped of patience, energy and creativity by the second at rapid speed. I usually have a lot of me to give. So we went to the beach today after some great one on one games and puzzles this morning. DH ran him up and down the beach which was cute. He had no idea we were trying to run him ragged!
AND...AF arrived today one day early. I have not stopped much to think about it. But the very thought in the back of my mind is enough to eat at me and make me a little shorter than normal. I kind of knew...actually i knew...so much so i bought a block of Family...dark kitkat and ate 3/4 of the whole thing with out batting an eyelid. I had dragging feeling going on and very bloated (prior to the kitkat that is)
Anyway not pregnant...better be next month as those dreams were unreal!
I just feel myself losing grip sometimes of the dream i clutch onto so tight. So many, too many years have past. I am gutted.
Love and luck to you all. xoxo
Have to be short because I only have a few minutes.
Gigi-ARggh I was really really hoping it would be your month.
blessedatlast-congrats on the Avvy! I find all the testing a little confusing too. I wish it was simpler sometimes, but oh well I guess thats what we get for being women---complex.
beata and chez- lets keep our fingers crossed.
Hi Dimples, Dory, Teagz, anyone I missed
For me- still waiting, no pregnancy sx (hopefully that is a yet) so I am not counting on it. AF should arrive Monday
Wow - its been an eventful week for me, but seems ok now and its so nice to come back in here to check in with my friends.
Gigi1 - the organic doughnuts ( I can't spell it either). They are on the main street, in a little alcove near where Earth and Sea used to be and not to far from subway. I think there is a couple of clothes boutiques on the footpath and then maybe a jewellery store and then the organic doughnuts right at the apex of the alcove. I hope I got back to you in time. I haven't been to Byron since Earth and Sea reopened and I would love to go. Sorry about AF, but god to know you sensed her coming.
Chez, Beata - thinking about you. Chez sorry you had such a crap day.
Blessed - I LOVE your new avatar. What another beautiful way to remember Seth and Tait. I know how you feel about "new steps" in your life. I reckon it's natural to feel like that. The first game of sport I played after Amelia was born, I cried before hand, I cried during and I balled afterwards. It was so good to play and I enjoyed it, but I should have still been pregnant. But it was worth it, as just before the time I fell pg with Amelia, I was representing Qld in that sport, and to play again, it gave me such a sense of satisfaction to do something for me, even though it was hard emotionally, and I dedicated that game to Amelia, and I played like a star. She gave me that strength. I still have those feelings from time time, that I shouldn't be at work because I should be at home with a baby. It gets complicated for me, if I hadn't had a blighted ovum then I wouldn't have been pg with Amelia, if Amelia hadn't died, I wouldn't have been pg with the twins. If the twins hadn't died I wouldn't be pg now. There is no way I can sort through all of that, and try to understand where I would have been. I am where I am, is the best I can do, otherwise it does my head in.
Well AFM I ended up having an emergency appointment with my ob on Tuesday 2 Feb as when I was at work I discovered some bleeding and passed a clot. So it was a quick call to the ob at 2.30pm who said come in at 4.15pm. I went home and rested in between. I was so frightened, and certain I was having a m/c. Anyway, glad I went, got some news I didn't expect - all looks good, bub was where bub should be, dates are spot on, bubs is the right size, the egg yoke is a good size, cervix long and closed, bubs heartbeat very strong and regular, and nothing untoward obvious on ultrasound. I think it made it real for DH that there is really a bub and not just a figment of the imagination of his queasy, tired, hungry, moody and scared wife. We have a little momento picture from the ultrasound. Its the world to me. Ob was fantastic as usual. But he's pretty worried about this pg, and wants to see me weekly from 12 weeks. Luckily we live quite close to his rooms, but that's just by chance. Ob wants me to consider giving up work.
Big decisions ahead for me. It's hard because my brain still works so I can still think and read, so I can do that part of my job, but the other parts of my job perhaps not. I will think about it, talk to HR at work and come up with a plan. I guess not working would give me a lot more time to spend with the cats! And depending on how I am going, visiting friends. No housework though, so for the first time in my life I think I might have to get a maid. They are the things I missed going back to work, the cats, my friends, and having heaps of time for the housework and having a clean house. Weird huh for all my liberation and education, having a clean house is something that gives me a sense pride.
So DH still had the day off today for his birthday but no scan. We snuggled and then had pancakes for breakky. I then read and snoozed - excitement plus, and DH read. He's now on the computer I think. Just like me. Big nerds!
I won't be seeing my ob again for a scheduled appointment until 16 March, also the nuchal translucency scan day, but as always his door is always open for a reassurance scan/appointment. I am so glad I managed to find such a caring ob. Makes a world of difference to have your anxieties validated and patiently listened to and not mocked or brushed away. I certainly didn't think to ask about how the ob dealt with recurrent m/c patients when I first made an appointment, but certainly hit the jackpot.
Take care girls. I think of you a lot, and you are always in my heart.
Wow - what a week! Whew, I am so looking forward to the weekend!
Dory - how exciting for you to have your scan a day earlier than planned, but I am so glad that there was nothing bad after your scare with the bleed. It sounds like you took the absolutely perfect and sensible approach - well done for taking the time to rest. It sounds like you have found a wonderful ob. I hope you manage to find a happy compromise about your work. I understand what you mean when you say your mind still works. And getting a cleaner sounds like a great idea. We have had one for a couple of months now and she is fantastic. Comes on a Friday - it is so nice to come home to a clean house. I find it so much easier to relax into my weekend when the house is clean. It is a bit of a luxury really and I wish I had the time to do it myself but between study and work it is very hard. Your day this morning sounds lovely - snuggling and pancakes - heaven! Hope you get lots of rest over the weekend and no more scares!
Hi Gigi - thanks for your lovely words hun. And sorry that AF has arrived. It sounds like you enjoyed your kitkat though. I have never had a dark kitkat - now you have me thinking... might pick one up tomorrow while doing the groceries ;-) I hope you enjoy your time in Byron. I have had experience with an ADHD child - her mother put her on ritalin which upset me greatly - she was only 3 when she first went on it. I know how hard it can be to cope with these children, but running him ragged on the beach is an excellent idea, and the puzzles are great too. It sounds like you are doing all of the right things. Also we found that yellow food colouring in food like cheezels (her favourite) and some breakfast cereals really set her off. But I am sure you are on top of all of this. Take care hun. I think of you often I am sure you will be in the sub preg group very soon.
Blessedatlast - I love your new avatar. It is a wonderful memorial of your beautiful twins. Glad to hear you have started your TAFE course. I hope you are enjoying it. And great news on your cycle. Things took a long time to settle for me too. Testing and temping is a great idea. It made me feel so much more knowledgeable about my body when talking to Drs. I hope your naturopath appointment goes well next Friday. Bring on the good things in our lives!
Cmeglles - hope AF stays away for you this cycle hun!
to beata, teagz, aries, samcougar and everyone else.
AFM, it's been a crazy busy week but in some ways I actually feel happy because I think I am starting to make headway in my new job and starting to see the impact of having me in the office and taking some of the heat off my boss, consequently things are getting achieved which is rewarding. And great news - my boss has agreed to pay for 100% of my uni fees, which is a great relief. I still have to pay upfront but when I pass they will refund the money - yay! Anyway, its pizza and tv night tonight as it's pouring outside so not worth going to the markets that we were thinking about.
Started bleeding on Sunday.. I know I write this almost every time but I AM SOOO FRUSTRATED!!! I start my nursing diploma on Monday, so I am hoping it gives me a nice distraction.. I am terrified I am going to struggle with the work but I know they have great support. Anyway that's about it for me.. I am tired and feel like crap today.. It is so damn hot.. I shouldn't complain I love the heat but I just have no motivation and the heat makes it worse!! I keep dreaming of pregnancy.. It's weird. I have dreamt about me being pregnant a couple of times then last night I dreamt I was upset because I found out Mum was pregnant and she had just had a little baby.. Weird!!
Boy those results can be confusing! Haha so I guess dory was right---too busy shagging to write! I have been reading though. You all are never far from my thoughts. 
I've been feeling lots of positive vibes in here lately!! 
so I have had a regular cycle for the last 2.. Ok so it is only 14days but better than constant bleeding right?? If It had been longer since I started bleeding I would have suspected pregnancy.. Sore boobs, extremely moody, emotional. You name it, I've got it 
to beata, teagz, aries, samcougar and everyone else.
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