Dory - It was lovely to read about your day remembering Amelia... Sounds like you had a lovely peaceful day. It's shame no one else remembered (or acknowledged) the day. How did that affect you? I didn't give people a chance to forget, I sent a letter with suggestions how to honour Taite and Seth for their 1st birthday.. A bit forward maybe, but I knew I would be really upset or angry if no one remembered or acknowledged them so this was my way of making sure that didn't happen! I probably wont do it again though..
Chez - A baby making rendevous sounds romantic!! I really hope it works.. Imagine telling Bub in years to come how he/she was concieved!
Cmeggles - Glad seeing your friends daughter wasn't too painful.. Good luck this month. It's good to know your DH is on the same page when it comes to TTC.. Sometimes I wonder about DP as he expresses his feelings very differently to me (or not at all!) and sometimes I have to get that reassurance that this is what he wants too and he's not just along for the ride..
AFM - well still no AF.. Only on CD19 though so nothing exciting yet.. I'm not even sure if I O'd because I had what looked like a thermal shift but my temp dipped again. (Or maybe that means I did O, but just didn't concieve??) I am really confused and this is only the 1st cycle of temping so I need to be more patient I think, have a couple more cycles before I try to analyse it.. Umm.. Yeah right I analyse EVERYTHING to do with TTC!!
Hi everyone,
Just a quick and selfish post today I am sorry. I started reading all your messages above and realised I just wasn't taking it in. I am sorry and I will make it up to you all.
AFM- Yesterday was the day we looked back a year ago to when we first heard our DD's heartbeat and then shortly after told she was going to die. Today, 1 year ago is that day our lives changed so dramatically. You know when you look back and you think, at what 'point' did everything change? It was then. Before that moment, that day, we were filled with blissful joy, anticipation, love and such happiness. Pride too, we were so proud of DD, of us, of me.
Oh bu55er, i think i have to have a couple of goes at this. I will be back later.
I miss her so so much. xoxo
I wrote a big post last night and lost it, agrrrrr!!! So will be quick this time, I don't have that much energy. The reason why I have not been posting is that I am absolutely devastated to have found out earlier this week that my beautiful pussy cat Pooky is dying of terminal cancer, so it's just a matter of thime before I have to put her out of her misery. I am so dreading this day, and I know it's very very soon now.
Foe quick personals....
Dory, I hope Amelia's angelversary was as peaceful and as gently to you and your hubby as possible. Big hugs hun
OMG, so sorry ladies, I don't know what happened but I posted with my signature attached, I didn't mean to! Stupid computer!
I'll just keep on going in case I lose this post...
Dory, sorry my post to you got cut off! I hope your're travelling well and you're keeping yourself sane. Look after yourself and take it easy hun.
Blessedatlast, I don't like the 'two line' OKP's, I much prefer the digital ones although they are a lot more expensive. You can get a much cheaper one at Priceline. At least with the digital one, you either get an empty circle indicating on ovulation or the happy face telling you it's going to happed within 24 hours I think. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for AF staying away hun
Cheryl, Cmeglles, praying this month is successful for you ladies
Gigi, I'm so sorry hun, it must be so bittersweet to remember the day when you heard your DD's heart beat and then being told of the devastating news. Big hugs hun, thinking of you. I hope you're feeling better too hun, and I'm so sorry about those speeding fines. Ouch!
If I have forgotten someone I'm sorry, will try to catch up with everyone soon.
Big hugs and lots of and for all my beautiful friends in here.
I am so sorry you have to face this with your Pooky. I feel the same way about animals although we have dogs...they are members of the family, and they think they are human because often we treat them that way. Heaven forbid they find out they are dogs. It would break my heart too to face that decision. I hope you get to spend lots of precious time with her before her time. I hope she is spoilt rotten with all your love. Be gentle and kind to yourself. I wonder what new adventure lies ahead for her in another life.
Thinking of you sweety.
Dory,
Thinking of you hun and sending you love and peace. Everything you did was perfect as you already know . xoox
Blessedatlast,
GIve yourself some time hun, it will all be clearer. If isn't then try something else. I find with temping, THE most important thing detrimental to accurate temping was taking your temp exactly the same time everyday. When i first started i used to just take it when i woke up but that varied and my chart was a bit of a mess with no real clarity. It was only when i started setting an alarm to temp at exactly the same time and then going back to sleep, that i managed to get a chart that was trust worthy. It was a lot tidier and i could be more certain that it was accurate. Good luck hun...unfortunately while it does become habit it can also rule your life a bit. Try to have some fun with it if you can....easier said than done. I did it for years and drove me mad if i didn't have a break from it.
Cmegles,
Sounds perfect hun. I hope you get into that 25% too hun. How adorable of DH, and a massage....you have got the recipe alright. Sounds like all is working to the clock. My fingers are crossed for you both.
Cheryl,
How damn romantic!! Love it. You know your body hun better than a stick does anyway. HOpe this month was the right amount of all crucial ingredients...love, excitement, timing, willing participants and a wish bigger than two of you. Good luck, sounds promising!
AFM,
Doing a little better today. A bit stressed over finances but hopefully that will figure itself out with some tightening of belts for the rest of the year. Does rock your boat when things aren't as you thought.
Praying to see DD in my dreams. I just have an overwhelming desire to see her. I sleep with her ashes still and although that often helps calm me, I still long to see her. I wonder if she is starting to walk, if her hair has grown, what noises and words she is trying to say. I wonder what her favourite foods are.
Anyway, I know she is with us in spirit. It is not enough, but we have that.
Love to you all, sorry if i missed anyone.
HM xoxo
Sadly I have found myself in need of some support, and I was wondering if I could join your thread.
Our first baby was stillborn at 22 weeks, about 2 weeks ago now. DH is back at work and I feel as though I should be moving forward and starting to feel a bit better, but I'm still struggling to get my head around what has happened.
I am still completely shocked and devastated, but I also want to conceive again as soon as we can. I am not wanting to replace our little boy obviously, but I'm completely terrified that we will never be able to concieve and deliver a healthy baby. So I think that in some way being pregnant again will help.
I am really confused about when I will start ovulating again and be able to try, but I guess I just need to let my body recover and start to function normally again.
Dear CharlieB,
Of course you may, I am just so sorry you need to to be here.
You lost your baby boy such a short time ago. No doubt you are confused and shocked still hun. It can take time to hit you. Only you will know how best to handle your grief and I hope you find comfort. No one will be able to tell you when the time is right. You sound quite grounded sweet but be gentle with yourself for as long as you can.
As for Ovulating, we are all different and if you had not problems before you could almost be sure that you will start again as soon as AF starts again. I guess i would be wanting to be sure there was nothing retained and cycles are functioning normally (your normally) before starting again.
Your body will take time to heal hun.
It is a very real fear that 'what if you can't conceive again', and especially if you had challenges the first time which i hope you didn't. Would not wish it on my worst enemy. It is one of the hardest things to do is to surrender. Do what you can, all you can to be healthy and happy and surrender. I am not so good at letting things just 'be'...i fiddle.
I hope you find peace and space to make your decisions.
Love Hm xoxo
CharlieB- Welcome to our little thred, I am so sorry about your little man
You are more than welcome here and you will find that the lovely ladies here are wonderful and very suportive. I don't know what i would have done if i didn't find this site when we lost our little man. Good luck with your TTC journey i hope its a short one.
Charli B - my heart just aches for you. I am so sorry about the loss of your little man. Wow 2 weeks. Everything is so raw and surreal at 2 weeks. Please know you are not alone. In my mind there is no such thing as a replacement baby. You will tcc when you know its right for you. I started after 1 cycle after my m/c at 21 weeks. Ob approved too! I ovulated somewhere between 14-21 days after the m/c - hopefully your cycle gets back on track very quickly. I would like to write more to you right now, but am feeling very spacey. Go gently with yourself, you need to heal emotionally. Take care and write soon, I would like to know how you are doing. I will write more when I feel coherrent. Take care.
to all..
for all my beautiful friends in here.
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