Gigi - I'm so so sorry. The journey is tiring. I just wish it wasn't so unfair..

Tashy- for you too. I hope your sleep starts to improve again for you. The grief is so hard to deal with alone, let alone when you can't sleep. Regarding your paranoia, I doubt anyone who knows what you have been through would not be understanding of that.. Paranoia too is a horrible thing. You need your sleep and strength to deal with that too. Are you getting any help for lack of sleep?

Mummytotwo - the restaurant sounds lovely. Hope you have a great time!