It has been quiet in here lately. Just popping in to say hi and send love to you lovely ladies. This time of year can really be tough...I have felt the wrath of Christmas already for its ups and downs.
I am just about ovulate and i am achey. I might have a cyst, from CD9/10 it has been building with pressure. Hope it is just a good egg. Or maybe i don't. We have really been struggling lately and we are feeling like things are over for us and maybe just maybe we are ready to look at the next step of moving on from this wretched journey of heartache. I have unfortunately had a bit to deal with lately...nothing serious but all as a result of stress i suspect, the stress that comes hand in hand with this path. I want to scream, run...you know, you all know what i am feeling. Thankfully you all do. It has been too long, we have lost so much. It saddens me that i feel like my full potential was never reached. I now feel like there is not enough of me to reach that precipice. I always thought i would be a wonderful mum, now i have to look at being a fantabulous aunty to my nephews and one on the way.
I got to experience birth and the incredible love you feel for your child. I got to feel pregnant and the incredible knowing that comes with that. Knowing you are important and needed, special, never alone, beautiful and apart of something bigger. Oh bugger...will have to finish this later.
We are lost, we are heartbroken and we are done.
Love and thanks to you all ladies, you are incredible mothers to wonderful children. It has been a pleasure knowing you all. I am sorry i have to go. oxoxoxox
PM me if anyone ever needs anything. I will keep my account but i will rarely be in unless called to be. Much love and luck to you all. xoxoxoxo