To be honest emotionally I am not that great everyone around me has babies or is pregnant and I've almost had that twice
That was one of the hardest things for me, seeing others having their babies while I mourned mine. I was pregnant at the same time as a couple of my cousins and a friend, DS was born right in the middle of them all. It's still difficult, since I'm still in contact and have to endure the birthdays...

And the "almost had that twice" part, I definitely feel you there. From eight weeks with my daughter I just thought "I've been through the full length of a pregnancy, can't I just have my baby?!"