Hi Ellie. I hope you are okay in the days leading up to your baby's due date. I also hope that you have others around you to support you. At the very least you know that we are all here and understand exactly what you are going through. You have obviously had a tough ride, and I hope 2008 brings you some peace and the courage you are looking for.

I got a bit teary before - just thinking about all the 'should be happenings'. I would be 24 weeks on Monday. It all seems so strange at times to realise that I am no longer pregnant. I was speaking to a good friend today for the first time. She was lovely, but I can tell that no matter what she will never really understand what I am going through. She kept trying to put positive spins on things (even though I was already being postive). I think I will at times have to tell her to back off a bit in the nicest possible way. I know she means good, but at times I felt like I was being lectured.

Anyway I hope you are all keeping well.