howdy everyone.
Starbright-big hugs for Zahra's 1 year angelversary coming up. you ARE a mom, just not in the way you intended.
Judy- i like your idea that perhaps you are just cooking a really good egg right now. is it normal for clomid to cause delayed ovulation?
CeCe- soy? so many painful memories coming up, big hugs for you.
Klee- how are you doing? i liked your little song, it is going through my head right now.

so, i tossed this topic out on another thread, and would love to have your all advice too. i'm wondering if any of you are having trouble with the upcoming holidays? i have been plunged into a fresh bout of grief the likes of which i haven't had since 3 or 4 months after Yeti died. i had been making plans for thanksgiving and christmas just like normal . . . food, parties, gifts, cards, etc. then when i sat down the other night to actually solidify my plans with dh, it all hit me like a train wreck. i've been crying for two days now, and i don't know what to do. what have any of you done or plan to do? i figure i could run for a holiday away and just ditch all my family, but that seems so empty for us. or i could show up and cry like a funeral for what should be Yeti's first christmas. all those little things during this season we all do to show our love for our family members, all the love the parents bestow upon their children. each act is a new spear through my heart. anyway, do any of you have some advice or things you've done or plan to do that might help? i've started cross-stitching a bear for a special stocking for Yeti, and that gives me something to do at least. to not even be able to take comfort in a season that has always been special is a lovely touch to grief. thanks for listening. (reading)