Lynn - Havent seen you around this weekend so I hope you are ok :hugs:
Spring - I know you didnt get the good feelings that come with pregnancy with Harry and Pumpkin, and I think it is such a shame. I know this pregnancy will be stressful but try to enjoy it for the wonderful thing it is - you have a little life inside of you that you have every right to enjoy. They really arent in their for long so cherish every movement you feel. I used to get so frustrated when Nicholas would boot me in the ribs cause it hurt but god I would love to feel that again. I really hope you get some moments of enjoyment out of this pregnancy with lil Spring, especially when everything is so different this time and that has to mean the outcome will be totally different. Although the real enjoyment will start when you get to meet him/her in the flesh
Deb - You have been a busy little beaver! The TWW is a s@@@ isnt it, but I promise I will try to hold off testing until Saturday - then if I am lucky enough to get a BFP I get to stay home and enjoy the good news with DH. I have for both of us to get BFPs next week, and for Lynn to O asap, and for the newlyweds to get a BFP too. I dont feel like I am pregnant at all though, no feelings of AF except for the cramping that one day, no sore or swollen boobies, nothing. Oh and also I think it is very admirable to be able to help women through their own births when all you want is one for yourself, I honestly dont think I could do it - but then I am bitter and twisted I think LOL.
Bailey - Thats no good that DH is going away, at least you have DS to keep you company - but I guess it not the same huh, especially in the night. But dont worry, we will keep you company Oh and I wouldnt worry about TMI, like you said this is a TTC thread so if anyone is shocked at the fact we happen to DTD from time to time, they are definitely in the wrong thread LOL.
Hi to all the others - Nat, Chelle, JLK, Michelle, Clare and everybody else,
Well my mum is good, they took us for a drive to see their block of land. They are building a house which has just been started so they wanted us to have a look.
Back to work tomorrow. I so wish I was a lady of leisure... but then on the other hand I was recently for a couple of weeks and I spent the whole week sitting around crying - so I will shut up and stop whinging!
Hi girls, well I just need to vent so just ignore me if you feel like it, I understand.
Well DH called earlier and said that his mum had called him. She asked if it would be ok to call me. Why she didn't just call me I will never know. It says to me that she knows she is in the wrong. What, so now that I am pregnant you want something to do with me????? Didn't I predict that she would kick into MIL of the year mode.
Well DH thought it was a good opportunity and told her how upset I was with her for basically falling off the face of the planet for the last 5 1/2 months. Apparently she got on the defensive and said 'well maybe some people don't know what to say'. WTF, stop thinking about yourself you self centered dim wit ..... It has been almost 6 months, to much time has passed for you to try to disguise your absence with some pathetic poor me excuses. I told DH I didn't want to talk to her and then I decided, why should I keep this inside. I was going to be polite but truthful about how I feel when she called. Well surprise surprise, it is 8.30pm and no call. I should have known. It would have made her too uncomfortable to actually own up to the fact that she has totally abandoned her son and DIL not to mention her grandson.
I am about to write a email to her. I just can't be bothered talking to her if she doesn't call tonight. I consider myself to be a fairly easy going and forgiving person, but being a cowardly self centered person doesn't rate very highly in my book.
Sorry for going on and on, my heart is racing and I just needed to vent.
I am writing this to you in an email, because I am too upset to say it in person.
DH mentioned that you might call. To be totally honest, I didn't really have anything to say, but it didn't matter because you didn't call anyway.
It has been almost 6 months since DH and I lost our child, your grandson and you both have basically fallen off the face of the planet, not one call to me, not one. I understand that you are grieving also, but why did you choose to totally distance yourself? I found it hard to function, let alone call family members, but my Mum and Dad, Sister and closest friends made sure we knew they were there for DH and I and called us to make sure we were surviving. At first I was confused, had I done something? But then as the days passed I realised that I had fallen into the too hard basket and my confusion turned to anger and disappointment.
Every day of our lives is an absolute struggle, you would have no idea what we have been through because you have chosen not to be involved in my life. I can't even begin to explain the dark days I have faced. When you were going through everything will your daughter (which mind you was totally self inflicted by her) I tried to offer support, advice and an ear to listen when you needed. Yet at the time when I needed my family the most, you weren't there.
I am not telling you this to upset either of you, I guess I am telling you this because the longer I stew on my feelings the worse I will get. I feel like now I am pregnant again you will think that I am all better and want to start to be involved again. I do not hold grudges, but I believe in honesty. I only hope that if one day you experience a tragedy that takes away every little bit of happiness and purpose that you have, that your family are there for you. I know that DH and I will be there.
I don't know where to go from here. I guess you will need a bit of time to process this. I don't know if I can talk to you at the moment so I would appreciate if you could write to me before calling me so that I get a chance to try and see if there is some reason for me to understand why you have done what you have.
I am not an unreasonable person, I do not hold grudges. Our relationship can be mended, but ball is in your court.
I don't know if I will regret sending it in the morning, but I have been stewing on this for almost 6 months and it needed to be said. No doubt there will be a barrage of pathetic excuses to come. I just feel so
I feel so bad for you that you are so angry with MIL, I cant blame you really. You have spoken to me about her in the past and in all honesty she probably needs to hear all of that. You have worded the email very well, you havent "attacked" her you have just been honest about how hurt you are. I think you should be proud of yourself because it takes a lot of courage to confront these situations, I am proud of you
I said to someone just tonight that "there is one in every family" and I think in your case it is your MIL - you know one who only ever thinks about themselves, and one who really will just NEVER get it! Dont regret sending the email in the morning, see it as a weight lifted off your shoulders and if you dont get a response I would take it as she is afraid of the confrontation which shows how weak she truly is. But you may find this is the kick in the pants she needs and you may get a reply.
I think you are right that the reason she asked DH if she could ring is because she knows she has done wrong!
Let us know how you go, I will keep my fingers crossed for a positive and heartfelt response.
Lynn, I hope I haven't done anything to upset you. Please just let us know that you are ok. Sorry to bother you with the emails, texts, I am really starting to get worried.
Lynn, the first thing that I want to say is that you are NOT a failure. It is so unfair on yourself to think that way, there is nothing that you could have done to save Cooper and what happened to him was not your fault. I know that your head knows this but I also know how hard it is to convice your heart of this when you are feeling so low. I am so sorry to hear that your sister is being so inconsiderate towards you. I know that it is easy to say, but you cannot change how people are so I think you have to change how you let it affect you, well that is what I have tried to do in the last few months. People just don't understand what it is like for us to have lost a baby, and how it so totally engulfing it is to live with this emptyness everyday. It is going to be hard on you for the next few months with your sister being pregnant, but do not let that or her stop you from TTC and fullfilling your dream of bringing home your baby. Because it will happen Lynn, it will. I have only known you for a couple of months and we have only met twice, but honestly you are one of the sweetest, amazing and bravest people I know, and I hate to see this get the better of you. I know that you must be feeling so lonely right now, but we are all here fighting this long hard battle together, so don't ever think you can't come here and vent. I hope you are feeling a little better and please know that I will be thinking of you and your little man Cooper tommorrow.
Kel.
for both of us to get BFPs next week, and for Lynn to O asap, and for the newlyweds to get a BFP too. I dont feel like I am pregnant at all though, no feelings of AF except for the cramping that one day, no sore or swollen boobies, nothing. Oh and also I think it is very admirable to be able to help women through their own births when all you want is one for yourself, I honestly dont think I could do it - but then I am bitter and twisted I think LOL.
Oh and I wouldnt worry about TMI, like you said this is a TTC thread so if anyone is shocked at the fact we happen to DTD from time to time, they are definitely in the wrong thread LOL.
..... It has been almost 6 months, to much time has passed for you to try to disguise your absence with some pathetic poor me excuses. I told DH I didn't want to talk to her and then I decided, why should I keep this inside. I was going to be polite but truthful about how I feel when she called. Well surprise surprise, it is 8.30pm and no call. I should have known. It would have made her too uncomfortable to actually own up to the fact that she has totally abandoned her son and DIL not to mention her grandson. 
to all of you other lovely ladies.
you O asap :hugs:
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