TTC after Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth or Loss after the first trimester Sept '07

**Lynn** · September 28th, 2007, 04:16 PM

Thanks girls for your messages today for Coop's 10 months birthday. I have spent all morning crying for my little boy and cursing the world at how cruel it was that he was taken from me. Thanks for all your support

Mel - babe i have everything crossed for you

Enjoy the injections! and it will all be so worth it in the end when you get that magical BFP. Call if you need to chat about the meds or anything.

Jo - have a great trip away.

Hi to everyone else

Peach · September 28th, 2007, 04:17 PM

How big was it?
What did it look like?
Did the doctor look at it with a hand held microscope thing?

Lynn - I really can't imagine how you must be feeling, and probably no words can't describe your pain

My heart goes out to you
Jen

**Ellie** · September 28th, 2007, 05:44 PM

Oh Lynn hun...I wish there was something I could say or do...take care and know we are all here for youxxx

Jen - It hadn't got any wider but more raised, become darker with a clear, grey spot in the middle and a new red bit circling the outside...if that makes any sense? Any yes...doc used a little microscope thingy. It didn't look good...much worse than others I've had removed and has only changed since my last pregnancy in August. I'm convinced it's linked to the increase in hormone levels...read it on a website somewhere that moles can change during pregnancy but hopefully all will be ok.

Peach · September 28th, 2007, 05:52 PM

Ellie - At least you are vigilant about checking and if there is anything have got it early. I'm getting mine out next thursday morning and its on my bikini line, I had a bub 3 months ago, you would have thought that someone would have noticed it, midwives / doctors all looking in that department iykwim!

I noticed that you have been TTC for 8 years. My mum also was TTC for 9 years and then when they "gave up" ... I was concieved and as soon as I was born they concieved again straight away all al la natural. I dont know if telling you this does help im sure you have heard it all before.

Jen

**Ellie** · September 28th, 2007, 06:01 PM

Jen, I love those stories...it's the giving up I struggle with...the longing for a baby is so overwhelming some days...I was holding my neighbours 14 week old the other day and my tummy physically ached...but this mole thing has given me a new perspective...along with it being removed on the 3rd anniversary of my ruptured ectopic that nearly killed me...I am lucky to be here with my DH and my beautiful furkids...maybe I should be focusing on what I have rather than what I don't? Life can end in a moment...and you never know when that moment is?

**shereejoy** · September 28th, 2007, 09:46 PM

Wow what a positive outlook you have Ellie. Mwah.

**Ellie** · September 28th, 2007, 09:57 PM

Don't let me fool you...I have absolutely rotten days...but I try really hard to keep it together

**Auntie M** · September 29th, 2007, 04:14 AM

howdy everyone.
Lynn- happy 10 month birthday to Cooper, and big hugs to you, Lynn. you are right, it isn't fair, not at all.

Ellie- i hope all works out - good to get that stuff out asap. dh just had a melanoma removed, and fortunately it was early so that is all he needed (plus observation of other moles). maybe yours will be like that. hugs for this stressful time! CD30 sounds promising!

Mel- such good news from the docs. keeping my fingers crossed.

Shereejoy- how awful for your sister! sometimes the insensitivity of some folks is stunning. be good to yourself dear, these negative emotions are so normal unfortunately. as for me, thanks for asking, i'm going okay just now. trying to be calm or at least what passes for calm for me. first doc appointment will be next week so that'll be some stress. i'm terrified of docs now, to be honest.

**smiley10P** · September 29th, 2007, 09:12 AM

Good morning all.

Ellie -so much heartache, I am in awe of you. I really mean that !. and yes life is so short and we never know when it will end. Noahs death really put things in perspective for us no more wasting time for us. Persue your dreams with a passion everyday. I think you are in a good head space considering what you have been through recently.

Auntie M - go gently thinking off you next week.