Thanks Dream and Flowerchild.

Well I have just spent the last hour or so on the phone to a Doula who Kelly (BB Owner) referred me to.

I cried the entire time and it was so hard to talk about everything she wanted to discuss. She was very empowering though, and discussed with me birth debriefing and hypno birthing. I am going to meet with her next weekend, I feel confident with her that she is going to help get DH and I through this and Lil Spring will be here safe and sound. I just feel so dranined, that conversation was very powerful and even after speaking to her for an hour, I feel a little more clear about what I can acheive as a woman and what I am letting fear do to my confidence.

I almost feel like I need a sleep. You know when you are a kid and you cry so hard you cry yourself to sleep? That is how I feel. Oh well, as the doula said, she will help me re-write my memories to positive ones and that this pregnancy as well as birth is a healing process not a fear ridden experience. She even said that she can help me get excited about this birth. Well we will see about that

Back later alligators. Got to hang out the sheets and clean the bathroom. Fun hey?