Spring - Lunch was a GREAT distraction we sat right under the gas heater and stuffed our faces, I finished with apple struddle! oh and vanillia bean ice cream. Yeah we will be able to get through sept together. Its just my heart has broken so may times know Im not sure how it would hold up to anymore angels? Your shopping trip with DH sounded very nice, it must be so wonderful to have him home. Oh and if you need a hand with the move as long as its not in sept/oct Im around!
Tommysmum- What is it with kids my DS is the same we have tiles right through the downstairs mind you that are cold underfoot and he tells me that his ugh boots "are way to hot"! just has pj pants and a singlet on WT! me and DH have socks trackies a blanket laying on the lounge and he walks out! How long till the house is finished? sounds like a big job and should be beautiful when done. I havnt posted in the other thread but im pretty ok with dates at the moment just let me know.
Well lunch was great, but I have the story to top the family stuff of all, my sister rings me to find out if im going to see her off at the airport well im going to be now! We got into a heated discussion, to cut a long story short her last comment to me was "you choose to get to pregnant that many times,and lose them thats your choice" WTF. My mum wants to kill her! I think she has to join the line. Im so lucky to have other family around me that support. It couldnt have come at a worse time, my baby was due wednesday just past and things are just tough. Im try so hard to keep it together and the littlest thing can set me off......Oh boy Me thinks A good red and a hot bath will do my good.
Sorry for the downer so I will go and have that bath.
Dream - What a horrible thing your sister said to you. I have no advice, I think I am too shocked, but just wanted to send you a big massive
Lynn - Not to long till you get a sneak peek at hope. How exciting!
Mel - Meow, a puddy tat sounds like good fun, heres hoping you don't get too sneezy.
Klee - Happy Birthday for yesterday, I hope you had a great day.
Spring - it sounds like you are really enjoying having hubby home, shopping, luch, movies - what a life
Hi to everyone else, I am being a cr@p poster, but I am just still feeling so :ms: I can't believe how bad I feel, it is worse than my other two pregnancies. i got the sea-sick bands, but they really aren't making much difference. So, just trying not to think about it. Have a great weekend everyone.
Dream - i can't believe your sister said that. Just no tact and NO IDEA at all hey ? I have one of those (sisters) sometimes. Make sure she gets on that plane - it will be the best thing. I just can't believe she is so insensitive - i mean what is wrong with wanting and trying to have another baby - some people just dont get it.
We have extended our house (new living area, office, bathroom, laundry, garage, pool and then renovating the old part of the house (everything). It has taken 1.5 years already. We are doing owner builder however saying that we still got a builder in with starting us off (building the shell). He was very slack and would only turn up when he wanted. So last year we wasted a good 5 months i gthink doing nothing. This year we have wasted probably 3 months - but i guess that would have been normal considering Tommy died - and we just didn't give a sh*t about anything. But now that bubba #3 is coming i really want the house completed (nothing more to do) by December, plus we are having xmas here so it is full steam ahead.
Bailey - sorry to hear you are feeling that way - you poor thing. Hopefully it will settle in a few weeks (ok - days). Just think of it as positive - as much as you can. How is SIL going? Did you tell BIL also?
Hello to everyone - -hope the weather near you is better than it is here. Storms galore here.
Hi Everyone, Nat: I didn't pop in yesterday as I had a migraine so I didn't see your posts - I am sorry.
Well I am not feeling so strong at the moment my love - I am in a pretty ordinary place - feeling very anxious about the weeks to come so I am probably not the best person to answer you right now... But, I guess I just believe. I believe that I will take a live healthy baby home. I am trying to choose to be positive because when I am negative life is just so hard. I only run into trouble when I look ahead too far. If I just look ahead to next weeks obs visit I am right. Looking ahead to 14 -16 weeks (which I have begun to do!) is the end of me... I don't know how my heart would cope with saying goodbye to another baby - pushing it out and never getting to take it home...
I don't think it's a sign you shouldn't try - I think how you are feeling is so very very normal. You are frightened because it's bloody frighteneing and nothing takes the fear away. You can ease it by those weekly visits that most of us have (and I know Dr S is a big proponent of them), by talking to women like us who really understand, and visualising. I visualise *Col's* birth every day. Not the actual birth but holding her/him right after birth - I cry every time - I can "feel" the emotions that I will feel when I actually do it. I also visualise feeling *Col* kick inside me - I always smile when I do it.
There is no magic formula it's really really really hard (read my post in the preg forum) but we are all here for you Nat. Only you can decide if your heart and soul can take it - I think you have got another go in you my love and all my prayers will be with you for a wonderful outcome...
Millie PIllie: Welcome to this thread and I am sorry that you have found yourself here. Do you feel you can share your story with us? :hugs:
Mel: Where are you up to in your cycle my love? If you didn't conceive this cycle what cd will you have your laparoscopy? Just a heads up... If you are thinking of getting a cat - ask your obs to do a toxoplasmosis screen - just to check if you have been exposed. It's really not easy to catch but if you are anything like me - you will worry if you don't know your immunity. You catch it from cat faeces, kitty litter trays, digging in the garden without gloves where a cat may have been and raw meat...
Nat: I am so sorry honey, I didn't know that it was your angels due date on Wednesday. Hug sand cuddles coming your way :hugs: Now about your sister, I can't believe how insensitive she was. Doesn't she know that the only reason you continue down this painful path is because the urge to hold and earth baby is so intense? Tell her Spring said to get a grip! I hope you have managed to take that comment for what it its 'just plain mean' and move on. She doesn't deserve such a wonderful person as you as a sister. Thanks for the offer to help with the move, you are just too kind. Thankfully DH has plenty of burly mates who are going to help and his cousin owns a business so he is lending us the trucks. In DH's words I just have to get myself to the shops and come home once it is done. I'll be over 30 weeks so no moving for me.
Tommysmum: You casa sounds just devine but boy that sounds like a massive logistical task. Well Christmas isn't that far away so before you know it you'll have a sparkling new house and a sweet little baby also.
Bailey: It will pass honey, but for the time being I am sending some more sympathy your way. I don't have any suggestions or magical cures, the best thing I found was just vomiting and then I would feel a bit of relief.
Well we are off to a BBQ today. DH is back and I have a social life again. I am going to get all rugged up though, runing around in underwear in these antartic like temperatures is beyond me.
Deb I am sorry honey, I must have been posting at the same time. I wish my words of comfort could be as soothing as your words of comfort are for me.
The only thin I guess I could say is that I don't think I have *met* a more inspirational woman and a woman who is the epitome of what a mother should be. I feel I have learnt so much from you. Not just the medical stuff, but how to cope with this journey. So if I can do anything to support you like you support each one of us, then I will.
Sending you a big brave today and hoping that your migraine eases and your heart mends.
Nat - I am so so sorry that you have to deal with people's insensitive comments. It is really hard when it comes from your own flesh and blood (trust me, I know!!!). What she needs to understand is that yes you choose to fall pg all those times, but you didn't choose to lose them. She should be supporting you through this especially at this time, not saying nasty, horrible things to you. I have been thinking about you and your angel all week especially Wednesday, as you know. You are such a strong, wonderful person and you will have another baby in your arms very very soon. Sending you the biggest
Deb - I am sorry that you aren't feeling very strong at the moment. I guess we will all have these times and we just need to support each other through the down times. I think like you, I believe that *Hope* is coming home and I try to remain positive. Think about one week at a time and when you get through a week, celebrate it. Celebrate your time with *Col* and the concentrate on your next week with *Col*. Deb he/she is doing so beautifully and I know that he/she will be coming home with you.
Bailey - It sounds as though you have been hit pretty hard with the m/s. I hope it eases up on you soon. Will you be ok to come to the S&K meeting on Wednesday?
Tommysmum - Sounds like a big job but worth it in the end. It will be wonderful to have a new house and a new baby by Christmas.
Spring - enjoy your BBQ. I hope your body is recovering well after the needles! I won't laugh, I promise! Rug up and keep warm, it is freezing out there!
Mel - a kitten sounds wonderful for you. Just don't squash it with all the cuddles you give it. I swear my dogs get angry at me from all the cuddles I give them. They are probably saying, you are so embarrassing mum!
Hi to everyone else, hope you are enjoying your weekends.
Deb - I am sorry you are having such a rough time, after everything you have been through I think you would be abnormal if you were feeling "at ease" iykwim. I so wish I could say something to help but I cant All I can say is that I have a great feeling about Col and I am sure you will be bringing him home to meet his sisters and brother I have worked out that my lap will be on CD5 of next cycle assuming AF arrives on the right day. And re that kitty I have already given DH the heads up that he will be doing the litter and cleaning up after it if I was pg, even when I was pg with Nicholas he cleaned the birds cages and changed their food and water. Also I have bird allergies so he still does it (yep, call me allergy-girl ). What about the raw meat though? I havent heard that before. Do you mean like if I was cooking with raw meat it could be a risk?
Nat - Your sister should be ashamed of herself! How could anyone be so cold? You have not "chosen" for this to happen to you, all you have done is show courage to keep going after being knocked down so many times. Well when September comes around and you try (and succeed) for that much wanted bubba you give her a big "I TOLD YOU SO!".
Bailey - How you feeling today mate? Ya poor bugger, although maybe Faith is just putting the boots in trying to tell you she is there?
Spring - I bet you are enjoying DH being home, BBQ sounds great although hell yeah to rugging up... I dont think my feet have been warm for what feels like months now (although they are a good torture method for DH in bed LOL). Can your landlord just tell you they want you to move? Dont you have a lease or anything? Although as Nat said to me a while ago, new house - new baby
Lynn - LOL @ you embarrassing your dogs... just like my mum did to me when I was in high school, she would make us give her a kiss goodbye and we would be like "oh mum how embarrassing!".
Tommysmum - I can definitely live with 9 months, but its unlikely at this point considering we didnt really try this month. Although bub will be born a little earlier than usual so if IVF worked next month you could be right with the 9 LOL - DH agrees with about the whole putting out more thing, he keeps saying that I should be giving us the optimum chance of getting pregnant by doing it every day of the month... 10 points for effort!
Well I am doing surprisingly ok, and I have been off my anti-depressants for a week and 3 days now so surely that is a good sign? Until I worked out my cycle days to answer Deb I didnt even really have a clue what CD I am now. To be honest I think I have broken my addiction to HPT and OPKs too LOL - I didnt use OPKs this month, just couldnt be bothered really. And I havent even had the inclination to do a HPT :O And to be honest dont think I will, I am not stressed by TTC at all this month and I keep wondering if it is because we have a plan. I have also gotten my head around the IVF thing in the last couple of days, instead of seeing it as a negative thing because it doesnt make sense and shouldnt be necessary I am now thinking well if that is what it takes, we will do and we will get through and if we come out the other side smiling and with the result we want who cares how it happened? I am starting to see it as a positive thing and that maybe I will get that BFP one day soon
Anyway, enough crapping on from me... enjoy the rest of your weekend.
Love Mel
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Hey Mel: I am glad to hear that you are feeling a bit better and you never know, taking the stress out of TTC might be just what you need. As you said, if it turns out that IVF is what you need to bring a baby home, then that is what you will do. About our house, our lease is up in September and the owners have been honest the whole way along that they wanted to move back in. They have agreed to let us out of the lease as of late July early August so that way we can settle in a new place before bub arrives. The could have made us pay up to Sept but thankfully they were reasonable.
Deb: Thinking of you today, I hope you are having a better day.
Well the BBQ yesterday was really nice. There was the sweetest little 6 month old there and surprisingly I felt really at ease with him. I think it was because his mother (who I only met yesterday) had heard about Harry and was very kind to me, asked me about him and didn't try to push her baby on me. She seemed to deal really well with the situation and it wasn't until later in the night that I realised that she is a Paliative Care Doctor so she deals with death all the time. I actually ended up having a really nice night and the bub was just so adorable.
Today is chores day around here. DH is very organised and wants to have 5 days of suits and shirts combos ready for the week. He is currently doing his ironing and then we are going to make sure everything is organised for his first day of his new job. I tell you what, if he has learnt anything from the army, it is organisation. Oh and his ironing puts mine to shame.
Hi girls,
I cant believe I have finally worked up the courage to contribute to this forum.
Although I have written my son's birth story I never thought I could actually start writing right here...Call me crazy I know.
I want to say something like I'm glad we can all share our experiences and what not but it shouldnt be this way!
We shouldnt have to bond over the death of our children!
Having a child shouldnt be this hard, why are we the ones who suffer?
Ahh Im sorry Im getting a bit emotional.
Good luck for all the ladies TTC and may God help calm your souls and mend your hearts.
Thanks everyone - I am feeling better today. I spent some time getting my head space back. I am consciously choosing to look only as far as my next u/s - that is manageable and stressful enough. No more looking ahead!
I had started to think "if this is like the last 3 I will only be pregnant for another 3-4 weeks..." So, no more! Just until Wednesday and that's 3 sleeps away. Indigestion is back and so is constipation so I am feeling better! (how bizarre is that!)
Mel, eating raw or undercooked meat is how you can get toxo - in fact it's easier to contract it that way I believe than from cat faeces. I have seen a couple of cases of toxo and both were from eating raw meat. You should obviously wash you hands well after handling raw meat and if youhave an open cut try not to - but remember women have been preparing meals for millenia too... So, be careful but not paranoid... (I know that's hard ) When is your cd5 my love?
Nat: I meant to say yesterday I am so incredibly sad to hear what your sister said. Tht is just outrageous and I send you a big big hug...
Deb - Sending lots of hugs and positive thoughts up your way. I can't imagine how scary the next few weeks will be for you, but I am positive *Col* is sticking around for a long time yet.
Mel - It's good to hear your new attitude to IVF. Really, who cares how the baby gets here, they can send mine from Mars if they like. Lol, as long as it's not too green. But heres hoping that you don't even need it this month huh.
Spring - Sounds like you are having great fun having DH home. I think having a move will be good right before Lil Spring comes home, everything all new again. Wow, on DH ironing, send him to my place when he is done. Lol, I usually don't buy clothes if they need to be ironed, or I put them in the dryer for 10 mins, thats good enough for me.
Lynn - How are you going? Getting sick yet? Honestly, if you don't start getting soon, I am gonna come and dump mine on your doorstep. It just will not let up! Not complaining of course...much!
Tommysmum - Yeah, get that house finished will ya! Can't wait for summer by the pool, though doubting I will be 'bikini-ready' this summer anyway.
Hello to everybody else out there, hoping you are all well.
Still feeling sick, it is just this lingering yucky feeling, I can't vomit though which is frustrating as that usually makes me feel better instantly. DH keeps joking that it might be twins or triplets and then laughing his stupid head off. I just said to him that the thing I would find most funny would be watching him roll out of the show-room in a 7 seater KIA carnival family car, with no room for surfboards, Lol, that usually shuts him up fast.
Deb - You are such an inspiration to me (im sure everybody you come arcoss) thank you so much. I know how dumb that question was to ask you at the moment but I just see you going on each day, so strong and I know you know just how im feeling so in return I think your plan of each scan at a time is a wonderful idea and I to will send lots and lots of prays your way! I think I have a direct line to god now!!Im just glad to know sometimes that im normal....well as good as it gets! Also glad to hear all those pg sym are back see we are normal. My sister well shes another kettle of fish all together.
I know when I have such wonderful friends like you girls I can get through it, I just wish I could give you more Deb.
Mel - thanks for your support. As far as IVF who givesa how that baba gets in your arms and truly once he/she is born it will be just a distant thought, Im glad that you are doing so well, I do think a plan makes it all a little easier to deal with. when are u getting your kitten?
Lynn - We came up your way today, I rang home but nobody thereIm sorry I missed you. How you feeling today? I will call you later anyway.
Spring - It must be so much fun having DH home now and where can I sign my DH up for ironing and organising skills!! Oh and if you need company shopping of some luch on that moving day ......just call! I love food and shopping!
Bailey - LOVE the kia comment! Have you tried ginger or ginger ale I found this helped the other thing was mineral water (sparkling) dont know if it will work but anyting is worth a try.
Tommysmum - Your palace sounds wonderful! I hope its all done by the time baby gets here! and christmas are you mad .....good on you. as for the sister, im canceling here return ticket! that will fix her little red wagon.
Englishrose - Its not how it should be, and Im glad you have posted. We can maybe just look at it as our angels brought us together for a reason why I cant answer that but at least we have each other. xxx
Well I have not spoken nor texted my sister and of course the whole family now know, but I will take DS to the airport to say f$#@ oh I mean "see you later have a great time and dont come back to soon", but this is what happens when you have never had to be responsible in your life. She is choosing not to have children, Im not against this please dont get me wrong and for her I think its the best thing as she is so very selfish but she makes me see how much I want to be a mum again and give all my love to another person so I should thank her in a way....not that I will. Thank you girls for your support and kind words yes I could have been a little emotional but. By the way that glass of red and a bath was wonderful also a little Barry White playing in the background hit the spot and while I lay there I had a couple of sips for all you pg girls!
Well im going to get dinner going, as school is tomorrow and an early night would be nice. Hi to anyone I have missed and talk soon.
Mel - to you babe. I was the same. I couldn't believe that I had to inject myself to fall pg. But I eventually realised that it doesn't matter how you fall pg as long as you get a healthy baby in the end. I mean who is going to ask when you give birth, how did you fall pg?!?!?! I joke all the time to DH saying that he wasn't even there when I feel pg but as Nat says it takes a while for the and to meet so by the time they did I was at home with DH anyway!! Keep positive and that bfp will come your way very very soon.
Bailey - LOL at the Kia Carnival. Let's see if we can get a 2 for 1 offer!!! Every time we see a van, DH always says thats what we will need for our litter! Only 2 more sleeps and I will know for sure. m/s started yesterday. I was loving it for a day! Today hasn't been too bad, just trying to keep busy. I want the days to go really fast so that Tuesday 11am is here. I hope the m/s eases up for you soon.
Spring - I'll book your DH in for ironing as well! You could make heaps of money out of him! LOL! Glad to hear you had a nice BBQ. It must have been hard around the bub but it sounds like you handled it well.
Nat - OMG! I can't believe I missed you today! I kicked myself when I saw your post We went to the movies and then to my mums. I never go out and when I do look what happens. That's it, I'm not going out again! Your bath sounds wonderful and just what you needed. I listen to Luther Vandros when I am down. Although most of the time it makes me worse because his songs are so emotional.
Deb - I am so happy that you are feeling better today. Take care and rest up, you deserve it!
EnglishRose - welcome. I hope your TTC journey is short and sweet.
Jo - haven't heard from you in a while. How are you going?
Deb - Glad to hear you are feeling a smidge better, I am so positive your scan will be great but I will keep my fingers crossed for you all the same. I am not a big meat fan to be honest, DH is lucky to get red meat (like he did tonight) so I dont handle it all that often and I am practically vego so IF I eat meat it soooo cooked that there is nothing surviving in there LOL. CD5 is Thurs 28th June. S&K have a rememberance day at a church in the city on Fri 29th June (Red Nose Day) and I reeeeeeally want to go but I am not sure if I will be ok. FS said that a lap is only a little surgery which I know is true so I imagine shouldnt cause too much pain but apparently they insufflate the abdo which makes you really uncomfy. Anyway you might know if it will go down in time for the next morning...?
Lynn - Cant wait for your scan. Congrats on the M/S setting in (people reading these threads must think we are weirdos!). OMG almost 7 weeks and it feels like I only just gave you the WOOHOO on the 6 weeks - getting a little greedy arent we
Spring - Wow that must have been hard with the bub, its funny how we have those "strong" days though huh? Some days I am fine with it all and other days just the site of a baby sets my tears flowing.
EnglishRose - So glad you found the strength to post here The first post is the hardest, afterwards you wont look back. Looking forward to seeing you around more.
Bailey - OMG another thing in common... the ironing - my black work pants SHOULD be ironed before wearing but I just chuck em in the dryer while I have a shower (mind you they say do not tumble dry) and as an added bonus they warm up my buns as well! And yeah pretty much 95% of my wardrobe wash and wear stuff - I am soooo lazy!
Nat - How nice are you STILL going to the airport to see your sis off? You are a better person than me that's for sure! Although if she has made your mind up about TTC she might have done you a favour, but yeah I dont think a thanks is at all necessary. We are hoping to move house in a couple of months (our lease is up on 12th Aug) and get a 4 b/r house so we will wait until we have moved and it can be our house warming pressie.
Well not much happening here - went shopping with Mum today and bought a new top to wear to a pub on Fri night. DHs bro has started playing geeeeetar in a band so I am braving the pub scene for the 1st time since Nicholas - god I hope they arent allowed to smoke in pubs here anymore, really cant stand smoke... says the old woman (even though up until 3 years ago I had been a smoker for 12 years!). And the bad bit is I bought a new pair of jeans and had to buy a bigger size But - I am not stupid I know I have put on weight, just didnt think that much! Admittedly they are more low riders than I usually wear so I am telling myself that my hips would still be wide from pregnancy (9 and 1/2 months after childbirth - good one!). Then after that crimped my 5yo Step-DD's hair - does anyone remember having crimped hair as a kid? OMG it brought back so many memories LOL... the raa raa skirt and balloon skirt always went well with the crimped hair!
Oh well, hi to everyone else - hope you all have a good night.
Hey all,
how is everyone doing?
Haven't been on at all this weekend so I have to go back & read all the posts! (LOL, probably should have done that first!)
Mel - LMAO about the crimped hair! I used to love the crimped hair. What about the banana clip - did you have one of those? How tragic but great memories! Good on you for going to the pub. I have not been out since Cooper was born. The most I have done is a restaurant and that was bad enough! I'm such a hermit. I just feel like people are starring at me, which I'm sure there not but that is how I feel. Wow do you think my weeks are going fast??? I don't. Although I have been hanging out for tomorrow for ages and now it is only 1 more sleep. I'm not feeling very good today but I'm not sure if it is the m/s or the worry about tomorrow. Pretty please *Hope* let there be a hearbeat I bought a S&K wrist band today and I have it on. I hope you can get the service on the 29.
Jo - hey there! How are you? Haven't seen you round the traps for a while. Hope you are well.
Hi to everyone else, hope you are all enjoying your Monday
Lynn - good luck for tomorrow! I'll be thinking of you, hope the m/s is kicking in good now! IYKWIM! It's funny how before i would never have wished m/s on anyone! LOL!
Well DH is off to the GP on wednesday to get himself checked out, we think there may be a few problems with him, perhaps some nerve damage due to his diabeties!
Your shopping trip with DH sounded very nice, it must be so wonderful to have him home. Oh and if you need a hand with the move as long as its not in sept/oct Im around!
All I can say is that I have a great feeling about Col and I am sure you will be bringing him home to meet his sisters and brother 
). What about the raw meat though? I havent heard that before. Do you mean like if I was cooking with raw meat it could be a risk? 
LOL - DH agrees with about the whole putting out more thing, he keeps saying that I should be giving us the optimum chance of getting pregnant by doing it every day of the month... 10 points for effort!
and 
to meet so by the time they did I was at home with DH anyway!! Keep positive and that bfp will come your way very very soon.
We went to the movies and then to my mums. I never go out and when I do look what happens. That's it, I'm not going out again! Your bath sounds wonderful and just what you needed. I listen to Luther Vandros when I am down. Although most of the time it makes me worse because his songs are so emotional.
(people reading these threads must think we are weirdos!). OMG almost 7 weeks and it feels like I only just gave you the WOOHOO on the 6 weeks - getting a little greedy arent we 
- my black work pants SHOULD be ironed before wearing but I just chuck em in the dryer while I have a shower (mind you they say do not tumble dry) and as an added bonus they warm up my buns as well! And yeah pretty much 95% of my wardrobe wash and wear stuff - I am soooo lazy!
(even though up until 3 years ago I had been a smoker for 12 years!). And the bad bit is I bought a new pair of jeans and had to buy a bigger size 
But - I am not stupid I know I have put on weight, just didnt think that much! Admittedly they are more low riders than I usually wear so I am telling myself that my hips would still be wide from pregnancy (9 and 1/2 months after childbirth - good one!). Then after that crimped my 5yo Step-DD's hair - does anyone remember having crimped hair as a kid? OMG it brought back so many memories LOL... the raa raa skirt and balloon skirt always went well with the crimped hair!
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