Thanks everyone - I am feeling better today. I spent some time getting my head space back. I am consciously choosing to look only as far as my next u/s - that is manageable and stressful enough. No more looking ahead!
I had started to think "if this is like the last 3 I will only be pregnant for another 3-4 weeks..." So, no more! Just until Wednesday and that's 3 sleeps away. Indigestion is back and so is constipation so I am feeling better! (how bizarre is that!)

Mel, eating raw or undercooked meat is how you can get toxo - in fact it's easier to contract it that way I believe than from cat faeces. I have seen a couple of cases of toxo and both were from eating raw meat. You should obviously wash you hands well after handling raw meat and if youhave an open cut try not to - but remember women have been preparing meals for millenia too... So, be careful but not paranoid... (I know that's hard ) When is your cd5 my love?

Nat: I meant to say yesterday I am so incredibly sad to hear what your sister said. Tht is just outrageous and I send you a big big hug...