Susan, I'm going ok thanks for asking. Just taking each day as it comes. Some are good, some are ok, some are bad, all for various reasons. Don't get me wrong, I am happy to be pg, I just didn't realise it would be THIS hard. The fear of losing another baby is so strong and I just thank *Hope* each night as I go to bed for still being with me and I ask that she stays the whole time. I am trying to enjoy this pg but I'm anxious as well. So many emotions................
I hope that you and all the other girls are on this journey with me very very soon. The TTC journey is so hard, it's so frustrating, and so emotional. Sometimes I still can't believe that this little miracle is growing inside of me. I know what it took to get it and it truely is a miracle. I guess if we have learnt anything after losing our babies, it is how precious life is, and what a miracle a live, healthy baby is. *Hope* is going to be one spoilt bubba.
you hang in there its perfectly fine to feel how you are feeling at this time. just stay strong there and all us girls are here for you when ever you need us.
thats exactly right life is very presious and so many ppl in this world like to abuse it.if they only went though what some ppl have to go through then maybe they would understand. we truely dont know what we have got till it has gone and nobody can say they know how we are feeling unless they have been there and done it themselfs.
I hate that witch!!! I am so sorry Jo. I had everything crossed for you and really thought that this was your month. I hope she is being kind to you. I am sure you are just devastated. Big hugs to you babe
Hey all,
well AF seems to be treating me alright, but i just feel so dissapointed! I told myself I wouldn't get my hopes up, especially with DH's semen problems but I did
I had no AF symptoms (the usual pimples, cramps etc) and I had the sorest boobs, not usually a af symptom for me!
My scan looked good, so we are all stations a go! I am just not sure about my cycle because of my mid month bleeding, so i am not holding much hope for this month, but we will wait and see.
Jo So sorry.... Its a terrible feeling. Hang in there dear. We are all here for you. How long have you been trying if you dont mind me asking?
Short and sweet everyone!! Back to work.
Take care
Kattixoxo
Oh Jo.... :hugs: Don't give up my love... It's damn tough but keep sight of the dream... I wish I could reach thru and give you a hug and make you a nice cuppa... So imagine that I am my love... I have been there so many times and it hurts and it's horrible. Something that helped me was that I would think: "okay only 10 more days and we can begin to try again..."
Great to see you in here Nat - aren't the moods great! I am glad you are happy. ARe you still at your Mum's??? Thanks for your message...
morning ladies
jo - sorry the witch arrived, hoping this is the last month for you.
katti - glad to hear all is okay for ttc, good luck lets hope its short and sweet
deb - hope all is going well, will have to read the other forum to see how you are going. am i imagining it or is your pictures tummy getting bigger?!
nat - good to see you happy, whats the count down at now?
mel - how you doing hun? looking forward to seeing you on sat
georgie - how you going, not much sign of you lately, bit concerned
spring - sorry a belated birthday wish to harry, i could not post but was thinking of you
hi to everyone else
anyway i'm back, bet you didn't even realise i was gone lol, we had some work issues on security, anyway the lowdown was that forums were banned, so I had to convince them it was not a forum per se but a support group, so we succeeded, think i would have gone crazy earlier had they banned this site for good. anyway am a bit confused as to where i am at this cycle, its like day 18 or 19, not sure cause we missed a day coming back, been using opk's since day 10 and nothing, i did have some spotting last friday but not sure what that was about, and to tell you the truth i am so over this bd and so is dp, its kind of making us laugh.
anyway enough of my whinging, ciao for now
Spring - OMG for the first time ever I didnt say Happy Birthday to Harry (~ I am so sorry Harry ~), the only excuse I have is how busy is was with my parents staying and DHs kids staying as well. To be honest, I didnt even remember Nicholas' day on the 5th until Klee text me... as shameful as that is! It was just a hectic week! Anyway, I hope you are ok and again I am sorry.
Klee - Glad to see they allowed BB to unblocked, without a computer at home we would never see you (well not in here anyway)! I was getting a little worried about Georgie as well so I emailed her a few days ago and she replied and is fine, just thought I would let you know. Looking forward to Sat night, will be seeing Maria at S&K tonight so will confirm things and let you know
Katti - So glad to hear your scan was good, your cycle get its act together ASAP!
Jo - Deb gave good advice, she gave the same advice to me once and it actually did help... I was seeing AF's arrival as the end of the world (and although it almost is ) but after she said that I allowed myself to be sad and p**ed off on the day of her arrival and after that I tried to focus on the fact that it was only a couple of weeks until we could try again, it made the time go by alot more quickly. I really hope you get your wish next cycle
Deb - How are you anyway? How is lil Col doing?
Lynn - Ditto - How is lil Hope?
Spring - Ditto again - How is lil Spring?
Bailey - Do I have to say it? OK... Ditto - How is lil Faith?
Tommysmum - Do we have a nickname for your bub yet? If not we have to get one - but hope all is well.
Nat - How is it going without your mum there now? I have to admit I am finding it great, Mum is doing so much housework and cooking really nice meals... last night I told her she can move in if she likes LOL. Problem is her 2 cats are naughty and keep jumping up on the benches, and keep tormenting our poor lil bird!
Wow its sooooo quiet in here lately, just doesnt seem like the old BB
Oh well, break over better get back to work.
Take care,
Mel
Last edited by Mel1977; July 10th, 2007 at 04:23 PM.
I am going okay Mel thanks for asking. I am always here but it's all I've got to keep my head above water right now. I had an u/s yesterday and *Col* is fine and measuring ahead of dates. It's just a bit tough as around this time is when my others have flown away. I need to get past Friday and then the next week and then the next.... But this Friday feels like a big milestone for me. You know I found out something AMAZING - to me anyway - yesterday. Col - Colin means VICTORY! Can you believe it??? As you all know we called our baby *Col* as it's short for MIRACLE (COL).
It reminded me of Klees signs she saw on the bridge...
How are YOU Mel - tell me where you are up to. You haven't posted much and I am wondering if you have a date for you first IVF?
Mel: Don't say sorry for not mentioning Harry's b'day. I think that it is part of the healing journey to be able to make it through those sort of days without thinking about it non-stop. Don't feel guilty. It wasn't until I got on the plane on Friday that I realised it was the 6th. I agree, it has been quiet in here and seems to have changed. I am not quite sure why. Just know that even if I haven't been posting as much, I always check on each and every one of you. I guess I am getting more stressed the further I get along and just find everything a exhausting. I think I understand what Deb means about the cave.
Jo: I am so sorry AF arrived. It is totally natural to get your hopes up so don't beat yourself up. I hope her stay is short and sweet and that a new cycle brings you a wonderful BFP.
Katti81: That is fantastic news about your scan. We'll there will be plenty of going on at your place this cycle. Good luck hun, I have everything crossed for you.
Klee: Phew about the work access, I am so glad that it isn't banned. About OPK's, they can be confusing things. Were your cycles previously regular, Deb is the Dr. OPK's so hopefully she has some more useful advice for you.
Deb: Wow, that sign from Col sent a wonderful feeling through my body. That is just amazing, I know that your Col will be victorious!!! You are doing so very well during your *scary* time and I know that this Friday will come and this Friday will go and little Col will be perfectly happy in mumma's tummy. Give yourself a hug for me.
Thanks all for the positive vibes, I just seem to get a bit down about it all (as we all have at some stage I suppose)
Well today is my b'day, & the first thing I did was snap at DH, when he tried to tease me by asking me what i wanted for my b'day, I turned & snapped that my daughter alive & well would be nice! (So not fair of me to say that, I instantly felt rotten for it!)
Tomorrow is Storms 6mth birthday, so perhaps that was playing on my mind when I snapped at him!
Anyways, he & the kids had already shopped & brought be a beautiful photo frame with a butterfly on it!
Sorry all, I must really sound self absorbed at the moment!
How is everyone else today?
Hi ladies - hope you are all well. It has been very quiet in these threads lately. Well i haven't done my bit i must say - been a bit slack with BB lately - just coming in every few days here and there. So again just a quick one from me.
I hope that AF stays away for you all (sorry Jo to hear of AF turning up for you) and that you are growing healthy little beans in there shortly.
~), the only excuse I have is how busy is was with my parents staying and DHs kids staying as well. To be honest, I didnt even remember Nicholas' day on the 5th until Klee text me... as shameful as that is! It was just a hectic week! Anyway, I hope you are ok and again I am sorry.
your cycle get its act together ASAP!
) but after she said that I allowed myself to be sad and p**ed off on the day of her arrival and after that I tried to focus on the fact that it was only a couple of weeks until we could try again, it made the time go by alot more quickly. I really hope you get your wish next cycle 
going on at your place this cycle. Good luck hun, I have everything crossed for you. 
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