Mel: it is almost 4pm here, so I assume that you are home from the cemetary. I hope so much that it was ok for you. I too have walked in those steps and remember how I felt completely devastated and numb at the same time. I remember the lady asking me if I wanted a bag to put the ern in. A BAG????? What sort of mother puts her child in a Bag? I couldn't even answer her, I just walked out the door clutching my son and took him home. Once we were home, to be honest, I felt a sense of calm, well for a moment anyway. I hope that today, as difficult as it would have been, has brought you some closure and peace. Thinking of you babe, give that boy of yours a big sloppy kiss from me. Have you heard anything about the twin boys? I have been thinking about them and their family. As every minute of every day passes, that can only be a good thing. I day closer to coming home.

Flowerchild: I am going to tell you what you would tell me. That HPT are subject to so many factors and it may be that your urine was a little more diluted, or that the test was exposed the urine for a shorter period. So I for one can't wait until you get so really impressive, steaily increasing HCG levels early next week. I am so envious of your new toilet paper pact. I sit there like an obsessed maniac and try to read my toilet paper like a gypsie would read tea leaves

Lynn: I am sorry you feel nauesous and that you got a BFN. Hey, I know that you don't hold out much hope this month but stranger things have happened. I hope dinner at your sisters was nice and that you feel a bit better shortly. Huge *get better* vibes coming your way.


Dream: Wow, 6 nieces and nephews and their parents, your house must be crazy today. I love big BBQ's, such a nice chance to relax, catch up with family and friends and eat really yummy food. The other awesome bit is the left overs like potato salad and pavlova. Yummo. I hope you are ok honey and that you had a lovely time with your friends and family.

Bailey: That is amazing that your friend's baby survived after being born the size of a coke can. It astonishes me the things that medicine can do. It can't help all of our babies but it is a blessing when it helps someones child.

DH is mowing at the moment and then we are going to have tacos for dinner and watch Boytown. I got my hair cut today (just a trim mind you) and I don't like it so I am having a bit of a sook. The hairdresser was really nice but spent more time talking then concentrating on my hair. She had just got married and asked me if I had any children, I feel like I can't deny Harrison so I said, yes, I had a son who was stillborn. She sort of went a bit quiet after that. I also had a really bad dream last night, I don't remember the exact details but the theme of it was 'it's happening again'. I posted to Clare last night and put in some details about what was wrong with Harry so it was on my mind. It was quiet upsetting so all in all I am in a bit of a whingy mood. Oh well, I am so happy to have DH here to give me TLC so I am going to make the most of it. He goes back tomorrow

Kerry, Mish and Tess and anyone else I have missed.

Have a great Saturday night my sweetie pies

Luv Spring