Lynn I don't blame you for being nervous about Sunday. I can drive you there if you would like but I will have to wait outside, no use me fainting in sympathy (lol)
Ah and very funny with the predictions, you are almost as bad as Mel Sorry, not going to give up if this one is a pink or a blue. But nice try though.
Let me know if you need some company on Sunday moring for the BT, if not I'll see you during the day anyway.
Thanks for the offer to come with me for the bt. The bt isn't the bad part it is waiting all day for the results. I usually get them around 3pm. If we are catching up then I might need your support when I get the results. that they are all good!
If I guess right will you tell me...........................he he
We can hang out for the results and when they are awesome we can do the happy dance together.
I just posted to you in the catch up thread about Sunday. I have no plans so let me know what time suits you best. I was thinking another date with a movie and cup of tea afterwards but if you had something else in mind I am easy.
Oh and the only thing I can guarantee if you guess a gender is that there is a 50% chance that you are right (lol)
You're not going to let it out are you?????????????????? That's cool. I will be the same (if I ever get there!!!!!).
Movie and a cuppa sounds goods. I will buzz you tomorrow. We sound like old ladies don't we with our cuppas!!! Oh well, once we have our earth bubbas in our arms we will have a drink to celebrate! (after expressing milk of course )
I can't wait to share the first nice chilled glass of wine with you (after expressing of course) and chatting about what our babies are doing. It will happen soon honey.
I'm sorry this is an extremely selfish post - I dont have it in me to read all of your posts.
Wanted to let you all know that we have failed again this month - AF arrived this morning I have not idea what is going on, she wasnt due until Monday and I really did think there was a great chance I was pregnant this month... as if! I cannot stop crying, to the point where DH has had to take the kids with him to an appointment he has. I dont think I have it in me to keep going, I feel like its all wearing me down to a point I just cant handle. I just pulled myself out of the "big black hole" and I am scared that after today I am going to fall back down. I want to know how much mkore I am expected to go through - as if it isnt hard enough buring my son, now I am going to celebrate his 8 month birthday in a week and I cant even get pregnant.
I am so angry at life and myself, and I just hate everything!
You are not being selfish at all. You have every right to feel upset, angry, furious, confused, sad and everything else that you want to feel. Just let it all out babe, we are all here to listen to you and to be there to lift you up on days like these. It just doesn't seem fair, it is F#%@&D!!!!
Do you feel ok? And when I say that I mean as ok as you can feel. Perhaps if you feel like it you can give you big sister a call so that she can give you some company and a huge hug. It must be hard having the kids there so I am glad DH managed to get them out of the house for a while.
It is really important that you realise that you and DH are doing everything humanley possible to fall pregnant and it is not your fault, you are a wonderful mother to Nicholas and you will be a wonderful mother to an earth baby. I don't know why this has to happen to such a beautiful person. You have been such an amazing friend to me and I would give anything to help you through this dark time.
With AF coming a few days early, it may be because of stress levels. Although it is totally different, when I was at uni and had high levels of stress during exam times, I would find that my cycles would get a bit out of wack. So don't be to worried about that, I am sure they will get back to normal. When is your appointment with the FS? I remember you saying that it was in May, right down everything that you want to know about and want to be investigated (like your cycle being a bit different) so that when you see the FS you can just hand over the list.
More than anything I want you to know that you are not alone, no matter where we are in our TTC journey, everyone single one of us loves you to bits and would do anything to take away this pain.
If you need anything just let me know, if you feel up to a call later on let me know and I will call you. I'm going to hang around BB for a while to see if you feel like posting some more.
I know I am not alone but sometimes I really feel like I am. Not in the sense that I am the only one going through this journey, but more like I am the only one who is in my head and no one around me (in person that is) knows how it feels. I have text my big sister but dont feel up to calling her. Plus, Michael will be back with the kids soon and I have to try and pull myself together before they arrive.
We are going to MILs this afternoon and she is showing me how to make her home-made vegetarian pasties (which I am totally addicted to) and then staying for dinner. I was considering saying I wasnt going to go cause I know I will be a bit down but then I thought well if I am down I am and they just have to accept that - usually I go to places and put on a brave face like all is peachy but why should I? If they are uncomfortable with it its their problem. I am pretty sure MIL will be ok and understand, FIL is a nuffy anyway so I dont care what he thinks. Plus, we have told the kids we are going so cant change our mind now. My sis suggested them going and me staying home but I really dont think its the best idea for me to stay home alone while I feel like this - I would be a mess by the time they got home.
My FS appointment is on 15th May (2 days after I am due to O next cycle ). I really wish I could get in earlier and try to get to talk to him before I am due to O but apparently he is busy. I know compared to alot of other people who have been trying a whie my fertility problems are insignificant. It is Nicholas 8 month birthday next Saturday and I cannot believe I am still struggling to conceive - I expected I would be about 6 months pregnant by now
Anyway, I will live - thanks for your support, you have no idea how much it means to me
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Sorry, not going to give up if this one is a pink or a blue. But nice try though.
that they are all good!
together.
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I have not idea what is going on, she wasnt due until Monday and I really did think there was a great chance I was pregnant this month... as if! I cannot stop crying, to the point where DH has had to take the kids with him to an appointment he has. I dont think I have it in me to keep going, I feel like its all wearing me down to a point I just cant handle. I just pulled myself out of the "big black hole" and I am scared that after today I am going to fall back down. I want to know how much mkore I am expected to go through - as if it isnt hard enough buring my son, now I am going to celebrate his 8 month birthday in a week and I cant even get pregnant.
). I really wish I could get in earlier and try to get to talk to him before I am due to O but apparently he is busy. I know compared to alot of other people who have been trying a whie my fertility problems are insignificant. It is Nicholas 8 month birthday next Saturday and I cannot believe I am still struggling to conceive - I expected I would be about 6 months pregnant by now
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