Hey Lynn, thanks for understanding what I mean about the whole christmas thing. It's weird, but I just felt like the last one was so fake, so I just wanted it to be better this time. Not just for myself, but for DH and my mum and especially DS. I hate the thought of him having a memory of me just laying around crying all chrissy. In wanting this so much, I have just put too much pressure on us, so I have let it go, and honestly, since accepting that it's not going to happen this year, (stupid golden pig!) I am feeling a little better. Well at least there will be some new bubs amoung us by then, and ours will be in here Janruary right!! Oops, here comes that pressure again. Did I just read that you only have 3 days til ovulation?? Well, go to bed and get some done!! Wow, you and DH will have a busy weekend huh?