Avalanche,

I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. Everything you have written is something that I could have written myself. What you are feeling and doing is so normal. We have all been through it and continue to go through the processes of grieving. Anger is one of the stages and I know that I went through that stage many times.

Like the other girls have said, I too felt guilt when we started TTC again. I would tell Cooper that we weren't replacing him, we never could. We just needed his brother or sister in our arms.

I hope you find some answers as to why you lost your daughter. Be kind to yourself you are in the early raw stages of grieving. Surround yourself with loving and caring people and continue to talk to us, the people that know how you are feeling without you even saying anything at all. We are here for you.

Hugs
Lynn
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