I still get sad about it sometimes if I bother to think about it, but really, I have never done anything i was 'supposed' to in the right order anyhow.
That made a glum preggo chick smile

I could just throw it myself, but I don't want the whole 'omg she's throwing herself a baby shower, what a *****' thing. I don't even want presents, I just want a group of people who like me to sit around with me and eat yummy things and be happy that another little girl is on the way