Kim, I guess because you hadn't made it final till now, it was kinda like a door that you left open a bit, every now and then you could peak in and have a look and know that it was OK, you could go back through it if you wanted to, but to make the decision to close the door tightly behind you is a big move But just think about where you live and the skills you already have - there ae so many options for you there. In time you could look at maybe going into the private sector for nursing when they get that up and running and it's such a proactive place in terms of encouraging employment growth and you already have the skill set to work in retail or even in training. I'm sure that one day when you're ready you will find another job you love just as much.