am listening to olivia in her cot, screaming like a cat and kicking the walls, all because she doesnt want to go to sleep but is soooo tired....oh its just got quiet.... and rebecca is sleeping soundly in my arms coz she wont sleep anywhere else. b/f is still a night mare...oh and shes not tongue tied, we had it looked at coz olivia was. my nipples are stinging and my boobs are huge. during the night my top was soaking so needed a change....bed sheets could have been too but not at that time of night. was up for bec at 1 and 5am, both taking an hour to finish and up for olivia at 4am as dh didnt hear her!!!
Rebecca has the worst nappy rash and screams every time i change her. Its bleeding a bit too. I wash with cotton balls and luke warm water and have put on sudo cream, sigmacort, pawpaw, bepanthan.....what else!!! She poos with every fart and grunt. Poor kid.

Have had a crappy few days with unsettled bubs, no sleep during the day. Managed to get Olivia out of her pjs at 1030 this morning, me am still in mine!!!

Am having second thoughts about having xmas lunch at our place with adams family. Just think im not doing grea and dont need the extra pressure. Although my sil mentioned to me that she had to do it when her dd was only 2 weeks old....gees thanks for the support!!! Plus I wasnt around then anyway. So am going to get dh to ask his mum to have it at her place. Then my mum rings me last night and suggest that my side and adams side have it together. I dont know about that. i find that a bit strange...does anyone else spend xmas day with both sides of the family at one sitting?

Ok, just needed to get that out....might go sleep.