Well I have been MIA for a while, but now I am all caught up.
I've had a difficult few days/week. Lily was becoming really difficult and I had no idea why. She was screaming all day and hardly sleeping at all. I was a mess and in tears almost all day, and was petrified I was getting post natal depression. DH was at his wits end too, having to work and look after Lil and I. When it came to him having to do 2 night shifts at work, I fell apart! So we went to the Dr. who suggested that I might not have enough milk for Lily and giving Lil a bit of a bottle, which I did and she slept for 5hrs! So after more tears from me, mourning not having enough milk and for unwittingly starving my daughter, we are now breast feeding and bottle feeding. I am looking at putting her solely on the bottle, because my boobs are still sore and she's starting to reject me anyway. She gets really frustrated when I put her on the boob and she doesn't latch well, probably because she's such a piggy and just wants the milk without having to do the work!! LOL.
I am sad to put her on the bottle on one hand, but on the other, bf has been such a tough thing for me to do, with my milk not coming in straight after her birth due to me being sick, then I had horrible blisters and sores from her not latching well, then blocked ducts, then oversupply due to the motilium I was on, to feeding her every hour...now this. It's just been one hassle after the other. I'm tired of worrying about feeding her- if I have enough, if she wants it, if she's on correctly. It's becoming too stressful for me. Though I keep putting off weaning her!
I stayed at mums for the past three nights while DH worked night shift and it has made such a difference. Dh has an arvo shift today, and we're back at home so we'll see how we go.
She is back to being a good bub now. She's sleeping usually 12pm-4/5pm then not until 8pm- 12/1am, then back to bed at 2am-5am, then 5am until 7/8am. She cat naps in between in the day time. And she is so happy now, no more crying unless she's hungry, tired or has a tummy pain. She's smiling and even tries to laugh and talk. It's so cute! She's a pleasure and I am so much less stressed out.
To those of you having trouble bf, I understand! And I take my hat off to those of you who are persevering despite your problems. It is so stressful to have a screaming baby at your breast and being unable to aettle them. Or having them on your breast all day. I was crying every time I put her on because I was dreading it. Now it is so much more pleasurable, because I am at ease with giving her a bottle if she needs it.
Ok going to go now, hope things are easier for those of you who need a break!
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