Ok im not doing personals tonight as im having an early night.

i have had the WORST 2 days so far this year...

Yesterday i found out that my cousins dad passed away from a heart attack. He was supposed to be having a bypass soon and yesterday he had an appointment to get die put through (i think that is to see blockages??) anyway he postponed the app until monday because he didnt want to upset his daughter as it was her mum's (his ex wife) birthday yesterday also and they were going out for lunch. He died roughly around lunch time. all i can think of is that if he had of gone to his app he would still be here!! instaed we are having his funeral on monday

AS FOR TODAY...It all started when i had to go to the doctors at 3pm, i had to get bellas bum checked out (as some of you might remember from an earlier post) and the doctor said "ok yep she does have spina biffida, i cant feel the bottom of her spine and there is a gap where there shouldnt be a gap!!"
My heart dropped into my stomach, i felt soo sick and all i wanted to do was cry. He asked me if i had been taking folic acid throughout the pregnancy (well actually he was trying to imply that i hadnt taken it) and i said yes i took it religiously as well as iron tablets.
He showed me all these different diagrams and printed me out some information on spina biffida- he also said you need to see a paed right away and we also need to get some X-rays done.
Before i went to the paed i had to get bellas needles she was a little trooper though she only squealed a tiny bit when the needles actually went in...

Ok so i ended up at the paed's at about 4:10pm and sat in the waiting room until 4:45 and then i finally got called in, he checked everything out and said "nope she is completely fine"
WHAT THE HELL